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Chapter 96 - |•|words I want to say

I was "pretending to browse" the hotel's souvenir shop, subtly maneuvering to stand near the counter while keeping my posture casual. My head was down, ostensibly preoccupied with my phone, scrolling absentmindedly through emails, but my real attention was entirely elsewhere. Behind me, a conversation buzzed quietly, and my instincts told me it was worth listening in on. A tiny, bunny-eared sticker—some sort of AR notification—popped into my peripheral vision over the shoulder of a nearby tourist: "OH MY! I NEED TO LISTEN TO THIS!" It made me smirk briefly, even as my focus remained laser-sharp.

The murmurs quickly swelled into chatter that I could effortlessly eavesdrop on.

"Everyone's really interested in our hotel," a staff member said, her voice polite but firm.

I glanced away from my phone and noticed the display of fountain pens. Shiny, intricate, and elegant—one in particular caught my eye. It was long and slender, with an oceanic swirl embedded in its glassy surface. I turned it over in my hand, feeling the weight and smoothness of it. Should I get one for Eiser? He loved fountain pens. He always wrote with care, his handwriting precise and deliberate.

But then the pang of reality hit me. No. I couldn't even think about gifts right now. Not when our divorce loomed over everything. The pen felt almost like a cruel tease, reminding me of what we had lost—or what I might never get back. I set it down gently, taking a quiet, steadying breath.

The conversation behind me drew me back in.

"Anyway, I don't like this new hotel they're building," a woman muttered, her tone sharp with discomfort.

"It'll get so noisy around here with construction," another woman added, her red hat bobbing slightly as she gestured with her hands. "And our quiet city will be swarming with outsiders… Ugh, I hate it. I like things just the way they are. Why don't they build one on their own land?"

A third voice, tinged with excitement, countered: "Really? I was thrilled by the news. This city is going to become bigger and more modern—like Meuracevia! I hear the whole area will be transformed, from the shops to the streets. I can't wait."

"Plus, they're building a big department store right next to the hotel! I'm excited to go shopping there!"

"I'm for it too," a male voice chimed in, calm but firm. "This place needs to get with the times."

I could feel the city's pulse in the words of these strangers—a mix of apprehension and anticipation. Tradition clashed with progress, quiet charm collided with economic opportunity, and the locals were divided sharply down the middle.

"They're coming in to build and develop this place—something the city couldn't possibly do on its own. I want to experience modern culture and civilization," one woman argued, her voice full of conviction.

"They'll get so noisy… and our quiet city will be swarming with outsiders…" the red-hatted woman repeated, her words thick with fear.

I noted every word, every rising and falling intonation. These were people who felt their identity was under threat. Their questions, like "Why don't they build one on their own land?" lingered in the air like an accusation.

The staff member—the most informed among them—interjected, adding crucial context. "The old train station is getting a major renovation right away, and they'll establish a direct route to the capital. With these transit improvements, there's no question this will benefit everyone." She paused, letting her words sink in.

I couldn't help but recognize the significance: a direct route to the capital would transform commerce, tourism, and the very rhythm of city life.

"Besides," she added, softer now, almost apologetically, "my dad said the family store needs wealthy visitors to stay in business. Without sustained tourism, there's no way we could survive."

I processed this quietly. The division was clear. On one side were people clinging to tradition and fearing outsiders; on the other were those embracing opportunity, commerce, and modernization. The city teetered on the edge of change, and the upcoming developments would not just be physical—they would be cultural, social, and economic.

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Ulterior Motives and the Cliffs – Expanded Narrative

The staff member's words confirmed the project's enormous potential. Renovating the train station, establishing a direct route to the capital—these weren't small gestures. They were transformative.

"The old train station is getting a major renovation right away, and they'll also establish a direct route to the capital. With these improvements, there's no question it will be beneficial," she insisted. "Besides, my dad said the family store needs wealthy visitors to keep going. Without sustained tourism, there's no way we could survive."

Her logic was sound, practical, even undeniable. But one objector—the woman in the red hat—remained unconvinced. She huffed, shivering slightly in her cute chibi form, as if her anxiety had physically shrunk her.

"Hmph, I still have a bad feeling about it," she muttered. "I'm sure they have some sort of ulterior motive. Why our city of all places?"

