Going back to the bed slowly, Feng Jiao Xue returned to filing the information in her mind.
This has always been her first course of action in handling her missions, always take caution and never be complacent as one single variation would possibly ruin the whole mission, she is after all, a professional assassin.
After that night the bullying stopped for a while, but it eventually started again being even worse than before.
What caught her attention however was the small box that she buried that night so that her uncle would never be able to take the true gifts her parenting last gave her.
She was too young to understand what those were at the time and her grandpa only told her to protect them and she will be able to use them when she matured enough. This was the precaution he left for her before he went to seclusion. After all, she wasn't his only responsibility but the entire Feng Clan.
His second son may have become the patriarch but he was the backbone of the clan still. If he falls, there is no telling how precaurious the Feng clan's state would be against the other great clans in the Azure Empire. And as one of the powerhouse of the empire, he could not afford to stagnate if he wants to be able to shelter his family in this tormioled world.
Feng Jiao Xue could not blame the old man. The Feng clan was his family, to him, everyone here was a big family. The Clan had a rule stating that clan members may spar, may have disputes but it was fobidden to truly harm another member.
The old man truly believed that Feng Jiao Xue was cared for and loved in this 'home'. Based on her memories, the old man was cheery and fun, always with a warm grin. He may be one of the strongest in the empire but he was in fact, just a warm grandfather that sees the best in his family.
He was strong and powerful but he was not without fault. He was blind to the flaws of his family. Seeing only the best in each member he holds dear.
For that, Feng Jiao Xue could not fully blame the old man for going to seclusion because in a way, Feng Jiao Xue herself understands that mindset. To prioritize strength not for himself but for those he cared for.
Feng Jiao Xue made a mental note to go check what was burried later when her body was healed enough to dig.
Something from that cheap father of hers surely won't be something simple. At least now she was getting somewhere. She sighed in her mind, knowing that this would be her hardest mission yet, it can't be even counted as an SSS anymore, but any help would do.
She 'tsk' after getting the final memory of this body. How she died.
Since she was young, she was already engaged to the crown prince since her father was after all the Azure Dragon Empires number one geniuses having already been a spirit grandmaster at the age of sixteen and the last she heard when he disappeared was that he was already at the spirit overlord rank.
But who would have thought that the daughter he left behind would turn out to be a cultivation waste.
So, Feng Ming with the help of her brother beat her up bloody and threw her in the middle of the forest behind the Feng Clan.
Remembering that was when she, the current Feng Jiao Xue first woke up. She followed this body's instinct and managed to return.
She staggered muddle heatedly, just following the "memory" of the body. Absentmindedly returning to the shabby bed that she didn't even realize the strangeness of her new environment.
That forest was where the previous Feng Jiao Xue went to gather herbs and hunt small animals to eat.
After receiving all of the body's memories, Feng Jiao Xue couldn't help but let out a sigh before composing herself.
She needs to calm down and rationally think on how to handle this situation.
She slumped back into bed and closed her eyes to think carefully.
This world is no longer her own, this is unfamiliar territory and as an assassin the first thing to do is adapt and remain calm. Panicking or letting her emotion run wild would be counterproductive.
Right, remain calm...
Remain calm...
Calm...
F*ck that! what kind of sh*t is this?! Others transmigrated into a princess, a royal or an overpowered MC with cheats!!! Or at least have some wicked system helping them!!! But why the heck did she transmigrate into a trash!
Did something go wrong with her transmigration?!!
And yes, she does read those novels when she gets a boring mission, although rarely but still she finds them amusing. Some were ridiculous, others actually manage to make her smile or rage. When Lou Xi first found her interest, he started buying more and more of those novels seeing this as a possitive thing that he needed to encourage because his sister finally had a normal hobby.
Feng Jiao Xue could not help her sad smile at the memory. Lou Xi... perhaps... if she managed to have a new life, maybe... maybe he finally got the life he deserves...
'Are you going to look for him then?' The voice she tries so hard to ignore sounded behind her. 'Your just going to be a burden again. Drag him into your mess.'
