SOOHA looked at Wooju who was still carrying him as the two of them heading towards his apartment. Then, he looked at how broad Wooju's shoulders have been, compared to the last time he saw him. He leaned his head on his back, thinking how did Wooju changed so much.
"Are you sleeping again?"
Sooha shook his head as Wooju asked, "No. I was just wondering how and what made you grow this big, compared to back when I last saw you," he said in a slow voice.
Wooju noticed that Sooha was sinking his face on his back, due to the heat of his breath touching his back. Wooju closed his eyes. Then, he took a deep breath, just to keep himself calm.
"Aren't I heavy?"
Wooju smiled. He never thought that he would get that kind of question from anyone. A guy especially. He fixed his grip and hold Sooha's leg more firmly,
"You're light as a feather," he said with a smile on his face.
"Nah, I weight tons. You don't need to be nice," Sooha said, hugging Wooju from the back tighter.
Wooju chuckled, "I really mean it, Yoon Sooha. It's better if you could eat more," he said, "Jooha hyung was always worried about you not eating when living alone in that apartment," he added as he turned his face a bit, to look at Sooha.
Sooha sighed. It' not that he doesn't want to eat. It was just, after all that incident happened back then, he doesn't have much of an appetite. Probably the prolonged side effects from the drugs entered his body that day.
Not only that, he also sometimes could not be able to suppress himself from emitting pheromones and he could faint anytime after sniffing a huge amount of Alpha pheromones. They were the problems that he tried to avoid almost everyday back in school. Even now, he still cannot be able to reduce the side effects lingering due to the drugs.
"Sooha?"
Sooha was brought back to the real world with Wooju's deep voice calling his name as the two arrived in front of his apartment.
"This is it, right?" Wooju asked.
Sooha nodded his head as he wriggled, trying to break lose from being piggy-backed by Wooju. However, he failed due to Wooju's strong grip on his legs.
"Look, just tell me the password to key in, and I will put you down as soon as we enter the apartment, okay?" Wooju asked.
Sooha sighed. Revealing his password felt like he's exposing himself towards people.
"I'll do it, just put me down,"
Wooju slowly put him down after hearing Sooha's strict tone. He looked at Sooha putting on the password to his door, trying to cover them with his body. Wooju just smiled. Looking at the door being opened,
"Uh, I better get going now, Sooha. Lock the-"
"You don't want to come in?"
Wooju looked at Sooha, a bit surprised with the invite.
"Ah, it's just that you , erm ... you carried me all the way from the bar, so I think you should at least have a glass of water before ... urm, before you go," Sooha said, looking down as he tried covering his blushing face from Wooju's sight.
Wooju looked at Sooha, "Uh, I ... I think I should just get going," he said with an awkward smile on his face.
Sooha lifted his head, looking at Wooju.
Wooju smiled, "You should get in now. Lock the door, and I will be on my-"
Wooju was on his way to pat Sooha's head when he stopped as soon as he smelled something sweet coming out of nowhere. He looked at Sooha, he was unconsciously letting out his pheromones without him noticing.
"Sooha?" Wooju covered his face with his hand.
Sooha's eyes widened. Looking at Wooju, he knew that he might have emitting his pheromones again. Damn this stupid body!
Sooha looked at Wooju who started panting, "Uh, I'm sorry, I-umph!"
Sooha's eyes widened as soon as Wooju's lips were pressed on his. He was getting more surprised when Wooju was forcing his way into his mouth.
""Umph! Woo- I! Umph!" Sooha struggled as Wooju started to pull him close to his body, hugging his waist tight as he was kissing him deeply.
Sooha tried to push him away, but Wooju was too strong compared to him. The only thing he could do was to give in. Sooha noticed Wooju was pressing himself onto him. He tried breaking free, but he can't. He just can't.
"Ha..."
The two of them panted as Wooju broke the kiss. Sooha looked at how Wooju's eyes were slightly turning gold. Suddenly, all the bad memories from the incident played in his mind.
