POV - YUE
Today is Rene's "soul unification" day. Right now, I am confused about what I should do. Even though I now acknowledge her as my friend, I still feel heavy inside trying to accept it.
I don't trust anyone, including my own kind—the guardians. I feel like they are all selfish creatures. They only think of themselves. I remember, back when I was still in school. I never did anything wrong to my friends, I even tried to help them often. But they never appreciated anything I did. They acted like they cared about me, but I knew the truth. They were only using me to get what they needed.
Then, one day, I tried refusing what they wanted from me. As a result, they all ganged up to attack me and said I was arrogant. I didn't know what mistake I made, but they all said I was different from them and that they didn't like me that much.
I know I'm different. But that's not my fault, right?
I also didn't know why I was born different from the others. If I could choose, I wouldn't want this difference either. That's why I hated myself.
Some of my friends stayed away from me, while a few of them remained kind. But ever since that incident when I was attacked by everyone, no one dared to approach me, or even speak to me. They were afraid that if they got close to me, they would be attacked too.
I feel humans are the same. I once saw humans who had their partner guardians attacking each other using their "unification powers." I feel like humans use us only as tools.
When I met Rene, I knew exactly who she was. That's why I didn't want to approach her, let alone get to know her. But I didn't expect her to be so stubborn with her convictions. She was so persistent and tried so hard to become my friend, even though she didn't know or understand who I really was.
At that time, she made me realize one thing. Her attitude made me understand that not all humans are as selfish as I always believed. No one had ever been that stubborn just to befriend me, even when I rejected her repeatedly and hurt her by pushing her away.
Only she could make me cry and make me acknowledge her as my friend.
And now, I don't know what I should do. I want to act as her friend and stay by her side when she feels sad like this. But I also don't want to cause her to be abandoned by her other friends just because I am by her side. I don't know what choice to make right now.
"I will still try my best to become your friend."
Rene's words echo in my memory.
"But… if I could choose… maybe I would choose a guardian like Yue. Because I like Yue, so I want a guardian like Yue."
The smiling face that said she liked me so sincerely and with such trust.
"I'll be waiting for you."
I… I really hate myself for not being able to make a decision right now.
I have to do something!