Then I looked at him and said, "Yuan, aren't this enough for you? You have made me so overwhelmed today," I said.
He looked down at me while still holding me in his arms at the entrance of the door. He said, "Do you know, silly girl, that when you are in my arms, you look even cuter?" he said.
Then I looked away somewhere in the house and said, "Yuan, now this is way more than enough to flatter me. I am really too much flattered by everything that you have said today. Now I call this the end of the day. I am too tired now. I want to rest and sleep," I said.
Then Yuan entered the house while holding me in his arms and placed me on the couch. The moment he put me down on the couch, he went to the kitchen.
"Yuan, where are you going?" I asked him.
Then he came back from the kitchen a few minutes later with a large glass of freshly chilled orange juice in his hand and handed that glass to me very quickly.
He said, "Silly girl, drink this first. You have done so much today. You must be very tired. So before reaching our wedding venue, I made this fresh orange juice for you and put it in the refrigerator so that when we came back, you would have your relaxing and favorite drink in your hands to erase your tiredness from today," he said.
I smiled and drank the juice, which was so chilled and tasty. After all, my Yuan Yuan made it specially for me. How could it not be tasty? I thought to myself.
Then I said while drinking the juice, "Thank you so much, my thoughtful husband."
He chuckled and said, "You know what? I like it. I really do like it when you call me your husband," he said.
Then I took another sip of the orange juice just to avoid and hide my shyness from him, but I failed in that as always because he noticed me again and said, "You know what? I like it, but I really don't get it. Even after becoming my wife, you are still so shy around me. I don't even know what I should do so that you won't feel this shy around your own husband," he said.
Then I said, "Yuan, you know how much you make me shy. It's all because of you. I know I am stupid in many things and many situations, but this is who I really am. This is the true Zhao Shiza who loves you like this and acts this strangely," I said to him.
Then he held my hands in his and rubbed them very slowly and calmly.
He said, "I know. And you know what, my silly cute wife? I love this side of your personality because I know this special side is only for me, not for the world. And you showing me your whole personality, even the most stupid and cutest parts of yourself, is one of the most beautiful things I know," he said.
Then I finished my orange juice and suddenly a very important thought came into my mind.
I immediately asked him, "Yuan, do your fans and your agency know about our marriage? I hope this won't affect your career, right?" I asked in quite a worried tone.
He looked at me and smiled so calmly, as if nothing had happened, and said, "Relax. The agency knows about it. They renewed my contract, and there is nothing in it that says I can't get married in my personal life. My personal and professional life are completely separate from each other," he said.
"Thank God. Otherwise, this is the only thing I was worried about the most ever since we decided to get married to each other," I said in a relieved tone after hearing what Yuan had just told me.
Then he looked at me and said, "Why do you always worry about my career so much, even more than I do?" he asked.
"Of course I do. How can I not? I know how much hard work my Yuan has put into building his career and his name throughout China after years of struggle and effort. And there is one more reason, my own reason behind it," I said.
"What?" he asked quite amusingly.
Then I said, "Your career is the main reason that I was able to see you and know about you, even when you didn't know about me. You know what, Yuan? If you were not an actor, then you would definitely be living somewhere in China, maybe in Shanghai, or Shenzhen, or Beijing, or Jiangcheng, or Hangzhou, or Chongqing. But in that case, I would never have been able to know that you existed in this world, just like you would never have known that a girl like me, who is your fan, existed in this world. And the only reason for that is that I didn't belong to your world. That's the huge gap between us. I am not an actress like the others in your world. I am just an ordinary fan girl of yours who, sooner or later, would have vanished away without leaving any mark of her existence. So your career is very important to me too because you chose to become an actor. That's why I was able to know about you, and this profession gave me my Yuan Yuan. So it matters to me very much," I said.
Then Yuan said to me, "Don't you dare call my wife an ordinary fan girl of mine. She is special in herself. I know you are not an actress like the others, but it doesn't mean that you are less than any of them. In fact, my girl is much more than any of them," he said.
Then I smiled and said, "Only in your eyes. Or maybe you are saying all this because I am feeling down about myself," I said.
Then he exhaled sharply and said, "You know what, Zhao Shiza? I will never be able to love you the way you loved me. I have already told you this, but I think you took it the wrong way because it didn't mean that I don't love you. I can't ever love you the way you loved me, but I do love you. And my love for you is not like yours. But just like you always say, 'I know that you love me,' I want to tell you that you don't know. You don't know. You really don't know, my silly girl, how much and in what ways I love you. I know it is not more than the love you have for me, but it is really not less than the love you give to me," he said while pressing his forehead against mine.
He said it all while closing his eyes and holding my hands in his, which naturally made me calm and relaxed.
Then he opened his eyes and said, "My silly girl, don't look down on yourself so much. I love you. I really do. And you don't know. You don't know. You really don't know how much I love you," he said.
Then tears started falling from my eyes and I said, "I know this is all only in my dreams, but this is the best dream of mine, a dream from which I never want to wake up. Never ever," I said.
"I know my dreams have you in them, and I am living in this dream. I don't know how much longer I am going to stay here, but my beautiful dream, you are and you always will be," I said to him.
Then he wiped my tears with his hands and said while smiling through the tears in his own eyes, "I don't know when you are finally going to believe me that this is really not your dream. This is us, and only us. And this is the reality of today," he said.
I smiled and said, "I do believe what you have just said. I do. And from now onwards, I will start believing in it. I will remove all these negative thoughts from my mind. After all, this is the first thing my husband has asked f
rom me, and I will surely give him this," I said and then...