In past lives and the present one, she owes Yu Minglang an apology, for she let down his deep affection, making him wait a lifetime in the past, and now he exhausts himself over her illness.
How wonderful it would be if she were a normal person, if she could control her own heart.
But illness is absolutely something beyond one's own control; many people in society have misconceptions about mental illness, thinking that if patients try hard enough, they can control it. If they can't, they're being pretentious, self-destructive, selfish.
Many people don't understand pre-marital anxiety, compulsive handwashing, or even depression.
So if she loves him, why not marry him? Pretentious!
Knowing washing hands isn't good, why keep doing it? Lack of self-control!
Life is so good, why think about depression and suicide? Useless!
