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Chapter 95 - Chapter095: Love Is Terrifying

Grace Barron climbed the stairs and stepped into the bedroom. She shrugged off her coat and let it fall aside, undid the top button of her blouse, slipped into the change of undergarments she'd brought, and padded into the bathroom.

There was a soft click — the bathroom light came on — and the warm glow spilled into every corner, softening even the stainless-steel fixtures until they seemed less cold, as if the room itself had learned to be gentle.

Grace had just tossed her old bra into a basket and was about to sweep her hair up when she froze. Something in the fixtures' quiet order had shifted; the bathroom felt… different.

She looked around more slowly, as if the space might answer if she asked gently. The mouthwash cups had been replaced. The towels, the toothbrushes, the headband she used to tie her hair — everything looked new, crisp, chosen. Small, thoughtful objects that hadn't been there before now sat arranged with quiet purpose.

She picked up the two rinsing cups from the counter and ran a fingertip along their surfaces. They were warm in the hand, both cool and sweetly designed like a shared joke: one cup blue, one pink. She lifted the electric toothbrushes — one in powder pink, the other a calm blue — simple, modern, the sort of little luxury that fits into a life with someone else. It was obvious: someone had chosen these things with care.

Her gaze drifted, and finally fixed on a small sticker at the bottom of the mirror. The handwriting on it had a jaunty domestic pride that made the corners of her mouth ache:

Welcome to Grace & Oakley's little nest ~

At that line, something inside her loosened; the careful composure she'd kept all day gave way. She released the towel in her hands, swung the bathroom door open, and walked out.

She went down the stairs with a pace that felt like flying, each step lighter than the last. Only when the last step was behind her did she stop.

Oakley Ponciano, by the living-room table, had been idly picking at a bag of chips. She turned, surprised to see Grace standing there, and blinked: "What's up?"

Wasn't she going to take a shower? How on earth did she manage so quickly? Oakley's thoughts did a slow little pirouette, amused and a touch incredulous.

Grace didn't speak; she simply smiled and crossed the room.

Before Oakley could properly process what was happening, Grace closed the distance and folded her into an embrace.

"Did you come all the way down the stairs just to hug me?" Oakley asked, chip still pinched between two fingers, frozen mid-gesture like a figure caught in a photograph.

"Yes." Grace pressed a light kiss at Oakley's throat, at the hollow there, and it was a small, private punctuation. "I saw it."

"Saw what?" Oakley tilted her head, curious.

Grace's smile hooked into something that made Oakley's heart thrum oddly. "The things in the bathroom. I saw them."

A laugh rose in Oakley, full and delighted. She shut her eyes for a second and breathed in the scent of Grace — a familiar, comforting mix of soap and something quietly intimate — and let herself melt into the hold. "Oh. And?"

Grace tightened her arms, as if the world might try to pry them apart. "I like it. I like it very much."

She felt it then, a feeling both bewildering and elemental: the ridiculous, heady delight of being seen, of finding that ordinary acts — new towels, matching cups — could feel like a love letter when done for you. Oakley had always been amused by other couples' tokens; now that the tokens were hers, it felt like walking on air.

Oakley laughed, soft and bright. "You like it? I thought you'd think it childish."

"How could I?" Grace tucked her chin and kept her voice low. "Let's stay like this. Let's be like this until our hair goes white."

Oakley tried to make her face small with sweetness. Her eyes arced into twin crescents. "Yes. I'll hold you to that." She kissed Grace on the cheek, and Grace returned the kiss with the kind of tenderness that kept time suspended.

Only then did they let themselves be two people in a room and call that — quietly, utterly — home.

The next evening, Grace left the office without lingering. She drove straight home to pick Oakley up; together they headed for the restaurant where Jeff MacAdam had arranged to meet them.

The city rolled past in broad strokes — streetlamps and skeletal winter trees that jutted like black fingers against the steel-gray sky. The wind ran vicious and brisk, sweeping a thin, melancholy film over the streets. But Skylark, for all its season's austerity, had hung red lanterns across the boulevards; the little fires of color softened the world, and the city's bustle returned warmth to the edges of winter.

They arrived around half past six. Grace eased the car into a space, took Oakley's hand, and they walked together up to the hotel. The lobby's decor was ornate, slightly gilded, the sort of safe opulence older men found comforting. Jeff had chosen well — somewhere that suggested solidity and polite taste.

A server guided them down a corridor that smelled faintly of lemon polish and spiced air. At the private room, the door opened, and there they were: a man and a woman already seated.

