(Topic 1) -> Mad Teary Inna
It was when the i pushed myself away from her lips that i noticed her teary wet cheeks.
"I-i-i... Inna?"
Inna was shaking, looking down trying to hide so i cant't see her face. She was standing as if she was about to jump into me.
But then i took a look around her room and the mess that it was in, very chaotic scene, every object was out of it's proper place.
At the floor besides the bed, i saw a doll that looked like the same cat doll we used as our relationship symbol dismembered. I was starting to get scared when i saw that.
I turned back to find her glaring at me, then she tilted her head, making her mouth tightly closed. I was so worried...
"How did you pass your time with Eiji, did you find it amusing to follow him and tried to seduce him with your dirty body?..."
My theory was confirmed, Inna was disappointed that i went with the Eiji dude, but i did not like her tone even if she was angry.
"Huh?... What are you saying?"
Inna approached me, placing her hands behind her back while smirking at me.
"Oh don't act so perfect, like you never did those things, you know exactly what i mean, you're just a slut that happened to be at the same school as me, who's also pathetically helpless."
Now she's just intentionally trying to hurt my feelings. Bringing up old history.
"How could you say that! Why are being so mean? I thought that our relationship was mutual... Now you're just-"
Inna turned away her head, trying to hold her laughter after what i just said.
"Mutual?! Oh Ruby, if you could see how dumb you look right now..."
I can't count how many times i heard that phrase used against me. Which is not a good thing.
"How could you possibly believe that?... In what basis with a relationship between a guider and a follower have a mentor as thoughtful and innocent as me..."
That card was finally brought out, now the pandora's box is open.
"You could say that, but as far as I'm concerned, my life has been turning out pretty good..."
It looked like i said something ridiculously false, because Inna was not convinced in the slightest.
"You have no idea... But it's all good, I didn't expect you to understand anyways, as a brat like you would never think beyond herself."
Inna said dismissively as she took a seat on her bed.
"Hey don't say such things, you know i looked out for this relationship too, i always thought about what best for us, don't think you have done everything on your own..."
"Very well, and that's the problem, my looking out for the relationship is not the same as your looking out for the relationship, you should not get it twisted."
That's statement hard to encounter, she sounded very believable and cool just then, so i couldn't let her get away like that.
"Oh yeah?! How so?..."
Triggered Inna was not about to hold back, it was bad idea to challenge her.
"Hmph? You want me to show you how it's done? How we tame wild cats like you?..."
The challenge here was how to keep the relationship afloat, it was agreed upon that we needed to do whatever the terms say, so basically i had no choice.
"Of course i would."
And then Inna straightened up and in a very broken tone demanded.
"Bring yourself over here."
At first i didn't think of it too much, i simply was following her order like i always do.
But with the recent events, i did not know what to think of it.
She kept looking at me for sometime before she demaded again.
"Kneel down."
I felt the weight of those tasks becoming heavier, it was not an easy thing to just kneel down in front of someone, but i did exactly as i was told without any hesitation.
Once i was on my knees in front of Inna, while she was looking down on me, wondering what she was about to do, she started rubbing and pressing my face like i was a stuffed animal.
"Oh girl, you really want me to fix you up... Is that what you want me to do?..."
She said as the pressure of her rubs is getting more intense.
"Let me hear you say it."
"I want my life to be fixed by your guidance and mentorshi- ...Heh!"
Inna looked magistic and she was captivating me with that low angle profile, the light behind was coming through her, a very beautiful view.
Inna then, made a move and stretched back her hand getting ready to slap the shit of me.
I looked at her, kind of shocked and don't know how to take this before she swang her hand, and then.
"..."
I closed my eyes anticipating the hit, but nothing happened.
She stopped midway probably, she didn't slap me. I was relieved. Simultaneously i was thinking that she might understand now that our contract is not of desiplinary actions, but intended to be of friendship.
I was happy that she stopped, i was about to thank her. Or at least that's what i tried to do.
Smack.
I wasn't ready. She caught me good, my left eye was half blacked out from the hit. And my ear was ringing.
