Breathe in, Breathe out!! BREATHE IN, BREATHE OUT!!! I've been saying this for the past 30 minutes repeating the action every 3 seconds. In, Out! In, Out! IN, OUT! trying my best not to cry as I had to be strong;
I'm always strong
Okay I was raped and I haven't stood up from where he left me, not that I didn't want to leave but I couldn't stand, my leg just felt weak and tired and my head was spinning.I felt dizzy and numb.
How it all started « Training just ended and everybody was getting themselves clean to commence their journey home, I as usual went round to collect their bips and return their properties back to them, I also went to check on the ones that had an injury, and warned some on certain things that they ought not to be doing.
I packed the ball and the bips carefully in my bag and bade them farewell basically I was the last to leave cause I needed to make sure everything was in order.
Going home I followed my usual open but lonely road which had bushes and trees.
Why do I take that route? Oh it's mainly because I love how free I get when it comes to thinking out loud and venting whenever I am angry.
Moving forward, I heard a sound, normally I don't hear noises or see people around only the air, trees, birds, insects... So I turned quickly when the step came not once but twice but I could see no one.
I increased my footsteps but I continued quietly. I couldn't run like seriously I couldn't run cause I knew that if I did who ever that was would find me fast so I continued quickly but quietly praying that nothing happens until....I___I .......
I picked up my phone searching my phone book for anyone I could call to come help me and when I mean anyone I meant someone I trust or someone I could trust .
> my dad« no no no my dad is out of this
> my brother« he's not even home and to get to were I was is like a fifteen hour drive.
> my cousin sis« she's also out of town and to get home she needs to go to the airport.
It's not even surprising that I had only twenty-five saved numbers on my phone and I trust only a few of them but I had to call somebody so I continued searching and considering.
I stopped. Contact name« George, should I call, should I not, should I call, should I not.
Advantages« I get home, don't get sick, go to a hospital, eat good food, get tested, get treated,etc.
Disadvantages« he rats me out and tells everyone what happen.
I couldn't care less of what they said.
Most important thing, do I trust him? I pressed the call bar deciding to call him, it ringed and on the third ring he picked,
"Hello"
"George"
"Yh"
"Can you come pick me up"
"Uh-huh..."
" I said can you please come pick me up" trust me I was on the verge of crying but I couldn't.
"Oka_y where are you"
" I will text you and please bring a top, a pair of shorts, a small hand towel and three bottles of water."
"Oka___yy"
I ended the call saying thank you.
Now I didn't expect him to agree so quickly to picking me up without questioning me on why I told him to bring lots of stuff and why him cause why would he.
Anyways I waited patiently but quietly while gathering my strength for him to get there.
Five minutes later he called, I was inside some bushes so he couldn't see me but I could hear lhis voice so I told him to turn left and walk forward and then I ended the call.
He just stood in front of me when he got there and didn't say anything so i asked him to give me what I told him to bring and to gave me some privacy.
After wearing the clothes, I cleaned myself with the towel and water and called him to come help me carry my bags that contained the ball, the bips and my books while I tried standing up.
Standing up wasn't easy but I had to do it George tried helping me stand but I had to do it on my own.
I was able to finally stand up and we walked home more like I crawled and he walked.
To my house from where we were was is like a seven minutes walk but we arrived safely.
When we arrived he helped me open the door and I went inside.
I sat inside the bath tub cause I needed to clean my wound and change my clothes.
When I was done I went outside to meet George, I asked him if he'd like to follow me to the hospital he said yes without even thinking twice but he also said he needed to do something urgent which will take only five minutes.
I agreed since I needed to eat and see what I could do to totally stop my bleeding.
I NEEDED TO BE STRONG.
Three minutes later I was done with what I wanted to do so I went to sit with George, sitting wasn't easy but I did it, I DID IT and then I waited patiently for him to finish whatever he was doing.
Few minutes later, I turned around cause I heard the sound of a vehicle outside my house only for the door to open and Jason came down from the car.
I turned back to George and he said that we won't be taking a public transport to the hospital and we needed a means of transportation.
I face palmed myself cause I forgot that even if George decides to tell no one about what happened he would surely tell Jason about it.
When he got to the front door, George got up to help me get to the car and we went to my family hospital.
They helped me with the procedure and I was attended to, I stayed over night and they did too which I was grateful for and it'd help me sleep knowing that I was been watched.
Now ask me why I trust them« I have no fucking idea why but my guts just kept telling me that I could rely on them and I always listened to my instinct so I'd rely on them.
The next day we met the head doctor and my test results were already out and I was told to come back for further checkup and tests.
On our way home, I expected them to ask me what happened but they didn't but I felt I needed to let them know what transpired and I did just that.
I told them what happened after the game, what happened on the way home, why I decided to take that route, how I blinded my raper with a sharp edged stick I just noticed cause I was to confused____shocked.
Seriously I still don't know how best to describe how I actually felt but I had to be strong for myself and myself only, but one thing I didn't tell them was why I decided to call George and I left that unsaid.
George asked if I wanted to go home straight or if I wanted to report the case to the police, but I just wanted to go home and rest and I felt I didn't see the need to report him as he won't be seeing other girls to rape, so I decided to go home.
Throughout our journey Jason said nothing but I hoped____I ___ I just hoped. What am I hoping for? I have no fucking idea but I still hoped.