Jeff looked exactly as Oakley remembered — affable and open-faced, wearing a white shirt under a black coat, his hair cropped short. Glasses perched on his nose gave him a kind, earnest air. Beside him sat Jane MacAdam, his sister: long, straight black hair with a blunt fringe framing a round, luminous face. She looked very young, her skin like porcelain, and there was still a softness at the corners of her eyes that belonged more to a student than to someone leaning into the world.

She was beautiful, indubitably so, but her expression was tightly folded shut. There was an unease between her brows that made her look as though the day had pressed itself too hard into her.

Jeff was pouring tea when the door opened and his face brightened into a broad, genuine smile. "You made it!" he exclaimed, hands busy with the pot. The old ease of college days sat about him like a comfortable jacket: always ready to include, rarely inclined to complication.

Jeff had been the sort of person everyone liked in school — reliable, warm, the friend who moved through a room and seemed to gather people into orbit. His good nature made him popular, yet it was a kind that left him conspicuously unattached.

"We were held up — a bit of traffic," Grace answered, stepping forward with Oakley.

"Oh, no worries," Jeff waved off the apology with theatrical ease. "We just got here ourselves. Sit, sit — make yourselves comfortable."

Grace pulled a chair out for Oakley and introduced: "Oakley, this is Jeff, a friend from college. Jeff, this is my wife, Oakley."

Jeff laughed, delighted. "Oakley Ponciano — of course I know of you! You were the campus legend back then. I never expected to meet you here." His warmth felt sincere, luminous.

Oakley laughed with him, snugging into Grace's hand. "It's fate," she said lightly. "When it's meant to be, there's no escaping it."

Jeff clapped his hands, approving. "Exactly! Destiny finds a way."

Conversation folded and unfurled as they caught up, and the server came to take their orders. Plates arrived — shared, loud, steaming — and yet Oakley's eye kept catching Jane's face. The younger woman moved through the meal as though under glass: slow, small bites, a subdued attentiveness that suggested she was listening to a different current. Her mood had the damped-down quality of someone who had been distanced from warmth for too long.

Oakley, who was not given to immediate assumptions, still could not help herself. "You alright, Jane? You seem a bit quiet tonight," she asked.

Jeff exhaled a small, helpless breath. "She's been like this since last night. I keep trying to coax her out of it, but she's been withdrawn all day."

Jane's small mouth tightened. "I didn't say I was blaming you," she murmured, but even those words came with prickly defense. For someone trying to assert independence, there was nothing more infuriating than being treated like a child.

Jeff smiled apologetically. "Okay, okay — I won't call you a kid." His eyes flicked toward Oakley, sheepish. "Sorry about that."

It emerged, too, in conversation that Jeff had been raised — largely — by grandparents. He had been forced to be adult early on, and that responsibility had hardened him into an instinct to caretake. He was the kind of brother who wanted to make things light, even when the cupboard was deeper.

But Jane drew back, glancing at Oakley with a softness that made Oakley's intuition stir.

She hadn't put herself on display the way the rest of the table did; instead she'd been watching, often quickening her attention the moment Oakley spoke. Oakley had to admit, aloud and to herself, that Jane had texted her before, even added her on apptalk, sent occasional messages asking for help with small things, sometimes even a recipe. Oakley had been warm and friendly — but perhaps she had not let Jane step fully into the circle where private, daily glimpses were visible. The hurt that came from that omission could feel, at times, enormous.

When Oakley asked if Jane was troubled, the girl's answer was small and brittle: "Maybe I'm just… unsettled. A bit restless."

Still, when Oakley complimented her — you've grown into a beautiful young woman — something like the day's weight eased. Jane's expression softened into a shy, quickly suppressed smile, her fingers reflexively touching her cheek. For a moment, sunlight seemed to find her; a small, private bloom.

Oakley found herself caught off-guard by that transformation. Time, she thought, is a magician. It reshapes everything, turning the awkward into the graceful. She remembered Jane once as a fragile, childlike thing, so delicate she might have snapped. To see her become poised and composed felt like watching a slow, small miracle.

Oakley went back to taking apart a crab with the same deliberate care she'd always shown — though clumsy hands, loyal intent — and misjudged the angle. The crab's sharp shell nicked the tender skin near her nail. She snapped, involuntarily, a little high sound that cut the table's chatter.

Grace, always alert, snatched Oakley's hand and inspected the cut like a practiced nurse. "Is that bleeding?" she asked, concern soft and immediate.

"No… I don't think so," Oakley managed, wincing, and Grace's hands were already deft, taking over as though it was the most natural thing in the world. "Let me help."