I fought the urge to roll my eyes and start mentally listing counterarguments. I don't… I thought. Because it's beautiful. Because it has potential…

She continued, panic creeping into her voice. "They probably think very little of us because we're a subject city! Or maybe they plan to steal our jobs… PANIC! Are they planning to take over our city?!"

I countered silently: No. I don't… I like it here. This hotel creates jobs. It brings in big spenders. We're paying taxes too… Seriously.

"Oh, whatever! I just don't like it," she huffed, arms crossed tightly. "Once it's finished, I'll go see for myself just how great this hotel actually is… Hmph."

A friendlier voice chimed in from the back, calm and encouraging: "Yes, please do."

I stood there, silently absorbing the conflicting currents of emotion swirling in the room. Excitement. Anticipation. Fear. Resentment. Yet none of it compared to what came next—a sudden, alarming twist in the conversation.

"Hey, have you heard? The city sold the cliffs to that hotel."

My heart skipped a beat. Misunderstandings were already forming in my mind, dangerous ones.

"THE OHAVIEH CLIFFS?!" someone shouted in disbelief. The image of the cliffs flashed vividly before me—jagged, majestic, the town spread delicately below them, canals and bridges threading through like veins of life.

"Yeah. I know the city's in debt, but how could they just sell it? They're all thieves—the company for buying it, and the city for selling it!" a woman with long dark hair and a white cap exclaimed, anger etched deep into her features.

I realized, in horror, that the rumor mill had gone into overdrive. They believed I intended to privatize their sacred cliffs. The information was wildly inaccurate—baseless. You locals wouldn't know, but we actually helped the city, I thought. They won't have to sell anything…

The woman's voice rose in fury. "Huh? What on earth is he talking about? I never did anything like that. And now the hotel plans to… put up a fence around the cliffs, only open to guests! Do they not know what these cliffs mean to us? How dare they?"

I watched her tighten her jaw, clench her fists, her entire body radiating indignation—FUME, FUME, CLENCH.

"My word! If that's true, we should protest!"

She tried to make sense of what she perceived as a betrayal: "They probably pressured the mayor somehow, using their influence from a powerful kingdom. Why else would he have agreed, no matter the debt?"

The venom in their voices made it clear: a single rumor could destroy trust overnight. I needed to act fast. The city believed the cliffs were under threat, and if left unchecked, this misconception would poison public sentiment and potentially derail the entire project.

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This expanded version deepens:

Your internal reflections and moral dilemmas.

The city's cultural and economic tensions.

The emotional reactions of the locals, with subtle humor in the "chibi" reference.

The looming crisis of the rumor about the cliffs.

The rumors about the Ohavieh Cliffs—the claim that I had bought them and planned to fence them off—fueled a hot, rising anger inside me. I clenched my fists as I pictured myself blurting the truth in the middle of the shop, letting frustration take over. You have no idea, I wanted to shout. You locals wouldn't know, but we actually helped the city so they wouldn't have to sell something even more valuable!

I could almost hear my own voice in my mind: I worked late into the night for two whole weeks to resolve that issue! The city itself asked us to manage Ohavieh, given its proximity to the hotel! We're actually losing money doing this! The cliffs are stunning, cherished by the locals, and we only have conditional permission to use them occasionally for events! This is nothing like the rumor you've built in your heads!

I longed to march up to the woman in the red hat and the men surrounding her, letting my words tumble out in a crescendo of frustration: "HEY, LISTEN! DO YOU GET IT NOW?!"

But I forced the words down. I breathed through the tension, letting a sense of patience seep in. I would love to tell them that… but I can't, at least not yet.

I turned away from the group, letting the chime of the shop door announce my exit, and walked toward the waterfront, the sunlight dancing off the water in a way that seemed almost calming. I focused on the mission ahead of me.

We'll be outsiders at first. Strangers. That was a simple truth I had to accept. I have to clear up this misunderstanding slowly, carefully, one step at a time.

I drew in a deep breath. The hotel's coexistence with the people of Flo Marina is far more important than any fleeting moment of satisfying anger.

It had been just over a week since I arrived in this city, yet already, each day was layered with small rituals of observation. Every morning, I climbed the long stairs up to the dark observatory, gazing at the empty lot where the new hotel would rise. The plot of land, still choked with weeds, exposed, and bare, seemed almost symbolic—a blank slate, waiting for something alive and transformative.

