It has been a few days
I really don't remember anything
All I know was that Togata was going outside frequently
"Sakura"
"Yes?"
"Here"
She gave me a plate of horse meat
I wonder she got it from
"I am leaving for a while"
"Can I watch a movie?"
"Nope. You only watch one with me"
"What should I do then?"
"I don't know. Draw or something"
"Okay"
I ate my lunch and Togata left
I took some papers and started copying some panels from this comic called Hand-saw girl
I had gotten way better at drawing in the past few days
Honestly. It all goes to Togata for helping me
I drank some water as I was drawing
And a while later Togata came back
"Hey Sakura, let's watch a movie"
She's covered in sand, but she sits next to me, and we play a movie
"What is it called?"
"Fight Club"
"Is it good?"
"Really good. Now shush, the movie is about to start"
We sat in silence as the movie played
And it was the most fun I had watching a movie
"I-It was amazing!"
"Of course it is. What did you expect from me?"
"I-Is there anything else like it?"
"Sadly you will never find something like Fight Club"
"Aww. Why?"
"It's one of a kind"
"Lets watch another movie"
"Okay. I will pick one"
"Okay"
She gets up and starts to check the tapes
A while later she comes back and has what she wants
"We are watching Gone Girl"
"What is that?"
"A movie directed by the same person who directed Fight Club"
That sentence alone was enough for me to get interested
She turned the movie on, and we sat in silence. Again
***
The movie is over.
"That..was amazing!"
"Of course it was!"
"Are we going to watch something else?"
"If you want to"
"Okay…I want to watch this one"
"Ohh. Scream. It's a horror movie"
"Let's watch it!"
We covered ourselves with blankets as the movie started to play
I wish this never dawning sun just stops for a moment so we can enjoy the movie in total darkness
The movie finished, and we called it a day
We went to sleep and Toga stayed next to me
"I am kind of scared"
"Huh? From what?"
"I am scared that he might come and get me"
"Don't worry I am here"
"...Yeah. It makes me kind of safer when you tell me what to do"
I close my eyes and try to sleep
I've gotten used to it by now. Sleeping next to someone is really comforting
***
It's the next day
"Togata"
"Yeah?"
"I had a really weird dream"
"Huh? What is it?"
"I saw you killing someone"
"What?"
"I saw you killing someone with a chainsaw. It felt weird"
"Heh. I can see myself doing that"
"Yeah. It's not entirely impossible"
"Anyway, Sakura"
"Yes?"
"We've got something to do today"
"What is it?"
"Let's go outside first"
We got up, and she took two buckets of water, and we went outside to take a bath
After we finished our bath we headed back inside
Toga took some water, some food, and some blankets
I helped her with the carrying, and we headed outside
She started to stray away from the house, so I asked her, "Should we bring something else with us?"
"Nope. No need for now"
"Oh. Okay"
We walked, and walked, and walked. I even started getting thirsty
"Uhh…Togata. Can I ask something?"
"What is it?"
"When will we arrive?"
"We are really close. Do you see this big thing?" She says as she points somewhere
And yes. I see it. It's a big, square looking thing
"I-Is that a house?"
"Yep"
"People live here? I thought it was only us"
"Turns out it isn't"
"So we are going to say hi to them or something?"
"Yes. We are giving them a really big hi"
"Uhh..Okay"
I wasn't ready for that
Shouldn't I wear better clothes?
I don't know. She didn't change, so I don't think I need to do so
We got closer, and it seems no one was out to welcome us
"Togata. Can I ask something?"
"Go ahead"
"Should we knock on the door or something?"
"Nope. There is a better thing"
We turn left and head towards a pile of wood
It seems it was recently built
"Did you build this?"
"Yes"
It was more of a wall of wood than something else. Maybe a shield of some sort
We got behind it, and it only reached my stomach, so we sat down, and our whole body was covered
"Umm.. What now?"
She gets a water bottle out, and takes a sip. She gives me one, and I do the same. It feels refreshing
Then, she puts her hand in her pocket and says, "Here" As she pulls a metallic thing, with a red circle in the middle
"What is this?"
"A button"
"And?"
"Press it"
I did as she said, and…Nothing happened
She raised her head and looked at the house. So did I
And then a sharp pain runs through my ears
A shiver ran down my spine. Goosebumps all over my body. As I started to tremble
I instinctively close my ears. A desperate attempt on lowering the extremely loud bang that just came out
"W-What was that?!"
