I slowly tilt my head, not believing my sight.
I am looking at myself, but this me is confident and powerful. This me has his omega eyes shining brightly as he smiles down at me, everything about his carriage takes me back to the night my secret got exposed to Jaehyun.
"W-what are you?" I ask quietly, my joints ache and my body burns with raw wounds and marks. "Me? I am an Omega" he says and I shudder from his voice, hearing my own voice feels strange and scary.
"Why do you keep hurting me, Yujun-ah?" He asks in a soft tone and I try pulling myself up to look him in the eyes. "You're not real, you're a curse" I say fiercely, making my voice deep and low enough to sound alpha-like.
I cannot go through years of pain and suffering to be an Alpha for some…creature to invade my dream. I will fight in real life and will fight in my dream against this. I refuse to be a weak and cursed omega.
"I am a curse? I am divine. You are divine" the omega says to me with a small smile on the corner of his lips, "why?! Why me?!" I scream with every ounce of bitterness in my soul. "I could have been something better" I spit the words out with spite.
"Yujun-ah. Omegas are divine" he says softly and I shake my head in disagreement. Everyone knows that male Omega shouldn't exist, male omegas are mythological creatures- they are either a curse or a blessing but my clan knows that male omegas are nothing but curses.
"Divine? Being subjected to feeling like this is divine? Being weak is divine?" I ask with a dark laughter bubbling from inside me. "Get lost, I am an Alpha" I roar at myself and the omega doesn't flinch or move. "Get lost!" I scream once more.
"Look at you, you are sick Choi Yujun. You look put together and alive on the outside but this…" the omega gestures to my beaten and wounded body, "this is what you really are" he says and stands up to leave. "I will kill you!" I scream, "Never show your face to me" I say vehemently to the Omega's retreating back.
Once he was gone and the door closes, my body falls to the hard floor and I wake up in my bed room, on my own sheets that has been soaked through with perspiration.
Breathing harshly and covered in sweat beads, I sit up and crouch on the bed. I ignore the way my body aches from my sudden movements as I look around the room wide-eyed. My heart is racing from fear, as if the Omega might walk in through the walls.
"It was a dream, just a dream" I whisper to soothe myself. With a sigh of relief, I shut my eyes to feel my omega, and just as I have trained him to be, the omega is deathly silent within me.
I look outside the window, it is still night and my father's car is just driving into the home with his men around him. At the sight of him stepping out of the car, my back straighten and my shoulders squares to give off the powerful Alpha-like posture that has been drilled into me.
My Father looks up to my window and our eyes meet, my father looks terrifyingly powerful even under the silver moonlight. Still holding my gaze, he lifts his hand to beckon for me to come downstairs.
Hurriedly, I put on a new scent patch, knowing that the one I had slept with would be weak and might leak my scent- Father hates my scent, it reminds me of my curse. I change my clothes into the expensive suit I know he likes…he says a man of power must always dress like it.
"Good morning father" I say with a loud voice, bowing fully to greet him. Father looks at me with disdain, his eyes sweeping over my face and my body as if evaluating a paid for good. "Weakling" he tsks and turns to his right hand man who was standing behind him like a statue.
"A real Alpha's wounds would have healed by now" he says gruffly before turning to look at me again, eyeing the marks on my face as if he was not the one who put them on me. "I'm sorry, I will do better Father" I bow to him.
"Call Yubin. I will rather send her than him, I don't want questions of why an Alpha has marks on his face" Father says tiredly and flicks his wrist twice to dismiss me. "I can do it father, I will wear a mask" I say, keeping my tone strong and manly to show that I can really do it.
"You have better things to do, like wondering how you stained my family line with your filthy omega blood" Father growls at me, his eyes flashing red and forcing me to my knees. I whimper and bow my head under the force of my head Alpha's anger.
"I blame his mother, useless thing" Father mutters under his breath and ask if summoned, mother rushes into the room with a smile on her face.
"Honey!" She says happily, "don't you know, Yunah is getting married to Hwang Jaehyun, they accepted her" she giggles and father's eyes brightened, and his lips stretch into a smile, not a celebratory one but a cruel one that can only be a mirror of his thoughts.
"Even perfect, get her for me" he says with laughter, "Finally! one useful child" father says and an anger that I am not permitted to express, fills my body. Once again, they act like I am invisible as they talk about Yunah, their newest profitable property to market for power.
This is all Hwang Jaehyun's fault.
It's all his fault and I am going to kill him before the sun rises.