Watching the text in the chat go by like a million miles an hour, the crushing reality kept seeping in.
"Yes sorry for keeping it from you guys! I was engaged, but it's not like it matters right? You all will still keep subbing and donating won't you? My boyfriend is a real stud, here to prove it look at his picture!"
My favorite female streamer who I loved deeply had a mocking face, like it didn't matter what I thought anyway. She happily waved the picture of her boyfriend with his dark skin arm over her shoulder. His hand was squeezing her nipple between his fingers and you could clearly see the blush on her face from the photo.
His masculine thick forearm was nothing like my white thin toothpick, but I always imagined it would be me one day to hold her. Her nipples perked up through her moist cotton shirt with his hand clasping the breast and her lips hovering near his neck. A thin salvia trail arched between her lips and his that showed they recently kissed.
A burning rage exploded in my heart seeing her wear the exact sexy lingerie I paid for in donations beneath the wet tshirt. Only for him to enjoy instead of me, a bastard who probably gave her nothing. His other hand sliding to her crotch slid between her legs ever so slightly, with her letting it all happen.
'Damn bitch! Go and date your gorilla, I hope you two die! You betrayed all of us and your beliefs for one of those animals damn bitch!'
Watching her do her usual routine of exposing her chest partially on camera, she squeezed her breast close together for the camera to see. Only this time with her putting his picture between her chest, completely mocking her loyal fans. She was supposed to be someone based, someone I could put my faith into my beliefs but she betrayed it all.
Playfully sticking out her tongue, she gave her iconic wink as she giggled her body seductively for the camera. Her soft white skin popped with the light blue outfit she wore. The nipples poking beneath and cheeks blushed slightly as she rubbed her chest with both hands. Her armband had a playful armband themed off a certain ww2 group in red.
The girl on stream was the one who I spent my only time on plus all my spare cash on. Kissing the air towards the camera, she pulled her chest outwards and exposed a tiny black tattoo on her chest. It was something I never saw on her before but her donations instantly exploded when the other viewers saw it for some reason.
"For all my special donors, I have an exclusive snow bunny package coming for you~"
'Snow what? What does any of that bullshit mean! Why did her personality do a sudden 180?! Where is the based woman who wanted to go kill people for beliefs?'
She had been my only light in this world, a woman with my ideal body type and personality. She was strong, smart, and most importantly someone I had in my everyday life. The parasocial relationship was my only real friend in this world yet she didn't even care that she shattered that dream.
Crushed by the pain I turned it off, my heart felt so heavy it almost stopped beating. Sitting on a chair in a small countryside house with a noisy air conditioner I felt the weight of reality set in. Taking a deep breath to calm my emotions I restrained the urge to smash everything.
"Ahhhhhh, fuck. I was such a fool…"
She never once cared about me or the countless donations I made. All of her based views I agreed on, and the reason I enjoyed her the most got thrown out the window in one vacation to Jamaica. She went in seeking to prove she wasn't afraid of her haters and came out a whole different woman compared to before. Looking back at the money I spent on this stupid vacation for her, instead of saving I could have left this shed and maybe gone somewhere.
'She never really cared about me, did she…'
I pretended a person I never met was my lover just after all it turned out she wasn't. It was a lesson in life, one that I felt was burning a hole into my heart. Wanting to blow some steam I got up and went over to the bed, trying to do anything to clear my mind of her.
I grabbed the only relief to my pain, a certain side project that I spent all my time tinkering on. A hobby that had begun to consume my mind and all my free time. A sexual machine so complex it was a marvel of technological beauty. Ever since last year when I found a pile of broken down expensive robotic pieces I made part of my daily work to fix the ideal one.
Put next to my bed it was massive, heavy, damaged and broken down. Parts sticking out with wires sticking out of it. She was a broken down high end model sex robot with clear signs of abuse from whoever owned her last. Still her beauty couldn't be hidden, she was a marvel in my eyes of power and sex appeal.
'I picked the biggest, strongest model in the pile, one that could crush a car in her hands…'
She was my only comfort in the garbage pit I called home. The sheer raw muscle power in the machine was stronger the actuators in electric car and her height left little suspense on her might. It was presence that commanded respect and I felt a sort of spiritual calling to fix this machine, to see it stand tall once again.
'I guess I just want to see someone in my life who is strong.'
It always made me feel proud having her, like I had won a trophy nobody else did. The price for something like this far surpassed anything I had or could buy with my entire fortune. She was my greatest treasure and I just wanted this machine to come back to life to be with me. Every damaged piece on her mechanical body was a mission to repair, to see it return to what it once was.