As I wandered through the streets, I observed everything: how the light bounced off the rooftops, how locals whispered in market stalls, how children dashed through narrow alleys. Even the smallest conversations became data points.

"Sweetie, about that hotel… I heard they'll be hiring a lot once it's built. I'm thinking of applying," a woman said near a fruit stall, her voice low, conspiratorial.

GASP. Another ripple of gossip. People spoke of the hotel constantly, their words forming a hum that I both dreaded and depended on for insight. The hotel… blah blah blah… I often wanted to groan internally, Oh, again… But still, I persevered, tuning in, letting the pulse of the city guide me.

At the observatory, looking out at the water and the empty plot, I allowed my thoughts to drift. The sea breeze teased my hair, the white dress I wore fluttering gently in the wind. Apprehension and determination mingled like tides in my chest.

The hotel—like the one I built in Wellenberg—was still a "baby," waiting for its first steps. And just like it, I was wholly responsible for it. The thought was daunting, yet tender in its promise.

I smiled slightly, imagining the future: laughter and tears, mishaps and celebrations, a space filled with memories, woven into the daily lives of those who would visit. This place will grow. It will live. And I'll be part of its heartbeat.

I allowed myself a quiet, private sense of pride. The hotel would become a part of Flo Marina, integrated not by force but by careful attention, understanding, and respect. Even the resistance, even the rumors, could not overshadow the purpose I had chosen for myself here.

Even after leaving the market, the lingering murmur of rumors about the cliffs pressed on my mind. But a more urgent need arose—a need for reflection, for personal realignment. I found a quiet, sun-drenched room, the light pooling in golden sheets across the wooden floor.

I sat at the desk, a pencil in hand, and began to write. SCRIBBLE SCRIBBLE. Each line of my journal or letter felt like a thread untangling a knotted ball of thought and anxiety. I poured everything into the page: worries about the hotel, fears for the city's reception, insecurities about my failing marriage, and the simmering anticipation of a life suddenly my own.

Hours seemed to collapse into one continuous flow. And then, strangely, I noticed a clarity settling in. My head cleared; the heaviness of unspoken thoughts lifted. PAUSE.

I looked down at the page, thick with tight script, and felt a release I hadn't anticipated. Courage had replaced the tangled tension.

The light in the room seemed to respond, bathing the page in a warm, golden glow. I reflected on why I had journeyed so far from my former life.

Oh, Mom… perhaps I came here to prepare myself to be alone.

The realization cut sharply, honest and unavoidable. My marriage was ending. Soon, the people I had relied upon most might disappear from my daily life. Even so, life would continue, and I had to be ready to protect the people and things I cared about, unwavering.

I folded the letter carefully, sealing it in an envelope with deliberate attention. Looking toward the future, I felt a newfound determination.

I will start small. I will learn to be strong even when alone. I will do you, Grandma, and myself proud.

Walking into the sunlit church, its stained-glass windows casting colorful patterns across the marble floors, I felt the sacred weight of ritual. At the altar, the priest approached, smiling kindly.

"Have you finished writing? You took quite a while. Nearly an hour," he said gently.

"Oh, Father… I wanted to be brief, but once I started, I couldn't stop. I guess I had a lot to say," I replied, offering him the folded envelope.

He accepted it, placing it carefully in the sacred chest atop the altar. "The letters collected over the year will be burned around this time next year… in a cauldron above the fountain of holy water," he explained.

I watched the letter disappear into its resting place, feeling a tangible weight lift from my shoulders. It was a commitment, a promise—not signed, not witnessed, but confessed in quiet, deliberate thought. My future in Flo Marina, the hotel's success, and my own personal growth were now written, sealed, and oriented toward a new beginning.

This expansion deepens:

Your internal emotional journey, showing both frustration and measured patience.

The symbolic connection between the empty hotel plot and your personal responsibility.

The ritualistic act of writing the letter as a cathartic, transformative practice.

A strong sense of hope and purpose, balancing tension with determination.

The Father had carefully sealed my letter and placed it in the sacred chest. I felt a lightness settle over me, a quiet relief from having entrusted my intentions to a higher authority. Yet, just as I turned toward the sunlit exit of the sanctuary, a lingering thought clawed its way to the surface—sharp, insistent, and impossibly human.

