His avoiding my attempts for a caress, us not having even a moment to talk leisurely about the concerns we still haven't cleared out properly, Karina's words… his reaction to Karina's closeness just now… it all made me unable to gather the energy to be crazy and demand his explanation. It felt useless… it felt stupid.
"… Is it your health? Or… Have I bored you with words? Maybe I did something—"
"No… I..." — I interrupted him. Not wanting him to finish the question because I don't feel like I want to answer honestly. — "I believe I have not rested well. I think it would be best for me to go back."
"… would you like me to call for Talmhach?"
"No, that is completely unnecessary."
"Then… let me accompany you to your chambers." — He stood, offering his hand. Waiting for me to take it as support… but… I truly did not want to. I refused to. Feeling how in my heart tears made it throb. Tears I was not showing but feeling intensely inside.
