Keifer's pov;
I drove towards our place, a bench under a large tree but it was not anymore, the tree and the bench vanished,
I smiled because it was the place I hated most and now it was not more , she looked towards me
" What would we do now"
I didn't speak anything and sighed her to follow me
I took her somewhere far from the place,not remembering our past
" Now speak" I said , opening the recorder in my phone because I remembered, jay once said record what you will talk and I wanted to be loyal for her ,
Ella started speaking
" Actually keifer, I want to say that"she started
I stopped her
" If you are gonna say something nonsense again then please don't, " I said
" Keifer please listen to me" she requested
" Okay fine, talk" I said and soon she started snobing
I couldn't help , not to make her calm down with my words , I couldn't even touch her , she was never mine to claim and make her calm down, I stood still looking at her breakdown,
" Keifer I was never into yuri!!" She said while snobing
Oh god this was the thing I am afraid of, I don't want to hear this again,
" But still I forced to loved him, because he might get hurt , and I ended up hurting him and hurting my self"
" Is this the reason you called me here" I asked
She nodded saying no to my question
" I loved you back then , more than you thought but I didn't wanted Yuri to get hurt so I choosed him over you besides now I got my love aries but" she stopped
I am not expecting her to say anything further because her feelings over us was worse than I thought
" Keifer, I trust you so I want to share something personal with you " she said
" But I can't promise your personal wouldn't be with me forever " I said making assurance
" I know you can't hide it from jay , I don't have any problem with her but I can't handle others to know about it" she said
" Then why did you call me here we can talk infront of her ," I said
" No keifer, I can't share everything with you when she is around because I am gonna say something that she might really couldn't stand stable after hearing " she said and I nodded
Tension flickered all over
" Keifer I lost my ability to become a mother " she said
I froze for a second
" What??" I questioned back
She started crying hard
" Keifer do you remember when we were in a relationship, I hugged yuri which made you jealous so you didn't talk to me a week and didn't attend school " she said
" Yes , but why are you taking past now in between " I questioned
" Because keifer when you left, he forced me to be his " she stopped saying and cried out a loud
After sometime she wiped her tears and continued
" He fucked me " she said but she didn't hesitate to say
" I am sorry" I said because something guilty shattered
" I called you many times that day but you didn't answer, I know it was not your mistake, but still I hoped you would show up, " she said.
I don't know why my heart felt heavy by her words
" And that night I surrendered myself to him, because I was afraid that If I didn't give up ,he would kill me" she said
I took a deep breath,not ready to listen further but still I did
" And after somedays,I came to know that I was pregnant, with his child" she continued
I don't know where the guts came but I wiped her tears
" Do you remember in the camp I said to him , I was into him" she asked and I nodded
" I said that because, I wanted him to take the responsibility of the child" she said
And I now understood why yuri kept meeting her back then
" But he didn't care , after that one day I went to his House asking him to take the responsibility but instead he manipulated me and made me drink juice containing some drugs , I didn't know it was a tablet to remove the baby from my stomach, I drank it , I felt something strange in my body , I went to hospital for checkup but the doctor said the baby was gone " she said while crying
I couldn't help this time so I pulled her into a hug
The only word I could say is
" Sorry"
She pulled back
" Don't say sorry, it was my mess and I involved you guys, I am sorry" she said
My tears are on the edge to fall but I covered
" But the day I got to know jay was kidnapped by yuri , I nearly had my fear back , what does it happens to her , I wanted to talk to her , but I couldn't because she hated me , but still I didn't care she hated me or not , I was concerned about her " she said
My mind goes on its own thinking
What if something like this happened to jay and she didn't open up to me
I felt myself a bad , careless man, probably I am
" And now I am happy with aries, but before somedays I found out that I can't be able to give birth again" she said
" Why" I asked but I really didn't want to ask anything
" Because I am very weak to have a baby, and I think if I get stronger I can have a chance but not now" she said wiping her tears
" Why did you choose this time was the right to say this" I asked
She smiled a bit and said
" I don't want to have any misunderstandings with anyone and besides I want you to take care of jay and make her feel free to share anything with you "she said and I nodded
" Let's go " she said and I dropped her to her house
I didn't go to house instead I reached pub
I went in,
I ordered 2 bottles,
I started to drink
What the hell , am I even a man who can't protect a girl when she needed me the most, my mom didn't rise me like this, I wanted to slap myself,
And ella she was helpless when she needed me the most,
And jay , I didn't even take care of her well ,
I am not capable of her love, besides I love her more than anything else but still I couldn't protect her ,
I failed as a son
I failed as a boyfriend
And now I am failing to be protector of my loved ones
After finishing 2 bottles I left to Home,
I didn't know how I drived even drinking at much
I thought it would be my last day if I drive like this
But I didn't backed either because I know jay will be waiting for me to come home soon,
God's sake I reached safe,
She was sleeping in the couch but woke as I made door sound, I didn't mean to wake her up but it happened
She came near me , I thought she would slap me but instead she asked
" Did you eat"
Like literally she didn't stop caring even when she is angry at me
She took me towards dining table and made me sit
She took the plate full of rice before she fed me I asked her
" Did you eat"
No she didn't, I knew it because she was worried about me
I fed her and we had our dinner ,I can barely open my eyes but I can hear what she was talking
She made me sleep in the bed and kissed my forehead
" I know you didn't do anything wrong, I trust you" she said
And slept beside me hugging me ,
I forced to open my eyes and kissed her head
I am sorry jay , I couldn't protect you when you needed me the most I said myself and slept hugging her back