Rocks surrounds me.
Woooow.
They are oranges. So cool. So interesting. I'm sure there must be an interesting chemical reason or whatever that explain why this entire cave have the color of bricks.
But to be honest.
I couldn't care less. No matter how much I try to avoid the thoughts of what's happening. Of the pain that lance up off my legs.
Starting from my shin bolting up like thunder toward of my hips and ending from this whole MESS that is my torso.
No matter what.
I can't just fucking ignore it.
WHY AM I EVEN THERE!?
Fourtunately. I am Ludger Motherfucking Emelini and diversion is my forte.
WHO THE FUCK SCOUT WHEN THEY ARE INJURED ANYWAY!?
I keep looking around. Bodies surrounds me. 4 of them. A family of boar I massacred. Just like all the others.
At least I didn't pummeled those ones.
Ignoring the acrid scent of blood choking my nostrils. And the flashbacks of my growling, and my fist against Twitchy face, and my face getting covering in goblin guts, and feeling my body getting possesed by magic, and flashbacks of-!
Just a lot of flashbacks alright!?
As I said. Ignoring the smell of blood, I look at the walls and ground instead.
The famous orange rocks.
They surround me completly. It's a pretty big cave to be honest, a full tunnel like hole, I could do a small sprint of 3-4 seconds. From left to right. Just to cover the full width.
Not like I really could though, you know? With the whole shuffling forward like a grandpa?
Soooo it's probably dozens of meters.
In front of me, the hole of the cave. It leads to the outside and bring me some memories from the goblin camps, the kind I dig down deep.
This is my goal.
Like I said a second ago.
Maybe you'd remember if you fucking payed attention. I said it. I'm scouting.
Why? Guess you fucking dumbass. Told you earlier I made a half baked plan, and I'm being childishly petty and pissed off at everyone!
Guess! Really! Try and put two and two together!
'Is that a way to avoid the others?'
YEAH! CONGRATULATION YOU CAN THINK!
I sigh. Deep. Breathy and long.
Sorry me. Didn't meant to insult you. That's my bad.
I'm just...feeling like shit today, taking it out however I can.
Pushing forward I can still feel the ache of my injured body, horrible sensation, I wanna sleep so damn much.
Probably couldn't sleep cause of my thoughts though. Fuck. I kick the body of a dead boar that was just beside me.
Pain lance up my shin.
FUCKING FUCKER!
"Ayoooooo, something in there?" My head turn left and right. Going from looking at my shin, to behind me. Where I heard a mouse like voice.
It's mousy of course. She's over the boar, climbed it to move inside the cave.
"Nothing." My voice is a bit too fast and a bit too harsh. She doesn't react to it. And just get down carefully, squatting down, grabbing the wet bloody fur with a small grimace and pushing herself down toward the rocks.
"Urk, soo much blood" she stand there, hands up, looking at them. Probably wondering where she should wipe that shit. After a while she look around the cave.
Trying to make conversation. Like usual. Find a way to joke together, like usual.
"Well, if it isn't bleary over here!"
.....I stare at her.
Really stare at her.
"Maybe you should have stayed back then."
Her reaction to my words is pretty big. She just look at me for a while. A small freezing smile on there. "Oh..."
Urghhhhhh fuck, I feel like I just kicked a baby.
She hang there, with her hands half up, looking around, kicking some rocks.
Before she can say anything else I fix up this mess I created.
"Sorry, didn't meant to lash out at you." Another big sigh, I shake my head and look forward again. "Just was a bit angry, didn't meant that"
There is barely a second of silence as Annie jump on the opportunity to mend this shit. "That's fiiiiiiine! This can happen, we cool" she keep shifting around. I turn to look at her and then with her hands still up. She face them toward me, palms toward me.
Head tilted.
A strange smile, and she litterally fucking say.
"MISTER-MISTER BEAST!"
Something must have broken in my mind for a second. Because I'm pretty sure I've been staring at her for the next 20 seconds while she stayed still in that...pose.
What the fuck?
Before anything else can happen someone jump up from the boar. Landing beside Annie. He look at her, then at me, and tell me with utmost seriousness.
"Do you need help my friend? Is this pervert harassing your safety?"
Giving a glance at malfoy, my mouth doesn't have the time. THE PHYSICAL SKILLS! To form the words to answer.
Mousy though, fight back those accusations.
"Waitwaitwaitwait I'm NOT a pervert!"
Malfoy turn his head, look her down.
"I am not the one looking at 18 years old strangely, you...parasite"
"PARASITE!? PARASITE! DID YOU JUST CALLED ME A PARASITE!"
"Are you a deaf pervert perhaps?"
"WHO THE FUCK SAY THAT!? THAT'S NOT NORMAL!" "Normal speech is for deaf perverts like you." "YOU, YOU SLYTHERIN!" "I apologize to normal people, you clearly have a different speech than them. Your deafness prove itself with screams, my ears hurt." "I HOPE THEY HURT, YOU WEAKER THAN LUDGER, LALALALALA, LOSER!"
I'm already gone before malfoy answer again.
The screams barely reach me anymore as I shuffle forward, walking hurt, but it's necessary to escape the fight between the slytherin and the crazy mouse.
Not my business.
I'm.
I'm just not gonna think about that.
A small smile spread on my face nontheless. It was pretty funny.
Even managed to put me out of my thoughts.
My thoughts.
I give a glance back toward the fighting guys. Should I go back there?
Something stop me.
I can't run away forever.
That may be good words, proving a willingness to improve. But they are sparsed with me overlooking ever single details of the rock around me. Distracting myself.
My feet carry me forward.
It feel heavy.
As if my entire body is drenched in water, soaking up every part of my being.
Then, I reach it.
Finally.
The end of the cave. The screams behind me are practically inexistant.
I take one step forward -more like an awkward shuffle-
Finally there.
The sight is pretty insane.
My feet carry me forward as I look in front of me.
A gigantic meadow.
A gentle sun go up and down slowly in the horizon, washing up the sky in an odd and unnaturally purply like light.
The light hit down at the meadow. Covering every inch of grass, still covered in small drops of water. A small purple glint spark on them. But overall, orange is dominant in this world.
It cover everything in my sight.
From the small path of rocks, that slowly lead my feet toward the confortably fresh grass. To..well the color of said grass.
Orange.
From afar it may look similar to wheat. But on closer inspection, the grass just look too different, too short, and too fluoerecent to be anything I know and recognize.
A gentle breeze come to push around the mess of hair that's on my face.
Comfortable considering the relatively hot weather.
I stand there.
Staying in the grass for a while. The entrance of the cave behind me, waiting for me.
Only one thought can escape me as I see this:
Make me think of minecraft lol
Like, with shaders. And strange mods. And. And I'm trying to distract myself by thinking weird shit. I know I know.
My humor isn't really catching up right now. Really I'm trying but I feel really down today.
Been a while since I felt like that.
Since Twicthy it's been the rising, just like it was with mom.
And then Emy, two years ago...but it didn't stay long for her.
I'll heal, probably.
Just like I did before, or maybe it won't, because I'm fine since she's fine.
Just bald.
My hand come up to brush my hair out of my eyes. It refuse, sliding down slightly. Rubbing on my eyes for a while.
I don't even know what to say really, don't even know how to start.
It's always a mess to deal with those feelings, how do I even describe this?
I guess I feel overwhelmed?
Some steps break me out from my reverie.
My eyes close for a second, blinking, body freezing for a demi second.
Someone's coming.