"Anything else you'd like to add before I seal it?" the Father had asked, his voice gentle but wise. His eyes, serene and patient, seemed to understand more than I could say. Write everything down, so you have no regrets later.

I hesitated. Anything else I'd like to add…?

"Yes… oh, I… I do!" I blurted, spinning back toward the altar with sudden urgency. My face was a mixture of sorrow and determination, as if the very act of writing could tether my heart to the fleeting present.

I retrieved the pencil, my hand moving quickly now, almost frantically, tracing words onto the page with a kind of desperate hope. The warm light filtering through the stained glass seemed to sparkle, catching the edges of the paper and the frantic movement of my hand. The Father watched me with quiet patience, as if he understood the weight of what I was adding.

"It seems she misses you a lot," he said softly.

I knew immediately he was speaking of my Grandma. A memory rose unbidden: her hands in mine as we stood by the ocean, her face serene, my own smiling. She wore a black dress with an emerald necklace, elegance and strength radiating from her every gesture.

Oh, and Mom… I thought, the memory twisting in my chest. You probably know this already, but Grandma is very sick.

I kept writing, the words forming a silent prayer. A tear slipped down my cheek, blotting the paper slightly. DRIP.

For so long, misunderstandings had fostered resentment toward her, toward Mom. I realized how much time had been wasted, how many moments left unspoken. There were still countless things I wanted to say, experiences I longed to share.

I looked up at the Father, my voice thick with emotion as I added the last lines. "…But can't you please… please take her a little bit later?" I whispered, my words barely audible.

I wanted more time. Time to make memories, to repair what had been broken, to cherish what little remained.

With the final line written, I sealed the letter again, this time containing not only intentions for the hotel and the city but the deepest, most personal plea of my heart. The hotel, the divorce, the rumors—they demanded resilience, but my truest source of courage came from the hope to repair, to nurture, and to cherish what mattered most.

This journey to Flo Marina was about building a future, yes—but it was also about confronting and healing the past.

The sun was dipping low over the horizon, painting the sky with a riot of pinks, oranges, and purples. After leaving the church, the city felt softer, calmer, and for the first time in days, my mind achieved a fragile peace.

The day had felt longer than usual, as though each small observation, each whispered rumor, each step toward clarity had stretched time itself.

I walked along the promenade, the air salty and crisp, whipping past my hair with a gentle whoosh. The city, with its canals, bridges, and historical architecture, was silhouetted against the burning sky, a delicate balance between antiquity and the modernizing pulse the hotel promised.

I can't leave the hotel for too long, I thought. But I've come to terms with everything, somewhat…

The sea gleamed like molten gold, reflecting the sunset in endless waves. I breathed it in, letting the beauty of the moment anchor me, the breeze tugging gently at the hem of my long black coat. The sun's last light streaked the sky and the water, signaling the day's end and the quiet close of my observatory and introspection rituals.

I was just about to turn back toward the hotel when a sudden, almost silent gasp escaped me. Something—or someone—had caught my eye.

I scanned the last stretch of illuminated sand, past the bustling café tables and flickering streetlights, and froze.

There, on a solitary bench overlooking the crashing waves, was a man. Broad-shouldered, sitting with quiet intent, his dark jacket blending almost seamlessly with the deepening evening. His hair was tousled by the wind, and his profile, etched against the burning horizon, was unmistakable.

A single word slipped from my lips, barely audible, carried both by disbelief and the faint hope that reality could bend to my longing: Frederick?

Time seemed to slow. The noise of the city melted away, leaving only the roar of the ocean and the tremor of my own heartbeat. My husband—the man I was preparing to divorce, the man entwined with the life I was striving to leave behind—was here, in Flo Marina, at the edge of my carefully constructed new world.

I couldn't move. I couldn't speak. And yet, everything about this moment screamed that nothing in my life would ever feel the same again.

This expansion:

Deepens your introspection and the emotional intensity of the letter-writing ritual.

Highlights your connection to family, guilt, and hope.

Creates a cinematic, almost surreal description of the sunset and cityscape.

Amplifies the shock and emotional complexity of encountering Frederick at the water's edge.

