All my thoughts of you are about to turn to ashes, yet you still haven't appeared by my side.
"Do you really think I don't want to let go of all this pain?
It's not that I don't want to let go of those things; I truly have no way to release them. Time and again, I forcibly suppress all the pain deep within me. All I want is a peaceful and steady life, but my life is repeatedly thrown off rhythm. Can't I blame anyone for that?
Should I really be willing to endure all this pain? I watch helplessly as everything changes before my eyes; I watch helplessly as those I care about are being stolen away. Do you know how painful that feels?
No one has ever considered what kind of heart-wrenching pain that feeling is. You always think your choices are right—but what about me? Am I condemned to be abandoned by you as parents over and over, to be hurt again and again?
