Jay's pov:
I can't breathe i was cruel mumma was right i shouldn't have remember i was stubborn my mother how much she tried to protect me but i was a piece of shit, a fucking bitch
Keifer's pov:
I can't saw her like this not my girl. Idk what happened her mom just held her to her chest her sobs were cracking..... For the 1st time i saw my queen weak knight of my life
Then she slowly turned to me and "i don't deserve you please go away from my.... My life k... Keif"
Wtf did she just said i quickened my pace and bend to reach her height idk i am mad how could she say that she saw my weak monster side, she could walk away but she bear it, she waited for me, now i can't even live without i hugged her like world is ending and quickly pinned her against the wall and pour all my anger to her lips a hungry, desperate one but she pulled away
Jay:"Why do u love me so much i am a bitch a murderer"
Mom:, "Jay its not your fault my baby "
Jay's pov:
"I think its time for you guys to know about Jasper jean"
"Aries was disappeared from my life, i asked my mumma about it but she shrugged it off and said baby you are going to have a daddy, i was over the moon because i also saw little kids like me curling around their papa's hands i wished but i never asked her.....
1st stepfather
'He was kind to me when mumma was beside me but when she disappeared he used to shout at me a bitch, fucking slut, worthless i was only 4 I didn't know what was those words he blamed everything on me when something happened he used to cheat on my mom i could hear voices from his room when i told mom about this she said to stop manipulating but one day she saw a woman and him together that was the reason for their divorce he even slapped my mom "
2nd stepfather
"He was even worse..... I was 5 he used to shout at me and my mom he used to curse on her..... When i interrupt in his sleep he would usually beat me, i kept myself shut or else i know he would kill me he would drink a lot one day when i start to brush my teeth he....(voice cracking)he rubs my whole face on the wall because i forgot to say good morning when everyone was happy to stay in home i used to get nightmares he would bleed my hand with shards of glass i can't even scream louder because hs was capable of cutting my whole arm
Everyone was looking at me keifer's eyes red and clenched, aries in pure disbilief, section e crying, mumma tried to balance but kuya Angelo's strong hands grabbed her"
3rd stepfather
"I already sensed the 3rd one shouldn't be better either. But i just respected my mom's decision but this was the worst of them all.....I wake up everyday by bucked full of ice and water if i shout i would get beaten so i remained silent i remember one day while i was reading book it suddenly fell from my hand it made a louder sound causing him to wake up i was already trembling in fear"plz don't do anything to me i... It was an accident"I begged i was six he quickly picked me up "oh sweetie no need to apologise" he suddenly bend my hand because of the pain my voice didn't even come there was already a reddish blue bruise blooming but he suddenly stopped when i was about to turn he grabbed my hand and screamed "Where do u think you are going go and make tea for me" ofc how a six year old could know about it i stammered and said "idk how to do t.... That sir" he again screamed "go" i saw mumma usually make tea in kettle so i put some water to heat he was pacing while smirking i was trembling when the water boils the faucet was really high i tried to reach but some hot water spilled.... My eyes widened he saw it he suddenly grabbed my hand and immerse in that boiling water my hand was burning i tried to muffle my sobs but voice escaped he suddenly let go off me. I locked myself in a room and changed into an oversized hoodie to cover my burned mark'....."I saw my mom but i know if i told her she would get killed by him no one even noticed for weeks" one day for his entertainment he kicked my stomach, he started giving me burnt sandwich, spoiled milk, spoiled tomatoes as food. I would hear my mumma crying every night because of his beatings one day infront of me he beats her with belt i was crying by seeing her like that i can't even controlled myself i just yanked that belt he suddenly picked a pointed metal rod and just heated it while pressing to my stomach blood flowed mumma interrupted so he beats her cruelly. a little kitten tried to bite him like a heavenly being but he killed it in front of me.... Blood was everywhere on my mumma and me next day he came home drunk he come to my room where me and mumma was lying he suddenly close the door while pacing in room he tried to..... To do something a 10 year old never knew mumma was tied by him he beat me cruelly mumma hugged me after escaping her tied hands he continuously hit her blood was spreading on my white dress when she collapsed
he t... Touched... Me i can't take it anymore i suddenly grabbed a iron rod and hit him with force blood everywhere i hugged my knees while saying don't hurt me, let go off me ahhhh i screamed my moms eyes were fluttered open suddenly there was knock on door the iron rod already fallen from my hands mom picked them she put blood on herself i was crying again and again she was arrested my tongue couldn't even resist it was me i was busy saying no more, no hurt"
This was me i am a murderer my mother took all the blame on herself.... While i was busy complaining about her my whole personality changed m.... Mumma.... Plz.... Don't.... Forgive... Me.... Nooo
I collapsed again my chest churned.....
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