"How could I have…" Bai Huiqi crumpled on the floor, head in his hands and fingers curling in his hair as he curled into himself, as if trying to make himself disappear. "What sort of a monster does…?"
Face pallid and eyes bloodshot wide, the younger fox spirit's entire body shook as he rocked on the floor, fingers trembling in his hair. "Monster…"
Monster.
Monster. Monster. Monster.
He was a truly incorrigible monster. Irredeemable monster. How could he have done such monstrous things to Hu Lijing? What kind of a vengeful monster, hideous bastard had he been then? No. No. No. He could not— how could he know all this now and still live with Hu Lijing?
After all he'd done, how dare he face the very man whose life he had set ablaze.
How dare. How dare?
