What did I want?
Since I arrived, I only adapted. I followed the rules.
And I got what they asked for.
I enjoyed it. I wouldn't deny it.
Achieving to deflower two beautiful women was delicious.
If I were different, maybe it would be easier.
Give myself a couple of slaps, say goodbye, and go look for new girls.
In this world, it wouldn't be so difficult. If I looked well.
There were blackmails, parties, girls alone or with low self-esteem.
Dreams of being models or idols.
There were too many ways to find another virgin.
But I stayed with Saki.
I didn't want her to go with someone else.
Whether it was out of selfishness, possessiveness… or something more.
I didn't want to let her go.
At least… not like this.
Although it sounds like an excuse, this world was dangerous.
Saki and Mana were already on the verge of falling into very bad scenarios.
I want to believe that I was better.
Although, I'm not so sure anymore.
No… at least I wanted to be something better.
What happened in the kitchen, and with Mana…
Didn't it prove it?
Now that I think about it, why did I act like that?
Why was I so nice to them?
I shook my head.
It wasn't time to think about that.
Before coming here, although I didn't show it…
I was very responsible.
So I shouldn't doubt anymore.
What's done is done.
I only have left to accept what I decided.
Although I'm scared of the future,
although I worry about what will happen if I get attached to them…
I decided to take the reins.
Fuuuuu.
I sighed, letting out all the air from my lungs.
"Saki! Saki!"
I hugged her. She didn't seem to hear me.
"Yes, we are boyfriend and girlfriend, Saki. But I have to warn you about something.
I am a bad boyfriend. I will keep bringing girls.
I am greedy, possessive… and jealous.
That goes for you too, Mana.
Saki seemed to come to her senses.
"Aren't we boyfriend and girlfriend? Aren't you going to leave me?"
It seems her brain only processed that part.
"Yes… but, did you hear everything I said?"
"Yes, yes, I heard. We are boyfriend and girlfriend!"
She hugged me, rubbing her face against my chest.
Then she cuddled up.
Seeing her like that made me feel sorry for her.
Mana murmured, without moving:
"And am I your girlfriend too?"
I turned to her.
With a tired sigh, I replied:
"Yes, you too."
She also cuddled up.
Seeing both of them, I thought:
"I picked up very problematic girls."
My head started to hurt.
Maybe it will become a recurring ailment.
---
Saki looked tired.
Maybe crying exhausted her.
I tucked her in, got dressed and thought about going down to the kitchen.
Between sex and sleeping, the morning had passed.
It was already afternoon.
We had to have lunch.
I was hungry.
And the girls must have been too.
I decided to prepare something for them.
The fridge didn't have much,
but I could improvise.
Mana followed me.
She hummed happily some unknown song.
She didn't get dressed.
She was still naked.
Although exciting, she could get sick.
"Mana, get dressed. The kitchen is not a place to be naked. It's dangerous."
"Didn't you fuck four-eyes in the kitchen?"
"It was the dining room. And her name is Saki. Don't call her 'four-eyes.' Don't fight so much."
She stuck her tongue out at me and went to get dressed.
While she changed,
I got to work.
My skills hadn't rusted.
In minutes, I prepared the ingredients.
I was going to cook a stew.
It only lacked cooking for a few minutes.
The rice was already in the rice cooker.
I took a knife to chop some vegetables.
I thought about making a salad.
Should I use vinaigrette?
Some steps took me out of my thoughts.
It was Mana, already dressed.
She sat to watch me.
I just continued cooking.
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***
Mana watched him cook.
He was good.
The knife danced between his fingers,
chopping the vegetables with precision.
He wasn't an amateur.
It was obvious.
A professional cook?
Maybe.
She never thought that one ordinary afternoon,
where she went out to have fun stealing,
would end with her first time…
and a boyfriend.
Now that she thought about it…
she knew nothing about him.
By how he cooked,
it was likely that he worked in a restaurant.
Maybe a well-known one.
So why did he go out to look for girls, pretending to be an abuser?
A strange fetish?
Mana, in some way, was grateful if that was the case.
She was resigned to being blackmailed,
but if her first time had been with the other guy…
She felt chills.
Just imagining it, her skin prickled.
She got lucky.
Noa went "hunting" that day.
Apart from a "sweet" and attentive boyfriend…
she had four-eyes to play with.
Didn't he repeat that she was a toy?
Now she was also an official girlfriend.
Mana felt good.
Very good.
Although thinking about the problem at home when she returned…
gave her a headache.
---
The food was ready.
I served the plates for Mana, Saki and for me.
I asked Mana to keep an eye on it.
I went to wake up Saki.
Food is tastier when it's hot.
To my surprise,
Saki was sitting naked on the bed,
awake.
When I entered the room,
she just looked at me before blinking.
She didn't say anything.
"Saki, are you okay?"
I made something to eat.
Let's go before it gets cold.
Saki just stayed there.
I got scared.
I didn't know what to do.
Should I hug her? Call an ambulance?
If this were my world,
I wouldn't have hesitated.
Here... I didn't want to take the risk.
Who guaranteed me that the doctor who attended to her wouldn't be a rapist or a tentacle creature?
Wouldn't it be more dangerous for Saki?
I decided to hug her.
Her body felt cold.
I bit my lip.
Did I make a mistake by accepting?
What should I do?
I could only hug her and caress her back.
"What's wrong, Saki?"
You can tell me anything.
If I can help you, I will.
Saki didn't move.
I started to worry more.
Luckily,
she started to talk.
Not to murmur.
"Why is that bitch also your girlfriend?"
I don't want her to stay.
If you want more girlfriends,
I will look for some.
But not her.
I felt bad.
I didn't take Saki's opinion into account
and made the decision on my own.
But I wasn't going to back down.
Although I had to admit,
Saki was important to me.
Mana was too.
Both were my responsibility.
Although I can't say that I love them,
I like both of them.
Although for now only physically...
or so I think.
That's why I didn't want to lose them.
"Saki, Mana...
she is also my woman,
as much as you.
Try to get along with her better.
Saki trembled.
"If I don't get along with her,
will you leave me?"
I hesitated.
What should I tell her?
That yes?
That I will leave her if she doesn't do what I say?
Although obedient,
would she be happy?
What would differentiate her from a doll then?
What do I want?
An obedient pussy?
Or a woman?
"No, I won't leave you, Saki. But... I also won't leave her." I continued while hugging her tighter "I won't change, I already told you. I'm bad. I won't ever abandon you. You are mine, no one else's. No one can touch you, apart from me. That's how possessive I am. So I will never leave you."
"But you can leave me," I thought.