Chapter 1: Life Sucks
Man, can my life get even worse than it is right now. I'm 32 and I feel like I have not done anything in my life. Yeah, I work and try to have a normal life but now I don't know. Is this what people call a midlife crisis.
Right now, it's 11:28 pm just wondering around lost in thought. Getting distracted and thinking about my life. If I have to summarize my life, I got to say it's shit but I'm still standing and fighting. Got a shitty father and a whore of a mother. Best Friends... Basically nonexistent, romance >.>, let's just say I saw that bitch getting railed just last week. Shit, I'm kind of hungry so heading home we goo.
I didn't know I walked that far because right now it's 12 am. Heading to the kitchen to get a quick snack, Ramen with eggs is good enough for me. "Turning on the television to put on some shows" Let us see, what will we watch. Suits, I choose you. Time to start at the beginning and rewatch this show. Suits is pretty good show; we got Harvey fucking Specter. A top litigator with a unwavering self-assurance and sharp demeanor with his intimidating presence in the courtroom makes him one cocky dude and I like that. We got his sidekick Michael Ross, and I got to say his character development is pretty good. I wish my father was like that, sadly he is just a deadbeat drunkard. Donna and Rachel, god bless their souls. beautiful, smart, confident and loyal. Damn I'm god damn jealous, to have a relationship with them will be a blessing to my life. Now we have Louis Litt, I got to say we kind have the same personalities, at least in the show suits. In other shows I can also find characters similar to my personality.
Other shows I like is f.r.i.e.n.d.s, modern family, big bang theory, the rookie, castle, grey's anatomy etc. Honestly, I've binge-watched every show and have finished the run more than 8 times now. Maybe the shows are just my way to "Cope" The settings of the shows just became a comfort for me; I guess I'm just sad that I've never experience what it feels like to be in those situations. Those settings I never had. Well, it's 2am and I feel like I should sleep now, I still have work tomorrow afternoon and I don't feel like missing it. It's taco Wednesday.
Sigh... I can't sleep; I am overthinking things again. I got the worse roll like in a video game. Got a shitty father and mother, shitty friends and my relationships can make into any mc get betrayed anime. Time to take some sleeping pills and if I don't I won't have sleep.
*Ring Ring*
The alarm bell right next to me is so loud I just want to throw it at the wall. Sigh, time to get up. it's 10:40 am. "Getting out of bed half asleep trips over from my own god damn slippers"
*BANG* FUCK!!!
Ugh.. I guess it's a bad day today, ain't no way I just tripped on slippers... Snapping out of my stupor that I created myself I went down to washed up and grab some breakfast. Finished eating and checked my phone seeing if it's charged went up and changed to head to work.
I grabbed my coat, keys, wallet and put my phone inside before I exited my apartment. I went downstairs and unlocked the door to the apartment and headed out to my car. I saw my neighbor mark getting out from his place with his dog, seems like they are out for a walk.
"Good morning, Mark. How's your sleep?" I asked.
"Pretty good, just out for a walk with this fella." Marked replied to me. "That's good. It's good to get those steps in" I said. Mark is a 78 year old man who owns the place next to mine. A landlord tells me stories time to time about his twilight years, like one time he told me his place wasn't a apartment at the start. It was a god damn strip club, I mean damn go get it. Now it's just a regular apartment and I help time to time when I'm free. We banter to each other and most of it is directed at me still not married. Like how tf am I going to get married with my bad luck. Sigh, one day in the future maybe.
Alright mark I'm going to head to work and talk to you later. *Waves goodbye* I headed to my car and tries to start it and what I said earlier. I think I jinxed myself. *Stares* what I see is a fucking check engine light. FUCK!
Sigh I guess I have to walk.. *Get out of the car and starts walking* Fuck if I'm going to walk, let's listen to some music. Time to put it on shuffle. *Song start and I start to sing with the song*
[♫♪ Imagine Dragons - Lonely♫♪]
♫♪Sometimes, I can get a little♫♪
♫♪I can get a little lonely♫♪
♫♪Sometimes, I can get a little♫♪
♫♪I can get a little lonely♫♪
♫♪Some nights, I get a little lonely♫♪
♫♪It's even when there's people all around me♫♪
♫♪Sometimes, I get a little anxious♫♪
♫♪'Cause these pills don't work the way the doctor played it♫♪
♫♪I'm startin' to spin, needles and pins♫♪
♫♪Right on the brim, hand on a limb, takin' it in♫♪
♫♪Sleep it away, life in a day, and a day in a life♫♪
♫♪Mixing it up, checkin' it twice♫♪
♫♪Trying to breathe, starting to seize♫♪
♫♪Lights, camera, action and scene♫♪
♫♪Story of my life♫♪
*Starts dancing a bit while dancing*
♫♪Oh, love (sometimes, I can get a little)♫♪
♫♪Have mercy (I can get a little lonely)♫♪
♫♪On me (sometimes, I can get a little)♫♪
♫♪And keep me company (I can get a little lonely)♫♪
♫♪I said, "Oh, love" (sometimes, I can get a little)♫♪
♫♪"Have mercy" (I can get a little lonely)♫♪
♫♪"On me" (sometimes, I can get a little)♫♪
♫♪"And keep me company" (I can get a little lonely)♫♪
*Passed by a grocery store and people pointing at me and getting into the vibe*
♫♪I said-
Sometimes, I smile to keep things easy
I hide in corners, hope that no one sees me
So I'm playin' the role, ridin' the bull, stuck in a hole
Takin' a bow, lookin' so proud
Look at me now, talkin' about pills in my mouth
Under the tongue, isn't it fun?
