I was cautious, I didn't want anybody to get hurt because of me. I hated the fact I was on edge again. The promise that Tod would never hurt me didn't help me at all. I was in another cage, a very different one. I wasn't confined to one room, unable to leave my bed because I didn't have any clothes. This time I was trapped in the middle of a crowd. I had people around me yet I felt extremely lonely. The idea that Tod would never harm me didn't help at all. I was being isolated again. I could go to work but as soon as we came across other people I lowered my eyes. Tod was very observant; he never let his guard down when he was with me.
I was thinking such behavior must have been very nerve wracking not only for me but for him too. Always watchfull, always suspecting me and any other possible men or women. I was wondering how much time will he need to change his attitude and become violent towards me or have me locked up. I felt the shivers.
Because of all this sick situation I was becoming more and more quiet. Another month has passed and I was sticking to my daily routine like crazy. I was avoiding Tod as much as I could and when we were together I was silent. He knew I was angry so after four weeks of cold war he informed me during breakfast about his brother's wedding.
"We will leave in a week. It will take us some time to get there. I have already arranged for a more comfortable carriage and there will also be a horse prepared for you, if you fancy a ride." He smiled and touched my hand.
I nodded in acknowledgement and felt a bit excited about the trip. I would be going back to Lorcan's house. The very place which was so full of memories, both good and bad ones.
Lorcan's house will be totally different by now, the master is gone, Jay Weremonth was the new owner.
I spent most of the trip buried in warm fur while the carriage was swaying on the uneven road. I was thinking about the past, all that happened. About Lorcan too. The strange thing was the fact that I still missed him sometimes. I know it sounds crazy but in a way a part of me truly loved that impossible man.
Tod was different. He was good in bed, better than I expected yet Lorcan's technique was on another level. Tod had better stamina and was way more needy. Lorcan never expressed his feelings while Tod kept rumbling on and on about how much he loved me. What hasn't changed at all was the fact I still remain in possession of the House of Wermonth.
Technically I was still a slave.
The fortress of the Bridge could be seen from afar. The snake-like bridge, twisting and turning high above the trees' tops. That was a familiar view.
I was back.
We stopped right behind the gate and Tod opened the carriage helping me out as if I had been some frail maiden.
"We are finally here." He smiled looking around.
I managed to step out when Jay appeared accompanied by two servants.
"Brother."
The Weremonth twins hugged each other. It felt nice to watch a scene full of such brotherly affection. Jay stepped back for a moment and then looked at me.
"Kian, glad to see you too." He smiled and stepped closer.
"You look good, my brother's love suits you." There was a playful glint in his eyes. I decided not to let him provoke me.
"It sure does. Lord Weremonth."
"Why so formal? Call me Jay, after all you are Tod's wife so we are a family now."
I almost choked with my own saliva at those words.
We were led inside the castle and received a bedchamber for guests. In the evening there was supposed to be dinner for the whole family.
I felt tired, the whole shaking in the carriage and the tension between me and Tod as well as the return to this fortress where I had lived as Lorcan's lover or sex slave depending on how one wanted to see it, was really overwhelming.
I wanted to have my own room but I knew it was impossible. Tod was taking off his coat, throwing glances at me. We still didn't talk much ever since that incident. I started to unpack my luggage looking for something suitable for the evening dinner. As I was digging through some of the sparkling fancy clothes I felt Tod's presence right behind me.
"Kian." He kneeled and hugged me from behind.
"Don't be angry. You know how much I love you." He buried his face in my hair and I could feel his hot breath on my neck.
I grabbed his hands and tried to free myself only to face him.
He reluctantly allowed me to.
"Tod, we need to make some things clear. I'm not a horny whore who fucks around with every single man or woman who crosses my path. To be precise I only ever slept with two men in my whole life. One was your father and you are the remaining one. I don't intend to change that fact." I looked him in the eyes hoping he might understand what I mean.
Tod's eyes were focused on me and for a moment I could see some sparks in his gaze.
He smiled lightly.
"I know Kian, but you are an extremely tempting beauty. It is not your fault. Others may simply lose their minds looking at you and try to take advantage. You must be protected. My people know that. If they don't do their job properly I have the right to punish them." He hugged me again.
"Kian, let's stop this. I trust you. I just don't trust the other men." He kissed my cheek, then he placed small kisses along my jaw and lower on my neck.
"I missed you Kian. I missed you so much…" His breath was tickling my sensitive skin. His large hands moved slowly down my back. Before I knew it I was on my back with Tod between my legs. He was grinding against me.
"Kian, please … Kian." His hoarse needy voice was calling my name again and again. I could feel how eager he was. In a moment he will do me here on the floor.
"I need to take a bath." I was trying to reason with him.
"No need, we will take a bath together, you are hard too."
Well it was true that my body reacted to the whole stimulation. I wanted to say something more but he sealed my lips while kissing me fiercely.