"AHAHA!. That was a bomb!"
"A-A bomb?"
I look back and I see it
The house
It is shattered into smaller pieces
Burnt
The wood is black
A black smoke rises. Covering the sky
As someone was laughing next to me
That's it
That's my house
Niv
Chloe
Joe
And…Judy
How
How did I forget about them
The dream comes back
Togata…No, Asuka
Killed Niv
In front of me
That crazy bitch
I turn to her, and all I could see was a baby's smile on her face
"A-Asuka?"
"Oh. Welcome back Sakura"
"..."
She gets up and starts to walk towards the terror she created
She was leaving the house just to prepare for this
For this destruction
I followed her for some reason
Breathing is hard. It's like breathing with your hands on your nose
It's extremely hot
And then I saw it
A burnt plant with five branches at the top
No!
It's not a plant
That is someone's hand
I fell to the floor and started to cough
Then. I threw up
When I looked back up I saw something..No, I saw someone
He was on fire
He was screaming. Running aimlessly
Trying so desperately to calm the fire on him
He eventually falls to the ground
And stays there..Motionless
Asuka..No, Togata walks towards him
I followed her
And she just stood there
Staring down at him
The man continued to burn
The smoke rising to the air
The stinking smell burning through my nose
And Togata is there…Smiling
She turns to me
And I take a step back instinctively
"Here"
Here?
"Now. All of your problems are gone"
"W-What are you talking about?"
"The old man is dead right in front of you"
That's him
Dead
Burnt
He suffered before his death
He looks…Pathetic
His skin is burnt
His eyes are gone
His whole body is pitch black
Under the blazing sun. Bugs crawling around him. Covered in sand
Even the zombies won't eat his disgusting flesh
My body feels hot. Warm. Is it because of the sun? Because of the explosion? I don't know
"How does that make you feel?"
"..."
I feel
I feel…Empty
Am I supposed to feel a thing?
I don't know
I don't know
But it feels wrong
Really wrong
"..Why"
"Huh?"
"Why are you doing this?"
"Because he is an extremely bad person"
"Then why does the rest have to suffer?"
"To save the world"
Now I remember her plan
She wants to save the world by killing it
I used to hate the idea
I still hate it
I will hate it
But now…Now I have nothing left. Everyone who I cared about is..gone
I have no reason to resent her
Was that her plan?
If so, it worked
Please. Please let it stop
It hurts
It hurts really bad. It's like being stabbed with a hot burning needle in every part of your heart. It's like my chest was being ripped apart
I clench my chest as hard as I can in hope that it would make it a little easier
But no, nothing happened
I felt something on my cheeks. I was crying
Maybe because of the smoke going into my eyes, or maybe because I actually cared about them
"..Asuka… I hate it.."
My voice was faint. She didn't even look my way
Oh
Yeah…Yeah
If Asuka did the thinking and I only obeyed, it won't hurt..Right?
Yeah.. that is what she said
Also, she is saving the world
"But she killed Niv"
H-he was a bad person
"She killed Chloe"
…
..it's for the greater good
I don't care
I don't care about them
I really don't care
Not the old man
Nor Niv
No one
I just…I just want to be.. Happy
I take my eyes off the old man's body
And I feel empty. Gone. Away. It's like I died, but I am still here
And I turn to Asuka
"So? Are you in"
"..."
"Oh yeah. I forgot.. I am the one who's supposed to think. Tehe~"
"..."
"Come on speak up" she says as she rubs my head
"..D-Don't treat me like a kid"
She starts to walk away
Leaving the burnt place continue to burn
Leaving the dead bodies burn
Leaving the old man burned.. All alone
I follow her. Not because I wanted, but because I had nothing else to do
She started to walk north
And I followed her. Like a pet
"It's going to be a long journey"
"..."
"We are heading to the other side. Where it's filled with ice"
"..."
"Nope. No one else is here. Do you actually think someone will be able to live anywhere else on this side?"
"…"
We continued to walk
The sunlight is touching our skin
The wind is touching our skin
"Hey. Since it's going to be a long journey, how about I summarize a story for you?"
"…"
"What is a summary? Turning a long story into a short one"
"…"
"Okay. It seems you are okay with it"
"…"
"In a galaxy far far away…"