I used to wonder
Where I went wrong,
But now I see
That I was never right...
Alas.
I was never fast enough
To pace with
Her elusive plight...
Could never outrun
All her pain.
Could never sedate
All her blights...
Could never do enough
Or prove enough.
She never wanted light...
-
Down in her darkness
She would harness
All that hatred
In her furnace.
Never burned shit
She just mourned it.
Pealed the layers back
Then adorned it.
-
She piled it on
Like lucid layers.
Only things she could control...
Lured me in
With vivid vapors.
Syphoned off my shining soul...
-
Because misery
Loves company,
It starves
If left alone
And
All the walls
Were painted for you
In that haunted
Hollow home
And
I had tried
To bring that thinner in
To repaint all those walls, again.
But you were layered.
Heavy...
Didn't vet me.
Never let me in.
-
I used to wonder
Where I went so wrong,
But I came to realize
That I was never the one...
You cannot save
All the brave ones
Who run
Through the waves
Of the raves,
No
It cannot be done...
They aren't made for the sun.
-
Maybe more accurately
I wasn't made for her.
That world beyond the light
Was something I could not secure.
Maybe dancing in the dark
Was not my calling
Or my cure.
She was always made to fly.
Yeah, she had feathers.
I have fur...
-
She was high above my head.
While I was crawling in the dirt.
She was steadily shitting on me
While I hurt,
And hurt,
And hurt.
Now that I've found my way
Away from you,
I wish you the reverse.
Still, my heart could never hate you,
Please,
Just grant me a wide berth...