But you should care for yourself first, your fever gets down slightly but you are not perfectly fine he said to me while still cupping my face. I smiled and said unless or until you are with me no matter how much high the fever is it will get better. Aren't you trusting me soo much let me tell you trusting this much easily is very dangerous he said to me. Ooo really may be it might be dangerous but when it comes to you nothing is dangerous cause you means safe zone for me I said to him. You are head over heels in love with me he said it while blushing a little. Ofcourse aren't you I asked him. He smiled and said no I am obsessed with my silly girl. Obsession and love is quite a good combination isn't it I asked him. Unless or until Zhao Shiza and Xu Yuan are together every combination they make will be impressive he said.
Ok ok now you have overwhelmed me too much beyond the limit now you go I said to him. He got shocked a little hearing that from me he immediately asked me where should I go. I smiled and said to your work didn't you have work commitments do it timely don't waste your time with me I am fine now and you know that very well that as I say I am not a five year old kid I am a grown up woman I can take care of myself I said it in a bit confidently soo that he can believe me easily but Yuan is just Yuan he looks at me really looks at me and asked me where?. I got a little bit confused that what he is really asking me then I asked him where what?. The grown up woman he answered. I hit his arm lightly and said Yuan stop it I said it.
What stop it I can see how this grown up woman takes care of herself tell me if this grown up woman is this much sufficient or capable to take care of herself then why did this grown up woman end up having a fever while taking care of the other person did your grown up woman behave like this he asked me. Stop emphasizing on this word too much I said. Why didn't you are the one who said it just now that now you are a grown up woman and you can take care of yourself hm he asked me.
Yuan see it's not that I didn't want you to stay with me all the time honestly if you ask me then I'll say that it's my dream life to live with you like that I said. Like what he asked me. Living with you in a home not a house which is not soo big but very much enough for us to live there a home where just you and I live together forever where I doo my silly things and you just being there adoring me where you and I make dishes together something I'll learn from you something you'll learn from me and on weekends we'll go to malls not for shopping just for hanging around there having good hot pot meals and going to gaming zones to play the games and end our day with my favourite ice cream and its sweetness fills our life with joy and happiness.
A day where you'll get all ready and I'll film you the whole day I mean in simple words I'll become your personal photographer for that day you'll make some jaw dropping poses and I'll click you and try to capture some part of your handsomeness in the camera cause capturing your whole handsomeness fully isn't possible the camera hasn't been made yet which can capture your handsomeness and whenever the rain comes you and I just go out on the streets of Shanghai just roam around there and drench ourselves in that rain. I wanna live a life where my mornings start with you and night ends with you I said it but this is all just my dreams and you know that dreams are just baseless and the whole reality is very different from that.
Why are you getting upset he asked me. I smiled and said nothing it's just I feel even after everything we didn't able to spend time together I mean I am not complaining you it's just whenever I think about something a thought gets stuck in my mind. What thought he asked me. The thought is that I need to share you with every other girl I said. He laughed a little hearing this from me. Share me with others how come I didn't know that I am a dumpling that could be shared with everyone he said.
I mean I need to share you with other girls I mean to say your co actresses oo please don't get me wrong it's nothing wrong in it it's part of your work which I truly appreciate and completely understand but it's just the possessive girl inside me not letting me doo that whenever I see your pictures or videos on weibo or your appearances in variety shows with other girls I feel damm jealous from it I didn't even know how to explain this but that feeling aches my Mr heart and thinks that there is a garden of roses for you everywhere wherever you go and these garden of roses don't include me I feel like I am not among them I feel like an outsider I feel like I am just making your life a fuss and I am not the one included in your glamorous life or may be I am just a walking hurdle that will pass I said it.
Why did you let your insecurities question your individuality he asked me. Do you really think that you are something in my life that I could just pass? Soo let me tell you very clearly you are a present to me from god which I haven't even asked for or prayed for but I really don't know why god has given me the present in you. You are not a hurdle infact you are a stop in my life for which my heartbeat stopped and made me believe that in the world full of themselves there is still you who selflessly and helplessly loves me he said it to me.
I really don't know how but it's true and stop behaving like a fan girl and start behaving like Yuan's Shiza he said. This word Yuan's Shiza hits different in my Mr heart cause I have never even imagined him saying that to me. Have you listened me Yuan's Shiza you are mine he said it. And I am always yours no matter with how many girls I need to shoot with your Xu Yuan is always yours Zhao Shiza always yours and he pressed his forehead to mine while saying this.
And then he looks at me and said I know what's bothering you me being with other co actresses makes you think that I'll end up with them and forget you it's ok to have this feeling inside yourself but let me make it very clear to you that no matter how many garden of roses I walk in but my eyes and my heart only stop for the rarest flower that has fallen from heaven straight to my garden and in my hand for which I am learning to take care of this special and most precious flower among all the flowers I have ever seen in my whole life he said it.
Yuan my dream is to just live a sweet happy joyful healthy and long life with you which will be covered with our laughter my silliness and your care and love I said it to him and got a bit emotional while saying it. I promise you I'll fulfill your dreams and make each and every dream of yours into reality that you have always craved for he said. But my voice is small and tiny a bit now as I say this that promises are meant to be broken.
He takes a deep sigh and said you might be right that promises are meant to be broken but Yuan's promise to his Shiza has never meant to be broken it is only meant to be fulfilled he said it. You are pretty good with picking up words no doubts that's why the whole China is crazy for you. He chuckles and said stop exaggerating me I am not that good he said.
I doo two things very passionately in my life I said it. And what are those two things he asked me. I smiled and said first loving you passionately and second adoring you passionately I said it while looking at him just looking at him in the way of my fan girl era with him. He smiles and taps on my cheeks and said stop staring me like that he said. Like what I asked. Like this he said while pointing his finger towards me.
I smiled and said ok don't get shy my Yuan Yuan I am not teasing you anymore it's ok you can stop blushing I said. I am not he answered. Sorry Mr Xu Yuan your ears have again betrayed you today I said. He immediately touched his ears with his hands. I laughed a little and said you are even cute also. Stop it he said. I can't I really can't when you are this much adorable I said it.
Sometimes I usually think that you play my part in our relationship isn't it he said it. Don't know now leave all this and get ready yourself you need to do your work I said. Ok I am going but you should promise me one thing he said. I know I know I promise you that I said it before even letting him say what he is going to say. What he asked me. I'll take good care of your girlfriend when you are not around her but when you come back it's completely your responsibility to take care of her ok I asked him.
He smiles and said ok and then he leaves the room to change himself to go out. Then the moment he leaves the room and I become alone in that big room I smiled just smiled by remembering how much he cared for me by remembering the words that he said to me that my concern matters to him the most he won't go further or take a step ahead just because I am his girlfriend. He always thinks about my concern my choices always the way he did today look how cute boyfriend I got he even thinks this much before kissing his own girlfriend and as expected you are just walking out from my favourite C drama you are just like what I imagined even before meeting you I can't even tell you how much hopelessly I prayed to god for you even knowing that god will never give you to me but I still prayed cause it's my prayer to you which I can't let it down never ever.
No matter how our relationship will go in future as there is possibility of everything negative and positive both just like the two sides of the coin head or tails but it doesn't matter cause Zhao Shiza loves her Xu Yuan till her last breath and I smiled after saying these words to my Mr heart as my Mr heart right now is at its best condition as my Yuan Yuan my safe place is around me that how could anything wrong happen...