They can't do good for others, can't sacrifice for others, can't let others and themselves achieve the same goals. This is the thing they hate the most.
There's essentially no way to measure right and wrong. All the people, all the things are just laid out there. Whatever they are willing to do, however they are willing to think, is their business. No one will force them. No one will make them do anything, only knowing that what they're doing now is wrong.
"I don't mean to do anything for anyone; I just want you to know that if we don't take risks, we can't have our own freedom. Is this wrong?"
Xinxin knows that no matter how much she says or does, this group of people cannot understand her well-meaning intentions. Perhaps she should never have considered them friends from the very start.
If partners can be loyal to oneself, then they are the ones that cause distress. She feels that these people now are the ones causing her distress, and even deep pain.
