Even though you were so precious back then, the longing turned to ashes, and we couldn't go back to the past.
"Child, do you know? The most important thing between a husband and wife is loyalty. If there's no loyalty, then the breakdown of the marriage is not far off. I once forgot what loyalty was, didn't know what loyalty truly meant, and hurt the one who loved me the most. This is my greatest regret in this life. Time and again, I made decisions that hurt those who loved me the most.
Why can't I keep those who love me close, yet I constantly find ways to hurt them, pushing them away and making them leave me? My heart aches so badly; sometimes, I become numb that I don't know what kind of life I want or what kind of person I wish to love. I just know I miss him a lot. Even during the years with your father, I still missed him greatly.
You might think that as your mother, I seem somewhat indecisive and unfaithful to my husband. But do you know?
