Its been so long i can hardly remember. So long, so ancient that no one other then me can remember.
Its been so long im surprised i can remember, but that day or time, was where it all began…
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It was empty, but it wasn't dark but at the same time it wasn't bright either.
It was nothing, there was nothing, just an endless sea of cosmic nothingness.
And yet.
One day, at some point in time. I was just.. there. I knew not what i was, or where i was, all i knew is that i'm here somehow.
But as the march of time flew by, i came to realise that…
I was the only thing that there was in this place, i was just me, all by my lonesome.
The place that i came to be was devoid off any and all concepts but as such i felt no different from it. I should feel nothing, i should know nothing, i should have been nothing.
This abyss wasn't cold or anything as I technically wasn't anything or at least that should have been the case. What, i thought was the case at the time.
The only thing i had going for me was my mind, but there were hardly any things for me to think about at the time.
This lasted for quite some time.
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"Hmm…"
"Hmmm…"
"Hmmmm…"
"Ah"
"…"
"Im so bored"
…
"Wh—y…"
"Why is everything so empty?"
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These were my thoughts from when i was new to existence, they would have been incomprehensible to the me of now if they weren't my thoughts. It was a time of when i had no form, and no body to call my own. Not even a name to stake my claim to existence.
Who knows how long it remained like this for, could it have been years, centuries, Eons?
No it was none of these as it was for an eternity… or so it should have been.
If i was as i am now, I certainly would have chosen to be sleeping instead of laying awake and thinking thats for sure… I wish i knew i could have slept through that time of darkness and loneliness.
For what felt like an ungodly amount of time the space surrounding me remained indifferent and empty until one day, like a paint brush on a blank canvas nothing became something. And later that something.
Becomes everything.
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It began with an rumbling so extreme that void itself began shake. Which immediately caught my attention.
Quakes so strong in space it would dwarf the death of the largest stars. Causing me umparalled confusion.
And then it appeared.
Right out of nowhere.
I had no eyes but yet i could see, and…
It was beautiful…
It was a sight so wonderful,
So dazzling and magical…
If i had a mouth it would be gasping,
If i had limbs they would be frozen in shock and twitching in excitement,
If i had a language, no word nor phrase could describe it…
There was a gargantuan explosion of bright cosmic lights and colours, one like no other, one that seemed to pirce the emptiness away. One that shimmered and birthed the skys.
It was like as though the largest and greatesst firework in existence was lit. And yet no other firework could ever hope to compete.
The lights formed countless shapes in all sizes, It was though a budding flower had just bloomed under a sunset, and illuminated life into this empty fortress of solitude i called home.
The space around me rippled, bouncing as if jumping for joy and glee from that bright first light.
Just reminiscing back at it in my endless archive of memories makes my essence shiver, and soul toss and turn.
This was and still is one of my most treasured amd beloved memories.
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"..—!"
"HOLY ####!!!"
"WHAT WAS THAT???"
"Why is it,— So bright!?"
"W-What, was that!?"
…
My thoughts at the time were full of wonder and confusion after being witness to such an single event, never to happen again.
The lights seemed to dance across the horizon like this for what could be forever.
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"How… Pretty…"
"Magical… how Magical"
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Suprisingly, as the lights reached me, they were moving as if in slow motion, i let them reach me but yet when they did they simply phased through me like i was some sort of ghost. But then again my existence was something akin to that at the time.
This was the very moment that had me questioning the nature of my existence.
…
"How did this happen?"
"Why did this happen?"
"Is there a reason to it?"
"…"
"What… Am i?"
…
These lights that bloomed showed me that i truly exist. That i was more than a figment of my own imagination.
But… at the time, i was mentally the equivalent to a small pebble you'd find the side of the road.
Anyway, shortly after. I began to see that everything was somehow being dragged back to the where the explosion started.
As well as some sort of weird darkness forming around everything in the explosion, which caused the lights to disappear just as quickly as they appeared.
"h-hey… HEY WAIT!"
"WAIT FOR ME!"
Without realising, i was impulsivly rushed towards where that explosion began, not that i knew how i was rushing or moving but move i did!
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Once again it was just empty, just me and my freshly awakened mind, but as time flew my determination to reach that darkness only grew stronger and more fierce.
And as time went i only felt more and more desperate to reach it.
"COME ON! PLEASE DON'T LEAVE ME HERE ALL ALONE!"
I was no longer the same as that void as like how that explosion breathed life into this darkness, it breathed life into my existence, it gave my existence life.
Although the space had seemingly returned to being an plain and silent, i was still there.
Eventually, i reached the edge of where that darkness should be.
I stopped for a while as I was hesitating to enter that strange darkness, until I eventually mustered up the courage to enter.
I saw the lights again
[ch1, Fin]