"Are you going to cry?! Ahahaha..."
The laugh was quite sinister, i didn't know if this was my final straw, but my picture of Inna completely changed, i don't see her as a safe person to be near into.
While i was agonizing through the pain, the second hit landed.
Smack.
My vision was blurred again, the sound of my ears ringing has gotten more intense, this time i couldn't hold my tears anymore, i finally couldn't hold it anymore, and bursted out crying with my sad squishy face.
I tried to hide away my face while i was crawling away, but incapable to do so because she was stepping on the dress i was wearing.
"Heh~ where do you think you're going... Did i instruct you to move?..."
(Topic 2) -> Confortation Dialogue
She then tried to grab me again, but this time i didn't let her, i was completely over with this.
"You're being cold. I'm not doing this with you anymore..."
Inna gazed for a while before she calmly walked away without facing me, sighing on her way.
"I guess there was nothing special about you after all..."
I never saw her act dismissively like this before, i thought this was the end, so i wanted to tell her everything i was refraining from saying.
"You're a total narcissist... There's no way anyone would agree to be with you with that kind of personality. You deserve what is happening to you."
I finally said it, i finally told her how I'm feeling, no more sugar coating my words to mind her feelings anymore.
"I wanted to be with you, but you're-"
"Shut up!"
Inna was annoyed, i felt like my rambling was too harsh...
"That's all you lowlifes are good for, running your mouths and blaming others for your weaknesses that why you've became easily manupilated. All you did was take advantage of me."
That statement as bad and directly insulting as it was, it was the sincerity and honesty i always admire when someone spit it out.
"How could you say that... Even so, i was about to tell you, i was about to show you that I'm changing for real. I understood how you feel about me, but you know... I have been grateful... To you..."
It's hard to form sentences when you're crying and at your peak emotional state.
"I even wanted to have you around, i made you hangout with me, with my friends, i showed you-"
"Fuck your friends."
(Topic 3) -> Inna pours her heart out, while Ruby realizing Inna needs her.
Inna turned back to face me . She approched me with anger and hand throws, like a person who found out that his partner was cheating on him.
"You don't get it, you just don't— i wanted YOU, only YOU, not your friends, not your circle, i was even ready to abandon my own family, i just wanted someone else to be there for me, i wasn't just your rescuer, you also were my rescuer."
"I was tired of all the work and painful punishments from my family. They keep pushing me to be the best heir possible, to leave me with a future that i only see as a depression and prearranged marriage, then turning this cycle to my own descendants..."
"I thought i could break free, i was so happy fantasizing about you accompanying me away from this gloomy future-"
I never saw Inna or anyone pour their feelings and emotions like Inna was doing in that moment...
I finally realized that Inna was just lonely, she was the whole opposite of me, while i was living an outgoing life, filling myself with company, she was in a different world losing herself in that lonelines.
"But i guess I'm bound to be like this, we both can't escape afterall..."
She said as she turned around again.
I was thinking of some comforting words, to those heavy burdens she was confessing to me.
"I guess that's how it is."
Simply replying with comforting words wasn't going to mean much, this felt like it was the end, and we will never going to cross paths ever again...
The ambience calmed down and the fire slowly started to extinguish. We both were tired of the back and forth.
"....Aaaah, What a lovely life, that was one hell of journey..."
She finally faced me one last time while i was agonizing over the end while hugging my knees.
"Thank you so much for being with me. You should continue being happy, if you wanted to take away a meaningful conclusion from our time together..."
"... You too, i hope you'd find the future that will satisfy you and makes you happy."
On that note, it was a nice point of departure, i felt the urge of going back to my room and cry myself to sleep like a baby while a pillow over head until the next morning.
End of Volume 3.
(Bonus)
I wish you could see me.
Were my feelings a burden to you?.
I know you're alone and no one understands you.
Even when I offered myself to you, you kept it to yourself as if I didn't exist.
What complete loyalty couldn't achieve, perhaps some betrayal could.
You will never be alone again. I promised to always be with you, and that promise will be kept even if I am your enemy.
Anna,