'Even if it's just a lifeless doll, to me it is something more. She is something untouched by those degenerate animals of society.'
Lacking many parts it just sat rotting collecting dust in my shed like house. The components to fix it were far from cheap for me with my low income, but I found where I could get the pieces yesterday. There was just one cost, it was ripping apart every electronic I owned to use their pieces to finish her. I couldn't help but glance at my devices, then back at the sex robot.
'For once, just once in this life I want to do the right thing. I don't care what she was like in the past, I just want her to be with her as she is now.'
She could be repaired at any time if I sacrificed everything else for her. It was the only method to fix her in my situation, a steep price for her salvation. For the longest time I remained torn on the idea to do something, and now the idea grew even further.
Plus these kinds of high end sex robots are built to be both for work and pleasure. She wasn't just a sexual device, she was a person built for everything. Her model's strength could lift a truck with a single arm, and her perfect pinpoint precision could even let it do surgery.
'She was perfection itself, why would someone hurt this perfect machine? I will be the one to change her fate and maybe she can change my own.'
Grabbing my various tools I popped my electronics open and began disassembling my desktop to get the parts she was going to need. My computer's memory card with all my very personal things was slid into an empty data slot on her just to give her a boost.
'Maybe I should delete the porn on that, it is mostly porn..Nah, it can't be too bad.'
She was the kind of quality parts that were absolutely impossible to even dream of purchasing.
Her total ram was in somewhere in the realm of several hundred Exabyte in just one area of function and the data I installed was just a meager single petabyte of data.
Inside the Robot was a perfectly preserved high-end data AI chip that cost enough to pay for a new car, priced to around sixteen million US dollars or enough for a small used car. Carefully I cleaned the dust off it, and reconnected wires that looked forcibly ripped out.
My most prized possession and only ambition now and even when I found her was to reactivate her for myself. Just imagining the dream of a strong backer who had my side in my life was thrilling but the real part was the sexual I was interested in. Her body was smoking hot and I had to contain myself until she was up and running before touching her in that way. Losing my virginity with her as she thanked me for rebuilding her was sorta my biggest dream as she falls in love with me.
'Why should I give up my things, for some other bastards to enjoy! I want to enjoy her for myself and nobody else! I'm sick of this world taking what is mine, and pretending like I own it!'
I had other machines like her in my collection of junk piles, still this one was perfect. Her wide seductive hips mixed perfectly with the large breast on her chest.
Despite the fact most of her body was destroyed from the previous owner, I could tell she was stunning in every way. Once completed she would look identical to a human woman, with nothing separating her from us in any way.
'I will be a real man and finally lose my virginity. This machine is my property and she will do everything I desire without complaint, if she doesn't I can just sell her.'
For the first time in my life I wasn't going to be the one getting stepped on, I was going to finally step on someone else. A woman so strong she could crush me with one hand was going to be obeying me, unlike that disloyal streamer bitch. I really want someone I could vent my frustrations onto knowing it is consequence free.
'If she actually has personality, I don't know if I could be cruel to her..I think I would have to be nice and see how it goes.'
After putting the pieces in the right places the machine took the last of my computer parts, and I nervously sealed her components away from damage. Wiping the dust carefully from her body, I delicately covered her body with my bed sheet. She was going to wake up soon and it was only the right thing to provide her with some decency.
'It isn't right I look at her in that way just yet.'
Without me doing anything she had begun to come alive, with noise coming from the components inside of her. Her chest rose slightly like it sucked in oxygen, her eyelids slowly began to flutter. Her hand clenched, her legs shook slightly, as the fingers began to move slowly.
"I did it! I actually did it! Oh she is waking up…"
Raising her chin up slowly the robot moved its eyes and stared into my eager face. Two still eyes with darkness in the center of her pupil stared into me. The sheet was pulled slightly closer to her body, revealing a seductive shape of two breasts and nipples below. Averting my eyes slightly, I blushed unsure how to handle her.
'Should I look away?'
The idea of having sex with it and having my way with this machine felt amazing even thinking of it before. Now that she was alive hesitation spread in my heart, it was so visceral she felt like a real person to me.
Working up the courage to look back at her, her eyes stared into my eyes without any emotion to them. Looking at her body that was built for sex appeal, many exciting ideas flashed through my head again. Do I touch her now to see how she reacts, or should I wait for her to finish loading?
'I want to push her down and have some fun right now, maybe I should? Wait! I might break something, I need to be gentle with her for now…'
Was she just a doll with a chip for work purposes or was there a personality inside her. Scratching the side of my chin, I raised my hand up to wave at her.
"Um, are you on?"