Trying to breathe, starting to seize
Lights, camera, action and scene
Story of my life, oh-oh♫♪
♫♪Oh, love (sometimes, I can get a little)♫♪
♫♪Have mercy (I can get a little lonely)♫♪
♫♪On me (sometimes, I can get a little)♫♪
♫♪And keep me company (I can get a little lonely)♫♪
♫♪I said, "Oh, love" (sometimes, I can get a little)♫♪
♫♪"Have mercy" (I can get a little lonely)♫♪
♫♪"On me" (sometimes, I can get a little)♫♪
♫♪"And keep me company" (I can get a little lonely)♫♪
♫♪I said, "Oh, love" (keep me company, I said, "Help keep me company", I said)♫♪
♫♪"Have mercy" ("Help keep me company", I said, "Oh, love")♫♪
♫♪Oh, love, can you please have mercy on me?♫♪
♫♪(Keep me company, I said, "Help keep me company", I said)♫♪
♫♪Can you keep me company? ("Help keep me company", I said, "Help-")♫♪
♫♪L-O-N-E-L-Why am I so lonely?♫♪
♫♪Oh, love (sometimes, I can get a little)♫♪
♫♪Have mercy (I can get a little lonely)♫♪
♫♪On me (sometimes, I can get a little)♫♪
♫♪And keep me company (I can get a little lonely)♫♪
♫♪I said, "Oh, love" (sometimes, I can get a little)♫♪
♫♪"Have mercy" (I can get a little lonely)♫♪
♫♪"On me" (sometimes, I can get a little)♫♪
♫♪"And keep me company" (I can get a little lonely)
I said, "Oh, l-"♫♪
Sigh that was pretty fun, *the pedestrian sign turned red, and a random chick came up to me and said* "You have a pretty good voice, can I have your number?" She said to me. I said thank you and sure. More friend the better and hope this one last. Welp time to walk again, just turned green. Time to keep vibing to my music.
Passing a school, I see a group of kids walking across the street and one thing that made me paused that kind made me laugh is seeing a adult midget being a crossing guard and also being mistaken as a child from some parents.
Thank God I'm 6'3. Out of the corner of my eye I see a car speeding and just pass through a red light, and I see the cross guard and parents haven't noticed. So, I ran and shouted at them to move out of the way. Most of them got of the way but 2 kids were frozen and couldn't move because of fear so I had no choice to run like help and push them aside.
Good news, I've saved them. Bad news I got fucking rammed and it hurts like hell, my whole body feels like I'm in lava and other part's I can't feel anything.
*Cough* At least I did a good thing before I died, I wasn't going to stand by and watch some kids dying in front of me.
I hear the ambulance, but I don't think I can make it. I see the kids and parents running towards me crying.
*Spits out blood*
It seems like my time is... *Slowly closes my eyes. *
I don't feel pain anymore.? Am I alive, did I make it to the hospital.
*Opens my eyes*
Well shit. "This is so .. Fucking weird," I muttered to myself. Where the fuck am I, all I see is white. Am I in heaven? I looked around and I see nothing. Well, I'll just float in one direction and see if I find anything.
Something in my soul is making me go this way, I'm not sure what it is but it's like a cat wanting some cat nip.
My mind is was so preoccupied and I never noticed how far I've been wandering in this infinite space. My mind is so groggy that pieces of my life is shown like a film. I've watch when I was first born and I never knew that was possible, to me being 1 all the way to middle school.
Man, I see my first girlfriend and some of my old friends, I swear to God that chick was crazy as fuck. She starts to shit every time we are in a date, and she says it's normal. I also see my parents not being parents and just left me be and sometimes beats me up.
Omg, it's that 1 time my mom forced me to drink vodka and thinking that was alright. Now I see my friends walking away and distancing themselves because their parents said so and I got to say, they arn't wrong.
I got shit grades and get into fights, but I changed after that when I reached high school. I guess I matured early. I can't let my family situation ruin my future.
Got a 2 more girlfriends in middle school and now we are at high school. Kinda more in a mess but same time not. Stopped fighting for the most part and had better grades. Bad parts got more girlfriends and got addicted to sex when I was in 10th grade. It was even worse because I was forced by a upperclassman but at least it was a female. Got into sports so that helped out. Basketball was pretty fun.
Made few good and bad friends, you win some and lose some. More home abuse and oh.. This is my best friend who fucked and stole my mom.
*Tch*
Yeah I'm not watching anymore, Gonna rewatch my shows instead while drifting. I don't know how long I've been here but i got to say it got to be a long time because I basically rewatched all my favorite shows, anime, cartoons, movies, and read some fanfics that I liked.
Then it hit me. *BANG* it's like a flashbang but supernova style. My mind and soul feel like it is seasick.
Omniscient POV.
I've was just doing my rounds and wanted to take a break, so I went out for a stroll, and I happened to stumble upon a wondering soul. It's been ages I've seen a soul here. I just watched the soul floating around and I decided to look through his mind and what I saw amused me, so I just walked and watched with him. Got to say he got good taste.
So, I decided to give him his wish and transport him to his other self in a parallel universe. I want to see if he can grow or will he be the same. I'll also give him some help mostly because he entertained me a bit even though it was indirect.
(Author here: Don't cancel me lmao, this fanfic might get explicit)