I wiped my tears even though another still rushed through, I tried my best to stop crying. I tried looking in another direction but later ended up staring deep into her emerald eyes. Come to think of it, my eyes look like hers a lot, so much that I'm starting to hate it.
"You knew the consequences, didn't you?" The question caught her off guard. She blinked before looking down at my hands that she's currently holding. "Yes, but you see, I felt trapped in the ocean. I really want to be anywhere but there and your father was a temptation too" she paused for a little while as I anticipated her next word, what more did she have to say "I know this is just some childish feeling I was having then, I didn't think it would be so early… so early to take me away from you… from your father"
After saying this statement, I just looked at her without saying a word because inside of me the word that sticks in me was that, she knew it was coming and still…still did it, even though she didn't expect it to be early she's still to be blamed. If only she had not met father, if only she had stayed where she was, I would have not been born to a world of torture, this world.
All my life, I felt unwanted, rejected and alone. The thought that even my own mother didn't want me haunted me so much more than I can imagine and my childhood bullies didn't make it any better, they taunt me in every single way possible. I would work so hard to get affirmation from my fellow beings, to feel wanted by other dragons because of the fear that they would toss her away after use!. I don't know what I want or who I'm, my usefulness or I'm just a part of this world to suffer and go?!.
"Did father know about this?"
"Not fully"
"What do you mean 'not fully'?"
"He knew that there are consequences for leaving but didn't know I'll turn out like this. Also, I couldn't get to him either. " I just wondered why? But I didn't bother asking another question that was already in my mind. "How I'm I able to see you now?"
"It's called mind Astro-projecting, I'm in your mind now but it all looks vivid" I still have a lot of questions to ask her but I know the answers already. It hurts. And then, she looked up suddenly after saying her last statement which made me shocked so I followed her movement and looked up too but I saw nothing but just blackness and nothing else. So, why did she look so terrified of nothing because the look on her face shows that she's scared, I thought. I gave her a questioning look to explain what was going on.
"It's here"
Okay, now what is here?. I'm clearly seeing nothing. "What do you mean?" I asked, utterly confused. She looked at me turked my front streaks behind my ears and said " they're here for me. I've been running but they keep finding me" tears started to fall from her eyes. She's just making me more confused because who the hell is here? Are they here to take her away back to the sea? Or what?
"Cressida, your name. It divines you, my dear. You are golden among all, clever, charming and my calm energy. I really don't deserve you or to be called your mother. I hate that I can't be here for you, then and now. Now, in next few days I'll be part of the ocean and… nothing more" she continued crying and now I'm fighting not to cry too she cupped my cheeks using her thumb and rubbing it gently just below my eyes "Cressida, I know I'm not who you want please forgive me. I love you so much, my daughter" after this I just burst into tears, my vision blurred.
"You're not going anywhere. You just came, you can't go now. I won't let you, please stay. Is there anything we can do… p-please stay… m-m-mother…" I didn't even know when I said mother which shocked me and mostly her. She let her hands out for permission to hug me and yes, I gave in to her hug as tears continued to flow. I closed my eyes and let the tears flow. And the resentment, anger and hatred washed away. What was left was… it was what they called 'emptiness'. I felt empty. When I opened my eyes, I saw the queen in front of me, she looked at me with pity then hugged me. I just hugged her tight hoping she wouldn't disappear too. Everything came and Everything is gone, what is left is nothing.
***
"We'll be going today, mother," Se-ra said. Something seemed to be off about her. Her mother gave her a gentle smile. "You could wait for a day or two, school can always wait. You're both thin already, I don't want any of you sick or unhealthy" The queen said. Se-ra just smiles without replying, she has already made up her mind to go back to the human realm today and nobody is changing that.
"Your majesty, please, we'll like to go now. And the food was delicious. I missed it but we have to go… sadly" Yu-ri said, then bowed her head. "Ok daughters" she walked closest to Se-ra and gave her a kiss on her forehead and gave her the 'don't forget what I told you' look. Then, she kissed Yu-ri's forehead too and hugged her. "We'll leave now" Se-ra said, and in a matter of seconds they were back to their dorm in the position they had left. They both look at each other with a sad smile, each not knowing what is wrong with the other and they don't look like they want to talk about it.
"I'm going to bed"
"Oh, okay. Same here, you're going to school tomorrow?"
"Yes…" she paused, then fixed herself on the bed, covered herself with a blanket and said "…goodnight" and Yu-ri hummed in response. Se-ra knew something was up with Yu-ri. She rarely cried or never cried but she could see tear shadows in eyes. She wondered what could have happened to her 'is she dying or something?'. She turned on her bed and looked at Yu-ri whose bed was next to hers. But she saw that she was facing the wall and her shoulders were trembling… she's… crying. She really wanted to ask what happened but it looks like she's not ready to tell. Se-ra looked up to the top and stared at the ceiling before sighing. She has something on her plate too and she doesn't think she's going to be ready for it anytime soon.