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Chapter 65 - CHAPTER 18: HALF OF ME

While Finia and Cadin remained in Scabia, Dyan set off for Willfrost Palace. The path looked the same as the last time he had traveled it, but he did not. Every stone, every tree twisted by the wind, every stretch of cobblestone revived that day of his expulsion—a day loaded with ignominy and silences. He hadn't bothered to clear his name yet, nor did he intend to. He was returning for a promise whose price could not be measured in ink or gold, because for it, he was willing to give everything.

The image of Silvania remained intact in his memory: her serious yet warm face; her gaze always piercing, even in the years when illness began to steal her light; her hair that once shone like burning copper and which now, prematurely whitened, was witness to a slow suffering. She had been his refuge in the darkest days. The only one who held him up when he was young, clumsy, and inexperienced. The only one who never turned him away.

Pain had been his guide for many years, but at the end of this road, where new paths opened up, he was not moved by rage or bitterness. He was different—not entirely, he hadn't transmuted into a being of light, nor had he ever been a saint. His sins could not be counted on both hands, nor could memory recall them all. And yet, he had discovered a path when he believed his soul was empty and abandoned in stagnant water.

Dyan let the magic invade him. His body became light, translucent; he merged with the currents of air and slipped like a breeze through the courtyards. The rose bushes in the garden exhaled a faint perfume, and for an instant, he feared seeing her there, sitting in her pergola, drinking tea as she used to. But the chair was empty. A pang crossed his chest.

He continued advancing. He filtered through the cracks of a large window, turned into a breath among the hurried footsteps of the servants. He felt the pulse of magic vibrate stronger the closer he got to her. When he reached the door of Silvania's room, he lacked the courage to knock. The fear that she wasn't there... or that she was, but weaker than before. He slipped under the wood and entered.

His heart pounded upon seeing her. Sitting at her desk, wrapped in a blanket, back straight despite the exhaustion, preserving a dignity that not even time could steal from her. A lump formed in Dyan's throat. For months he had dreamed of this moment, and now that he was there, he felt small, vulnerable.

He approached without a sound. When he was behind her, he embraced her by the shoulders with the desperation of one who fears arriving too late.

Silvania started for an instant, but her soul recognized him before her body did.

"You came at last..." Her fingers sought his, trembling, warm. "I missed you more than my letters let on. None of them managed to tell you how much I needed you. Forgive my frankness... and my fragility."

He closed his eyes, burying his forehead in her hair. The scent was the same: faint, sweet, like fresh leaves at dawn.

"There is nothing to forgive. It is I who must apologize for arriving so late."

"Late?" Silvania smiled slowly, with that elegance only she possessed. "It is never late. Are we not still you and I?"

She sat up with effort. The blanket fell to the floor.

Dyan watched her. Despite the pallor, her green eyes still flashed with an intensity capable of piercing him.

Silvania raised both hands and cupped his face. "My dear Dyan... There are some things that should not be done. Here I am, still standing thanks to your care, but I feel this fragile flesh has almost given up, though my spirit remains as strong as in my youth. Do you remember me as I was then?"

"Every day," he replied without hesitation. "As then, I still wish to shelter in your arms."

She drew him close gently and hugged him. As soon as Dyan's head rested on her shoulder, the knot in his chest came undone. Tears welled up uncontrollably. His sobs were deep, torn from an ancient place. Silvania caressed him softly: the nape of his neck, his shoulders, the silver hair she knew so well, unafraid of the time that had claimed her. She kissed his neck delicately, again and again, wishing to merge into his skin, while he held her as if he feared life would slip through his fingers, as if she were going to come undone in a fleeting second.

"Are you sure?" Silvania whispered, breathing near his ear.

"I've dragged this debt for too long. I am ready. Although... failure is always a possibility. Will you trust me?"

She pulled back just enough to look at him. There was no doubt in her eyes. "As I always have."

Dyan helped her lie back in her bed, sitting beside her without letting go of her hand.

"Dyan..." Silvania said with a soft voice, looking at him with tenderness. "If you fail and I cannot continue here... please, do not leave Eleanor alone. She is still stubborn, but something in her has opened up. I know it. Your words reached her, even if she pretends they didn't."

"She will always count on me," he assured her. "She knows that very well."

Silvania took a deep breath. Her body seemed to sink slowly, as if finally letting go of a weight that had held her for too long.

"Can I ask you one last thing?"

"Of course."

"Did you find what you left for?"

Dyan lowered his gaze. A sincere smile lit up his face. "Some things I found. Others came to me. And the last one... the last one is here, holding my hand."

Silvania smiled with a sweetness she hardly used anymore. "Your queen is pleased. If I leave now, I would only have one doubt, and one sorrow... Am I still the only one?"

"Yes," he whispered. "My queen, my friend, my first love... and perhaps... the last."

She closed her eyes for an instant, as if those words tucked her in.

"That is enough for me... and it is more than I deserve. I know what my sins were. Of some I repent; my guilts are countless. I fulfilled my duty and for a long time I only had loneliness, but having you by my side at the end is what I always dreamed of."

"This is not the end," said Dyan, moved by a force that surpassed him.

A tear fell, following the path the others had left. "I will not say that I don't want to go on and have you stay by my side, but if this is my end... I am not afraid."

He, for the first time, allowed himself a boldness he had always avoided, but in that instant, he didn't care about her reproach: he leaned in and kissed her without shame. Her lips were soft, cold from illness. Silvania did not push him away; she received him with the little strength she had left, clinging to his hand with a passion that defied weakness. A faint blush colored her cheeks.

Dyan pulled back, just a little. He could feel her fragile breath on his lips.

"I don't have a single sorrow left. Thank you, my dear Dyan, my sweet Dyan."

"Trust me... this is not the end."

The mage closed his eyes and let the arcane words form in his mind. The magic of the Ecoscript surged like a silent torrent: letters, sigils, and silver silhouettes rose from the floor and walls, dancing like living beings. The room filled with a light that erased all shadows. A deep hum, almost impossible to describe, trembled in the air.

Dyan's body covered in sweat. His muscles burned like red-hot iron. The pressure threatened to tear him apart. But he did not yield. Everything he had fought for in those years passed before his eyes. Time warped, folding and stretching between them. A foreign, enormous force pulled at them from the edges of existence. Even so, their hands never let go.

The minutes stretched like hours. Perhaps they were seconds. Perhaps an eternity.

And then, silence. The clear morning light entered with placid calm, bathing the room.

Dyan felt Silvania's warm hand. He was confident. He didn't care what price he had paid. She held him firmly, a grip he knew very well, because that was the strength that had lifted him up many times. But he was afraid to open his eyes.

"What are you afraid of, my sweet Dyan?" Silvania was surprised; that voice was hers, but at the same time not, though the surprise vanished immediately. She was still there, and the weakness of her body had vanished. "We are here, the two of us. As always."

"You are right, my Queen."

He opened his eyes.

Silvania was there, sitting up, looking at him. Her emerald eyes shone with new life. Her hair glowed, coppery, falling over her shoulders like strands of fire. Her skin radiated vitality. Her smile was the same one he remembered from his youth.

Dyan broke down. He wept in the arms of his Queen until all the pain accumulated over years dissolved. If he had paid a price, it didn't matter. The purpose for which he became Archmage, after many, many years, had been fulfilled.

There, embraced, without haste. In the warmth of her company. Both knew that this was their place.

Their refuge.

Their peace.

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