I was in class when suddenly ayanda looked at her phone and her facial expression changed and she dropped her phone and fell down and it was literally lunch time and it was just the 2 of us and she started crying nonstop and at first I thought maybe someone else decided to teach her a lesson like I did so I let her be and just continued writing my school work acting like I didn't hear her cry like a widow and then she started collapsing and her body was shaking and that's when I felt fear and I was also shaking and crying and then I went to the principals office and we got help from other teachers and rushed her to the hospital and I know that I don't like her at all but I never wish this on anyone including my own nemesis and i even cried.
Lindo came to me and hugged me then he asked
"Babe why are you crying? What's wrong? Talk to me please" he pleaded
And honestly I didn't even know how to even explain what happened in class and the only thing that was in my mind was how I looked at her crying and thinking someone else put her in her place instead of seeing that it was more than a boy that gave her that shock and tears, guilt ate me on why didn't I talk to her and try to make her feel better and in my heart the only thing that was there was guilt and kept on blaming myself for what had happened
"Babe whatever it is you can talk to me" he said while holding me tight and embracing me
(Crying)
" you won't understand anything Lindo cause everything that happened today is all my fault and if it wasn't for my pride I could've avoided this from happening " I said while crying
Lindo looked at me with curiosity
" what do you mean it's your fault just tell me what happened " he asked
And as I was about to express myself to him a teacher disrupted
"Zandile!" She shouted and I stared at her tears filled my eyes and my eyes were swollen
" the principal is calling you" she said boldly
"Okay mam I'm coming now" I said wiping my tears and went straight to the principals office and on my way there everyone staired at me like I'm some dangerous criminal and whatever that was in their minds about me was a good thing cause at the end of the day we both didn't like each other and her state occurred when we were together, alone in the classroom and so I'm definitely at fault here but then let me go face the consequences of my actions and I guess this is a lesson that hate destroys many things and it can make you to watch your enemy die and think that it is just but it's not and so my mind and heart feel a lot of things confusion, doubt and guilt and walking to the principals office I knew that I had to say the truth and I will get judged and I might even get arrested who knows but the only thing in my heart was one wishing that wherever she is she's fine.
I got into the principals office and it was just me and the principal and my class teacher and they both looked at each other and then looked at me and then the principal spoke
"Zandile I called you here to discuss what happened in class since you were the only student with ayanda" she said
" so zandile what happened and I don't wanna judge you until I hear your side of the story and so please tell us what had happened " she said
My body was shaking in fear and then tears flowed from my eyes and when I tried to speak I just murmured and cried
" I_ I _ I _ ( crying) I'm sorry mam but it's not that easy to say anything cause I'm also in shock but I'll try " I said wiping my tears
"We understand but you'll eventually have to speak up weather you like it or not cause what will we say to ayanda's parents" she said boldly
And I took a deep breath then drank some water in her office and felt a bit better and decided to speak out
" so this is what happened it was lunch time and I decided to not take lunch since I wanted to finish of my homework that I didn't do yesterday since I had a lot of work and even ayanda stayed behind but on her side I didn't know why because we barely get along and everyone knows this and while we were in class she would tease me as usual but I just focused on my books and ignored her then she ended up being in her phone and left me be and she was sitting in her desk and while she was on her phone I heard a sound of something getting dropped, I was curious so I looked at her and she seemed devastated and then she started crying and even though obviously I would want to know I didn't ask her nor question why is she crying nor tease her like she would I just looked at her and acted like I didn't even notice she was crying and I thought maybe they broke up with her or she teased something and they put her in her place but then she started collapsing, her body shaking and her mouth was full of foam and then I came to you to ask for help" I said my eyes filled with tears and my heart filled with regret
" did you perhaps see her drinking something " the principal asked
"No mam in fact we both didn't eat or drunk anything but one thing I'm sure of is that if I had asked her what's wrong and tried to comfort her maybe this wouldn't have happened (crying) I know we Don't get along but I didn't wish any of this to happen to her and I wish she could wake up and tease me again than to be stuck in the hospital" I said crying and I couldn't even control my tears
The principal hugged me and then she received a phone call
(Ringing)
"Hello, yes it's the principal"
"My daughter she's awake and I know why she reacted that way"
"What do you mean mam?" The principal asked
"Well it's best we meet in the hospital with that student who reported the matter so that her heart can be at ease" ayanda's mom said
"Okay mam bye
"Bye"
(Hangs up)
" it was ayanda's mother, ayanda Is awake and don't worry it's not your fault you can stop crying now and also you can come with us to see her since she's awake" she said while wiping my tears
" what a relief that she's awake and I'd love to come with you to see her and I owe her an apology cause our beef shouldn't make us neglect each other through hard times (crying) she has to hear what I wanna say to her, then and only then will I feel relieved and happy " I said
" okay Zandile you can go back to class then after school we'll go to the hospital together to see ayanda okay?" She said
"Okay mam thank you" I said with a bit of relief in my heart and then I walked out of the principals office and went back to class
I got into class and all students were looking at me and my desk mate even shifted to another seat and everyone was looking at me in fear like I was gonna hurt them or whatever happened to Ayanda will happen to them and I didn't blame them cause even I would fear sitting in the same chair with someone who most likely almost let her classmate die in misery and so I decided to just write the notes they were writing in class and tried my best to not cry and the teacher noticed the tension my classmates had on me and so she called me in her desk close to her board and said
"Zandile come with your chair and sit with me" she shouted
And I stood up and took the chair and the desk and sat in her desk then she whispered "zandile don't let whatever they are doing get into your head cause at the end of the day you're innocent and they are scared cause they Don't know the full story but I'll clear everything up when you're gone to the hospital okay" she said and I noded.
I continued writing my notes and finished and once I had finished writing them I looked at ayanda's sit and it was empty and tears started flowing and the event that took place was stuck in my mind that I began to shake and uncontrollably and the teacher was scared and I also got foam out of my mouth and everyone was surrounding me and panicked and the Teacher called the principal and asked all my classmates to go out and the moment she arrived everything went blank.