Wooju looked at Sooha's face looking all terrified. His hands which were holding Sooha felt like he was trembling, "S-Sooha?"
"Get off from me!" Sooha quickly pushed Wooju away from him and entered the apartment. He slammed the door right on Wooju's face before he could even ask anything.
Wooju was surprised. He looked at the closed door right in front of him, feeling confused with everything.
"Sooha?"
ππππππππππ
SOOHA could not help himself from being afraid. He quickly entered the bathroom, and shower himself, even with his clothes on. He tried brushing every thing off from his body, feeling all disgusted with himself.Β
"Urgh..."
Sooha flopped on the floor, hugging his knees tightly as the water was pouring onto him. Everything that happened from that incident were playing inside his head, like a broken CD on loop.
How could he forget all the golden eyes that attacked him that day?
No matter what happened in the future, he cannot be able to let himself go from the nightmares.
Everything was still in his head. Playing vividly, continuously, showing everything.
He could still feel the pain. The pain of how many times he was stabbed by the drugs.
He could still feel the pain of those who pressed themselves into him, forcefully.
He could still remember the faces they made when they were all looking at him.
The laughs.
The sounds.
Everything.
Wooju's golden eyes earlier triggered everything.
He was so close to at least having a tiny bit of normal life. But those damned, golden eyes...
Those eyes of Alpha in lust ...
How can he ever forget?
ππππππππππ
SOOHA noticed Wooju was waving his hands as he entered the class. But, he chose to get himself sitting at the front row, not to be seated next to Wooju.
He spent the weekend in pain, remembering how Wooju showed his golden eyes in front of him, when he has the trauma from looking at them. He couldn't get himself to sleep as he kept remembering the incidents.
Getting himself seated at the front row, he noticed the confused look on Wooju's face. He felt guilty, but he can't face him. Not only because of the incidents, which he reminded it of him. But, also from the sudden kiss he got.
After the class ended, Sooha quickly grabbed his things and tried to get himself out from the class before Wooju caught him. However,
"Yoon Sooha,"
Sooha lifted his head, looking at Wooju standing next to his table. Wooju quickly took Sooha's bag and walked out from the class.
"Wooju yah," Sooha called out to Wooju as he looked at him walking out through the door. He quickly followed Wooju.
Sooha walked behind Wooju, following him in a distance that he felt safe with. He looked at Wooju who was carrying two bags. One was his and one was Sooha's. Looking from the back, he knows that Wooju was trying his best to calm himself.
After walking a while, passing the student hall , at a quiet spot where not much student around, Wooju suddenly stopped. He turned himself facing Sooha, looking at him with his calm face. He was in a very far distance from Wooju, that he noticed that Wooju was slowly walking towards him.
As Wooju was getting closer, he flinched and walked a few steps back. He was still afraid. He was afraid if Wooju suddenly attacked him just like how THEY attacked him back then. Not when the place was a place with less people walking here and there.
"Yoon Sooha,"
Sooha looked at Wooju who was already standing in front of him. He was bracing himself to what ever Wooju was going to do with him. But, to his surprised, Wooju suddenly bowed to him.
Sooha's eyes widened, "W-wooju?"
"I'm sorry for last Friday!" Wooju said as he was still bowing, looking down to his feet, "I was being controlled by my pheromones, I am so so sorry, Yoon Sooha."
Sooha looked at Wooju, his face blushed as he remembered what happened. Wooju stood up properly and looked at Sooha's face,
"I'm sorry for attacking you like that. I wasn't in my right mind," he said.
SoohaΒ sighed as he looked away. He took a deep breath, walking towards Wooju and grabbing his bag from him. Wooju looked at Sooha, he was confused with his actions but he just couldn't ask. He looked at Sooha walking away from him.
"Yoon Sooha," he called, but Sooha just ignored him.