. As always, Feng Jiao Xue ignored the voice so similar to 'him'. Wherever he is, she prays to whatever deities are out there, let this be her first and last prayer to anyone listening to her. Let her bear the bad karma, just give him a normal life, and perhaps... a sister more deserving of him.
In that thought, she closed her eyes shut refusing to shed another tear.
Whe she opened her eyes, she raised her right arm and stared at the ring sitting peacefully on her ring finger. She can't afford to sulk around. She can't afford to live... in a life she no longer have.
Feng Jiao Xue sat up and assumed the lotus position. Having been on a lot of missions, she met a lot of people and some of them were actually cultivators, especially when she tried looking for an answer in regards to her ring.
They were not as powerful as the ones here, but their strength was far stronger than normal. That was how she managed to get interested in ancient remains connected to those kinds of things.
Feng Jiao Xue used the methods Lou Xi taught her on how to self diagnose in case he couldn't get to her in time. She knows it could be unreliable at times to do so herself but this was precautions they set in place until they meet up
She felt around her body found nothing wrong with her aside from the fact that her veins connecting to the Dantian were clogged by... something?
Well, this is interesting. She raised her brow in interest as her eyes flashed with coldness that could freeze even the bravest man.
Withou the technology of the modern world, Feng Jiao Xue doesn't know how to identfify if this was a malignant or just something clogged. Perhaps its even normal.
'If only Lou Xi was here....' She swallowed that thought down bitterly.
'Lou Xi isn't here anymore.' She scolded herself harshly before the 'voice' could mock her.
Feng Jiao Xue thought of possible solutions in her mind. Going to dig whatever she burried is not going to be easy considering the state of her body. No, recuperation should be her priority first.
Going to experts is out of the question. Not to mention lack of funds, if foul play is in place, she would only alert the culprit and that won't do. Feng Jiao Xue work best in the shadows afterall.
Next option would be... to work with what's already available to her. To take on a gamble.
She could already hear Lou xi barrating her on how this could be the worst idea she can come up with. How reckless and foolish that he wonders if she had hit her head way too many times that her brain has been has been scattered like a bashed up pinata!
Come to think of it, there is a vague memory of being fed porridge when she was little and every time she finished it she would feel dizzy and start to feel uncomfortable around her Dantian and chest.
So, the possibility that she was not born a trash with a physique that is unable to cultivate but someone who was made into one just got higher.
That also explains the surge of energy in her body when she was young. Her emotion was so much that her body went into defensive mode unknowingly.
The memory was already too old for her to recall clearly. Like a hazy dream in the back of her
She twirled her ring as she frowned and bit her lower lips, a habit she accumulated in her previous life when she was thinking.
After trying so hard to remember just who gave her those porridge, she slumped back into the bed in frustration.
Letting out another sigh, she had been doing that a lot since she transmigrated here, she thought before sitting up again.
There is no point in getting flustered, stay calm, there is no point in getting flustered, stay calm.
Repeating that over and over again in her mind she slowly managed to calm herself down to once again think rationally.
Right first things first, solution.
Biting her thumb, she smeared her blood essence in the ring ones again.
Fortunately, she still has access to it. A small smile of relief appeared in her face, so she does have a cheat, that's good.
It has the space of a medium size giant toy box, there are about hundred thousands of silver needles, her assassin cloak which is bluish black with silver trims, and another was a pure white fur coat and of course her silver mask that covers the upper part of her face, it have blood red at the edges of the swirls of patterns with a black rose on the right side and a blue rose on the left just above the ear, a few poisons and medicines of her own creation as well and some dilapidated books and parchment, a few stems, seeds or branches she planned to use to start her fruit, vegetable garden and...
She bit her lips as her eyes watered up.
'How pathetic' The 'voice' sneered behind her once more. 'How many times have you cried? even tearing up over a stupid pile of dirt'
"Shut up!" Feng Jiao Xue hissed with her head bowed. For in that space was a medicine garden for... Lou Xi.
But the 'voice' just laughed coldly, cruely. Far from the warmth of 'his' voice.
'She trully had gone insane' She thought wryly.
Feng Jiao Xue scrunches her eyes close in pain before regaining her bearings. If she could reincarnate, perhaps he had also been able to, or at least been reborn to a better family.