Oakley pretended to be affronted at being so fussed over. "Every time we eat, you end up peeling everything for me. It makes me look useless."

Grace's expression made the word "useless" harmless. "A family peels for one another," she said. "Where's the harm?"

Oakley had long wished she could be the kind of woman who was quietly deft and graceful, the quiet, capable type like Lucent's Evelyn or Natalie Pierce, who seemed to move through small domestic arts like wind through trees. But life had slapped her with reality enough times that she'd stopped fighting the things she could not be. Some skills, she suspected, were woven into a person, not learned by force.

Grace wrenched the crab open with quick, practiced fingers and found the meat inside bright and full, the roe a buttery, golden promise. Oakley watched, hungry and grateful, and then, impulsively, became serious.

"So," she said, after a beat, thumb tracing the shell's edge, "tell me — if I were useless from head to toe, would you still like me?"

The question landed, plain and utterly earnest. Grace didn't even look up as she lifted a ribbon of crabmeat. "What kind of question is that?" she replied, soft amusement in the corners. "Yes. I would."

Oakley regarded her. "Really?"

"Really." Grace's tone was as simple and as unromantic as it could be, and that was why it landed like a small, unshakeable truth. She had not fallen in love with Oakley for who could shell a crab or fold a towel; she'd fallen for the whole, odd person, with the laugh and the stubbornness and the little surprising soft places.

Oakley, not satisfied, pushed the horizon a little further. "What if I were not human at all, but a caterpillar? Would you still like me?"

The table nearly exploded into laughter. The image of Oakley as a crested, slow-moving caterpillar — ridiculous and delicate — painted an absurd tableau that made Jeff squirm with an embarrassed chuckle.

"You can't become a caterpillar," Grace said, pretending to scold, but she was laughing already.

"And if I did?" Oakley insisted, eyes bright, absurd expectation making the question sincere.

Grace's laughter broke then, clean and delighted. "Then I will buy you the finest terrarium," she said. "A deluxe, climate-controlled eco-dome, with the best leaf selection. I'll set it up like a shrine and you'll have a bed of moss."

Oakley frowned mock-offended. "Why would you lock me up in a terrarium? Because I'm gross?"

"Because if you crawled everywhere," Grace reasoned earnestly, "you'd be in danger of getting stepped on. I'd rather keep you somewhere safe."

That made Oakley laugh so hard she nearly choked on a bite. "So you would prefer me enclosed but alive?"

Grace shrugged. "Caterpillars don't live long. Better to ensure longevity."

Oakley considered this as if it were a serious calculus and, after a beat, nodded. "Makes sense. I'll call that plan canceled."

The ridiculousness of the conversation — the intimacy of it — folded everyone into another mood. Jeff watched them with a splayed, almost comic desperation: here he was, single and present, being drowned in domestic affection like a man watching a two-person world dismantle his solitude. He shivered theatrically.

"Take care of your single friend over here," he pleaded, grinning. "Don't smother me under all this sweetness."

Grace only shook her head and smiled. Her laugh stuck around at the edges like sunlight. Jane, across the table, had paled. The small glow that had surfaced when Oakley complimented her had gone out like a candle in the wind. Being grown-up, Jane might have thought, did not change how lonely things could feel. The world had not rearranged itself for her.

Oakley noticed the shift and, quietly and with a weight that surprised her, watched Jane pick up a conch shell and hold it as though she might listen for an answer inside.

Later, Oakley caught herself staring and then stealing a glance back at Jane. Something in the girl's look tugged at her the way a melody might: present, but a long way from being played in public. Every time Oakley and Grace leaned into each other's laughter, Jane's shoulders seemed to fold inward, a little smaller.

Oakley could not untangle why the ache in Jane's face sat where it did, but the sight of it lodged itself in her chest like a shard she could not pretend did not exist. She wondered, for reasons she could not fully name, whether kindness might be a small bridge tonight — whether, in the quiet areas between courses and jokes, a simple inclusion could make the difference between a night spent alone and a night that, slowly, healed.

She found herself wishing she had thought to let Jane see more of the ordinary, unglossed parts of her life. Perhaps then the hurt would thin. Perhaps the world could make a little more room.

Outside, the night tightened; inside, conversation dropped to a still, embers-soft hum. Outside, love kept surprising, complicated, and, yes, terrifying in the way it remade familiar faces into versions you hardly recognized. Oakley thought of that small sticker on their bathroom mirror, the domestic little herald announcing that two people had decided to build a nest together.

She tasted the sweetness of it and, under her breath, promised herself to keep making space for those who watched from the edge.

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