I seriously wish I could go back to the time me and Tina never had sex, because right now, I feel like sh*t. I feel like my switch has turn her to someone else, because the real Tina in my memory was a classsy, prideful and beautiful girl, not the clingy and sobbing mess in my arm right now, and I feel like I'm the cause of all this changes.
A lot of thought were going through my mind while Tina was sobbing in my arm, and finally, I decided it will be best to cut contact with her and I also decide to keep my distance from her, maybe that will help her get her bearing together, and maybe she will go back to being the real Tina she use to be before I change her with my switch, but before I could really made up my mind and say anything, Tina kissed me. And one thing led to other we ended up having s*x again...
After having s*x with Tina again, I was spent, worn out, and tired. I collapse behind her, and soon fall back to sleep. I wake a few hours later because of the feel of her soft lips pressing against my own.
Smiling, I open my eyes to see Tina's Hazel eyes looking back at me, and then the memory of my crumbling resolve, and all the wrongs l've done to her comes flooding back, and I scoot away from her, falling out of the bed. Tina laughs at my misfortune, before saying,
"Not the reaction I was expecting." She laughs some more as I try to get up, and I notice I'm still nakked. I try to cover myself, and can't remember where my boxers went. Had I ever even taken the time to take them off during the sexx? Grabbing a clean pair, I turn back to face the beautiful blonde, but did not dare speak, I don't want her getting hot on me again because of the switch I created.
"Dennis poked his head in awhile ago, and asked if you are still going to the party tonight." Her face has gone solemn, and I feel a sinking sensation in my gut. She is talking about Dan peter's party, and he had specifically asked me not to take her.
"Is he talking about Dan's party?" She asked.
I can't lie, but I don't dare to talk either. I don't need her getting Hot again at the sound of my voice. I just nod my head.
"I know I'm not invited and wanted in the party, so do you still plan on going? We can stay here all day... When Dennis leaves, we'd have the whole place to ourselves. I'll even let you put that beast in my ass again."
It's tempting. Oh, so tempting, but I know I have to refuse. I can't do that to her. Not again.
"I'm going," I say, and I watch as her face falls. She gets out of my bed, and starts dressing. I can see the tears forming in her eyes, but don't know what I can say to stop them, yeah, I know I'm being wimpy and a jerk right now, but I'm also very confuse.
"Fine. I know when I'm not wanted." She gathers all of her things, and she headed for the door. Despite not wanting to I still find my myself blocking her cause I don't want her leaving my room like that.
"I see you really haven't forgiven me." She said, I grab both her arms in my hands, and hold her at arm's length.
"Tina, it's not that you're not wanted. It just that this is the first time I've ever been invited to a party. Ever," I emphasize.
Against my will, the words are coming out, many more than I want to say.
"You ARE forgiven. I promise." And I see hope return to her eyes a split second before her arms pull out of my hands and wrap around me, hugging me tight.
"Thank you, Nick. I promise not to be too angry, but don't forget me while you're there. I know how Dan's parties usually turn out." I nod, and then she kisses me and leaves. I sag against the door, and curse myself for my weak will. Why can't I have just let her go? Maybe it will be best if l avoid her for a while. I spend the rest of the day trying to get my mind off my problems, by playing games and lightly practicing my switches, but only partially succeed. As the sun starts to set, I take a quick shower, followed by Dennis. I put on my Kingdom Hearts shirt, which Dennis raises an eyebrow at, but thankfully doesn't comment, and a pair of blue jeans.
The drive to Stephanie's house is a cool one, but blessedly quick. Standing at her front door, I wait somewhat impatiently for her to answer. When the door finally opens, it feels like my heart skips a beat.
She looks lovely, with her makeup lightly done, a pair of skin tight jeans, and a light winter coat on.
"Shall we?" Her voice is soft and sweet as she passes by me, and I catch the slight fragrance of lilac and vanilla. * I'm slightly surprised she didn't kiss me right away, but I blow it off as l rush after her. Holding my car door open for her as she gets in.
"Oh, a gentleman," she coos, and I can't hide my smile.
I don't know what my mother would think of how I'm using my abilities, but she HAS taught me how to treat a woman. The drive to the party seems to start and end before l'm even aware of it, my head filled with her sweet scent. The moon hangs heavily in the sky, and the snow is falling lightly, like a million little diamonds from the sparse clouds. When I tell the analogy to Stephanie, she laughs her lovely little laugh, and I think, tonight is going to be a good night. I'm going to forget about the demons, forget about Tina, and just have fun with Stephanie. The music is blaring as I pull up to the house, and someone is already puking off a second-story balcony into the bushes below. Darren Bent spots us as soon as we walk in, and smiles, waving us over.
He has to yell to be heard over the music.
"You brought Stephanie, or is this Stacy? Either way, good choice," the slap on the back he gives me pushes me forward a bit. He shoves a beer in each of our hands, and then leans in close so that only I can hear him.
"Make yourself at home. Have fun, get crazy, but please don't put anyone to sleep." he said funnily.
I can feel my cheeks burning, but he's spotted someone else, and goes off to greet them with another loud bellow. Ever the gracious host.
"What did he say?" Stephanie asks. I debate on telling her, but after what we've already done, and as forward as she's been, I see no reason to hide it.
"He says we are free to use one of the bedrooms if we want." Well I'm not going to tell her I can put people to sleep, now am I? I see her cheeks color slightly, which surprises me. Wasn't it her that has been the forward one? I take a sip of my beer as I look around. The place is crowded with a lot of faces I don't recognize. Those I do know are mostly jocks and their girlfriends; not my usual geek crowd. I spot Dennis over by a beer pong table, and I went over to chat with him. My roommate is chatting with an attractive platinum blonde, while cheers goes up at the table as the ping pong ball lands in a beer filled cup.
"Nick, this is Linda, Bent's sister. Linda this is —" Dennis starts to introduce us, but Linda cuts him off.
"I know who Nick is. He is all the talk of the school right now, and I share a class with Stacy twice a week."
"This is Stephanie," I say, wondering what is being said about me on campus.
"Is it? I'm sorry, I can't keep you two straight," Linda smiles at us, and I can't help but notice that her teeth are incredibly white.
"Who let the trash inside?" The snide voice sounds right behind me, and I give a small groan. Dan is the last person I want to deal with right now. My first instinct is to put the bully to sleep with one of his switches, but I remember what Bent had said, and realize that this is a bit too public for such a display.
"I dunno, but I'm willing to take him out, if I have to," I tell the bully as I turn around. For just a moment I see fear in the bigger man's eyes. I'm well rested from using my switches, though still a little tired from Vage's white light, and I don't fear this person at all…..