She is not unaware that Jing Mo does not love her.
She knew it from the time she insisted on marrying him.
Yet he has always treated her with gentleness, even going along with her every wish. For many years now, he has been caring for her in every way. Except for lacking the intimacy between a man and a woman, he has truly been very good to her, and has never had any inappropriate interactions with other women.
So she thought he was simply reserved, and believed that as long as she stayed by his side long enough, she would warm his cold heart.
But she was ultimately mistaken.
Her reluctance to think about it didn't mean she was foolish enough not to understand. There must be someone in his heart.
She just kept deceiving herself, refusing to think about it.
So whenever he showed a slightly unreasonable behavior, she would immediately be alerted to whether something had happened, whether… She didn't want to continue thinking about it, truly didn't want to think about it at all.