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The shock of seeing him froze me in place. Frederick, my estranged husband, was sitting alone on a bench by the water, shoulders slightly hunched, completely absorbed in the fiery sunset. For a heartbeat, the world seemed to narrow to the two of us and the rhythmic crash of the waves. My heart hammered in my chest, my lungs tightening, and I had to force a shaky breath to remind myself I could still move.

I took a tentative step forward, the sand crunching beneath my boots far too loud in the sudden stillness. The wind tugged at my hair, carrying the briny scent of the sea, tangling it across my face, and I brushed it aside with a distracted hand.

"Frederick?" I called, my voice faltering slightly but carrying across the damp evening air.

He flinched, head snapping up sharply. For a moment, his expression mirrored my own—a mixture of surprise, disbelief, and an unspoken tension neither of us had resolved. His hand on the bench clenched briefly before releasing, as though he had grasped the air itself for stability.

"I… what are you doing here?" he asked, rising to his full height with a swift, almost instinctive motion. His tone wasn't accusatory; it was stunned, stripped bare of any pretense.

"That's what I should be asking you," I countered, stopping several feet away, the gap between us heavy with unspoken words. "This city is quite a distance from the capital."

He looked out to the sea, the violent hues of twilight reflecting off the water. The wind tugged at his coat, tousling his hair. "I have… business here," he mumbled, sliding his hands into the pockets of his coat as if the cold could shield him from the weight of this confrontation.

I narrowed my eyes. Business? Frederick rarely left the capital unless absolutely necessary. "What kind of business could possibly bring you all the way to Flo Marina?" I asked, trying to keep my voice steady, trying to hide the rapid thrum of anxiety in my chest.

He avoided my gaze, staring at the horizon as if the setting sun held all the answers. Finally, he exhaled and turned toward me fully. The sight of him—handsome, troubled, slightly wind-swept—made the reality of our impending divorce hit harder than it had all week.

"I heard about your venture," he said simply, his voice quiet but deliberate. "The hotel."

You heard about it? The thought hit me with sudden force. All the nights I had spent pouring myself into this project, striving to carve a space of independence, had been invisible to him until now.

"Why? Why are you here?" I demanded, crossing my arms defensively. The fragile calm I had nurtured after the church ritual vanished, replaced by a familiar knot of tension in my chest.

He stepped closer, then hesitated, keeping a careful distance. "I know this is messy. I know you don't want to see me," he said, choosing his words with painstaking care.

"I came to deliver this," he continued, reaching into the inner pocket of his coat. My eyes followed the motion, widening as he drew out a slender object—the fountain pen with the ocean design I had spotted earlier in the souvenir shop.

A pang of memory flared. Oh… fountain pens. An ocean design? I thought about buying one for him…

He held it out with trembling fingers, the silver gleaming faintly in the dim light of dusk. "I realized I was holding onto it for a long time," he admitted, voice soft and catching in the sea breeze, "thinking I should give it to you when we met again. I know we can't exactly be giving each other gifts at this point… not with everything between us. What was I thinking?"

The realization struck me sharply. Even he had been clinging, in some small, quiet way, to gestures of connection—gestures that now felt painfully futile.

"But still," he added, voice wavering slightly as he extended the pen toward me, "I wanted you to have it. I know you like to write."

I stared at the pen, then at him. Sadness, not anger, shadowed his eyes. He hadn't come to confront me about the hotel, nor to meddle in the city's affairs. He had come to leave a final, delicate mark—a last attempt at connection, fragile and tentative.

Frederick… are you thinking about me even now?

A sharp ache rose in my chest. Slowly, almost reverently, I reached out and took the pen. The metal was cool against my palm, a small, tangible link to him in a moment that otherwise felt impossibly fragile.

"Thank you," I murmured, the first civil words I had spoken to him in months.

Silence fell over us, heavy and potent, carrying the weight of history, of choices made and unmade, and of the vast, indifferent ocean stretching endlessly before us.

In that quiet moment, the world felt suspended—the sunset, the waves, the pen in my hand—all of it held together by the delicate tension between what had been, what was, and what could no longer be.

This expansion:

Heightens the tension and emotional complexity of the encounter.

Adds sensory details: wind, sand, sunset, sea spray, and tactile response to the pen.

Explores internal reactions: shock, anxiety, longing, and the realization of lingering feelings.

Reinforces the symbolic meaning of the pen as a bridge between past intimacy and present separation.

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