When Meikal wake up from his dream he realized that he just sleep on the couch for whole night.
"I didn't even know when I fall asleep here anyway, I didn't eat anything yesterday, so I should make breakfast for me sandwich should be a better choice in the morning."
After eating his breakfast Meikal started to think about what to do in his free time.
"Let's watch anime no one going to bother me anyway "
while Meikal was watching anime there's come a character who is lonely loser like him. " I don't know why when ever I'm watching this anime it's character always remained me of myself, why author make him like that he should have stand for him, but even I didn't do anything in my life either anyway."
"Life is Just suffering"
"My life never going to be changed."
" I don't know what to do with my miserable life"
"Maybe I should commit suicide, yes that's right death is the most beautiful thing I can ever get in my life"
"If I die then I would never feel pain again"
"But which is the best way to kill myself ?"
"Hung myself or cut my wrist"
"Setting myself on fire is worse thing to do that would be too much pain for me to endure, maybe I just coward like everyone else say I can't even kill myself maybe I'm just born to suffer in this world"saying this thing to him self meikal starts crying.
"Only crying is the one thing that I have done best in my life" Meikal don't know what to do he's will to commit suicide is strong this time because with each passing year Samuel bullying go way worse than before he knows when he meets Samuel after later on the true hell would be waiting for him.
"No, I don't want to die by Samuel hands if I die I should die in peace if I die by samuel hands than my soul could never rest in peace only by killing myself my soul could rest in peace"
" If I didn't born in this cruel world I would never have to suffer"
While thinking of killing him self Meikal saw one scene in anime where MC walking home with his girlfriend and railway passing comes seeing this he gets an idea.
"Yes, this is the best way to die railway line is best because train so fast I will die in just seconds I won't even feel pain or anything." After making, he's mind on it Meikal go outside the house and see it's still afternoon, so there would be lots of people will be there, so he can't commit suicide now he should wait for night because no one would be there at midnight so no one can save him from dying.
After waiting for nighttime to start Meikal saw that it's already midnight" Now, it's perfect time for me to commit suicide because no one would be there." And the place Meikal choose was far away from the city, so it took him hours to reach there.
"The night looks so beautiful full of stars. I never realized that maybe this best time for me dying in beautiful night the gentle breeze feels really good now I have to only wait for the train passing, so I can die."
Meikal then starts walking towards railway line and after reaching there he sits on railway track.
"When train will be coming I can't wait to die all my misery will end."
After waiting for a few minutes Meikal heard train sounds from a distance. But at that moment Meikal thought what if he won't die from impact he's all bones from he's body would break, and he might go in coma for years, or he remains conscious throughout the whole event he will more pain than he ever felt in his life but after thinking about all he went through his life he can't take it anymore.
While Meikal was thinking about everything happened in his miserable life one elderly man pass by that area in night because of darkness he can't see Meikal face, but he knows that someone try to commit suicide, so he starts walking towards Meikal while shouting at him.
"Hey, kid move away from the railway track. If you commit suicide what would happen to people who care about you, I don't know what you are going through, but this is a very bad decision you are making in your life. Killing your self won't solve your problem in life."
Hearing someone voice shouting at him Meikal got startled and seeing someone walking towards his direction meikal starts running from there.
"Looks like there are still few people at this hour I can't commit suicide if there are people at this place they will catch me If they see me trying to commit suicide. Why can't people just mind their own business."
While thinking about this Meikal thought there's already people out there who has seen him it's not wise Idea to commit suicide this time he has to wait for a few days. Thinking that Meikal starts going home.
At the place where Meikal try to commit suicide the old man still there "I don't know what happened to you kid, but I hope you won't try to commit suicide again killing yourself isn't ending to anything. I hope he can live his life." Saying this old man starts walking away from a railway track.
Seeing that he won't get chance to commit suicide Meikal decided to commit suicide week later.
After seven days passed by Meikal decide to go outside his house at midnight this time he chose place very far away from the city so no one can see him.
When he arrives at a place where no one can be seen Meikal thought this is the ideal place to kill himself the area was surrounded by forest and hills. This time night is beautiful, but the wind blew not just gentle breezes but full-blown bone chilling winds. He gave a little shiver as the wind flicked at his bare arms." I don't know why I'm suddenly getting scared for nothing."
Few moments later train comes but seeing the train Meikal just stood there and did nothing seeing train pass by Meikal thought "What am I doing here just standing I come kill myself I should be standing on railway track, but I'm seeing train passing by from distance."
After few moments later second train pass by but this time to Meikal watch just train pass by "maybe I don't have resolved to commit suicide, or I'm just scared to die."
"How can this be happening I should be dead by now." after making he resolved strong again Meikal thought " when next train comes then I will definitely die no one can stop me this time."saying this Meikal starts walking towards railway track after arriving at railway track Meikal stood there for few minutes waiting for train, but train didn't come this time, waiting for train while standing Meikal get frustrated that train didn't come.
"What the hell train still didn't come why it's still late."
Meikal is still standing there, but few hours has pass by, but train still didn't come. Meikal is thinking why train didn't come it's already been 2 hours since last train come.
While Meikal was thinking about train that's when he looks up to the sky he saw something that he couldn't believe with his eyes what he's seeing is the spectacular view of shooting star entering the earth atmosphere. The bright streak of dazzling light It's look beautiful and amazing seeing this Meikal said to himself " I won't die in regret after seeing this shooting star it's look really beautiful." Tears started to drop from his eyes while seeing the bright streak of light and smile appears on his face that always been sad.
Meikal forget everything that has happened to him at this moment and he is just looking at the beautiful night sky.