22. "COLD SHOULDER"
Today you've been heavy on my mind, tried sleeping it off but my thoughts of you were pretty loud to be silenced, so I came in here to write these thoughts I'm having. I look at us and how we are nowadays, it's like we're strangers, we hardly said 10 words to each other in the last 24 hours mama and we used to be best friends, sometimes we wouldn't get off the phone but look at us now.
I've been trying to break the ice but you keep getting colder, you're my best friend and I need you right now, a month ago, you were saying "What's wrong? Tell me all about it, tonight I've got all the time, talk to me", so what happened to that girl who always kept a safe space for me? I need her right now, not this cold shoulder that you've been giving me.
I know there's still a little bit of Ms. Curious in you, I know you still remember our bond and memories, I'm not saying we should stay in the past, we're here now but that doesn't mean we should grow apart.
You're probably choosing to not hear me but still here I am, willing to work us back up, I'm not saying be my lover, I just want you in my life and I wanna be there for you too, I know you be holding stuff inside with nobody to trust them with but you don't need to do that if I'm with you, so let me be your best friend again.
I'll check up on you every damn morning, I'll make time if you got something bothering you and I'll talk to you about whatever if you wanna forget about some things, I'll be there for you because you mean a lot to me.
23. "JUST SO YOU KNOW.. YOU'RE LOVED"
I know you can handle it all on your own, I'm not tryna play a role of your boyfriend, I'm just tryna take position and remind you in all kinds of ways that you're loved by me.
I'm guessing sometimes it feels like nobody gets you, sometimes it feels like it's all fucking heavy on your shoulders, especially when you don't got a warm shoulder to cry on but you can always text me, I'm always free to listen when you're calling because you're loved, just so you know.
You don't have to deal with it all on your own, I'm not tryna say I can make it all disappear but I can be the safe space for you to unload your stress, we don't even have to talk about what's going wrong in your life, we can use this as your escape room, where you can forget about somethings while we talk about whatever, like we used to.
I'm guessing you're ready to take it all on your own, not when you got somebody who genuinely cares about you, somebody who loves you, I know I'm far from you but luckily we got these phones for connection, just text me and I'll be here to listen or keep you company.
You can deny me if you want but just so you know, you are loved by me, I care about you and I wanna see you at your best, I wanna be there for you, however that is, I wanna be there for you.