Those kinds of experiences would end up having a great enough effect on them to the point of playing a big part in shaping them as a person.
Their every decision from then on could be shaped by those experiences, as they would carry those lessons that had become deeply ingrained within them.
Even if they believed that they had shaken off those experiences of the past, there would be residual traces left on them that could not be so easily washed away.
Those shaped by that kind of trauma would usually find it extremely difficult to break away from the habits they gained through all of that.
Perhaps they would not even realise how such events had transformed them in such a manner that they became unable to consider taking any other way than what they were used to.
Ash had believed that she had changed herself, but it was still very far from that.