With a deep breath she continued on with her thoughts. She could hardly survive now, she needs to focus on that, she can't be held back by something that can't be undone.
Great she has a cheat, that's good, right, that's good.
Her face stiffened after seeing EVERYTHING that was on her ring.
What kind of a cheap cheat is this?!! What happened to her laser gun? Her hoverboards? Her bombs that could destroy cities? Her nuclear cannons? Where the hell are her weapons?!!
There is only her celestial rose whip, forged by the legendary 13 weapon smith she kidnapped, slash that, invited over. Made from a dark cluster of rock she once found floating in space during one of her space missions since humanity had long advanced to space.
Did she forget to mention that? Yeah, in the world she had come from, humanity was on the verge of fully leaving ancient earth predicting its damnation.
It was the hardest material she could find, its color was black with silverish streaks, and another main material was that of another strange gem, diamond she doesn't know since the scientist was never really sure of its property, It does however change its color whenever exposed to an element. There were also some trinkets she collected over the years. One thing these things have in common? No one was entirely sure of their nature.
Lou Xi along with the cultivators she 'invited' over all worked together for this. Finding cultivators was already as hard as finding a needle in a haystack but since she had a general direction to search, she managed to find some hidden ancient families.
Just when she thought she finally had something that would give her an advantage it turns into air.
Massaging her forehead in frustration, feeling the upcoming headache she tried to remain calm.
This is really trying her patient and testing her conduct as an assassin.
She really is trying her best to stay rational here, really. Even she is impressed with how she is managing to take this in stride.
There is no need in being depressed on something that she does not have control over anymore.
The silver needles can at least help unblock her Dantian which will hopefully enable her to cultivate.
As for the cloak and the mask? Her mouth smile twitches a little, which was already impressive considering how the small smile has remained in her face unchanged for a very long time.
Those two can be ... Souvenirs?
No, she had to make use of everything she had. Even a rock can be a weapon. She could use this as a form of concealment and if, even with the chance of impossible, Lou Xi transmigrated with her, he could perhaps find her too.
The medicine and poison can be useful. One of those can help with the burn on her face. Although she could care less about her look, since the previous Feng Jiao Xue longed for it to disappear so much, she wouldn't mind removing it.
Finding her parents, making her grandpa proud, revenge and recovering her face.
"Feng Jiao Xue since those were the ones you desired most then I shall give it to you as my payment for this body."
She immediately engraved those wishes in her mind as her current mission. She has never failed a mission before, she won't fail this one either, even if it's close to impossible.
For revenge though, she can't be too rushed. What she needs is to first familiarize herself with this world and gain more knowledge.
As an assassin she always takes risks and her experience and knowledge from her past life would make her be able to fight back, but there is a difference between having confidence and being arrogant.
She is still unclear on how she would fare in this world.
She has to be cautious, or she might just lose her life again.
Enduring and laying low would be her best bet while slowly strengthening herself.
Assassins are good at staying in the shadows.
As for the problem with resources, she could always go back to her side profession, being a godly thief.
She is not just a one trick pony after all. She can be considered as a jack of all trades. Thankfully she easily got bored in her previous life, so she managed to learn a lot every time something picks her interest. Aside from one thing though, that doesn't need to be mentioned.
However, there must be a strong desire left on this body since it is somehow affecting her emotions.
It must be the emotions of the previous owner. No matter, since she is now this world Feng Jiao Xue, then they are now her parents and grandfather. She will just take this as being reborn in another body.
Some SSS class and above missions, for a new life, sounds like a fair bargain to her.
Thinking that far, she decided to detoxify herself of that poison first.
Removing her clothes, she flicked her wrist and silver needles appeared in her fingers.
She has done acupuncture on others before but never on herself so she must concentrate on the precision. Which is a lot harder than she originally thought since this body is still unfamiliar to her.
This body is really in a terrible shape, there is hardly any muscle, just bones.
Noting to herself to exercise, nurture and familiarize herself with this body later, she started the acupuncture treatment.
Focusing solely on the procedure it didn't take a while before all the poison in her body was expelled enabling her to let out a sigh of relief