Ayanokoji Kiyotaka pov:
Suzuki Akari
Who are you? Why I can't understand the more I get to know you? Are you even showing the world yourself or it is just a persona you masked yourself with. Why are you emotionless like me? What do you want from me? Why do you know so much about the future? Why do you say you love me? Why do you understand so much about everyone like you know about them from the past? I have so many questions for you in my mind. You are like a book with blank pages. I am so much curious about you. It's the first time I don't understand someone. Your intentions, Your desires, Your love for me, is it even real or am I someone who you decided to pursue to fill your empty shell. Even though you show such love for me I don't dare to believe it. At first I thought you were some bored girl who wanted to own me to satisfy your ego, but the more I observe you the more I am unable to understand you.
From my observation, you have no attachment to the world, you have no emotions or you hide them so much that even I can't understand you. You follow your schedule like a robot only when you spend time with me you look a little Alive. You are more mature like you have already experienced death and the intrigues of this society. You are a genius...no that's not right you are a monster. A beautiful monster that knows how to bewitch and use your talent. You show no respect towards life, even the classmates from class D you hang out with, there is no emotion you feel though you behave like a cute or a feisty girl. Is this mask your protection mechanism or just a tool to interact with people.
You say you love me...do you even understand love Akari. No you don't love me, you just look at me that I am the only person Alive in this world. To you everything is fake, even your closest friend Sakayanagi Arisu can't make you feel the world as real. So you pursue me just to make yourself less lonely. That's not love Akari, that's dependence you just want to make me your tool.
I wonder why I am still hanging out with you, holding your hands, letting you sleep on my shoulder when we watch the movie, going on dates like a normal couple. Am I curious about you,...The answer is absolutely yes but is it enough of a reason for me to indulge your thoughts. I planned to learn about love in this school after leaving that place but we both don't understand love, can we teach each other and love each other like this. Every ending I see with you ends in a tragic ending. So why am I trying to learn more about you everyday.
Akari you are the most arrogant even more than me, but I want to learn about you. You are the most interesting person I have ever met in my life. You are both similar to me but different from me. Even in your subconscious you do not expose your thoughts. But don't worry Akari I won't let you go after all you are the one who confessed your love to me. You are the one who disrupted my peaceful school life with your colours. So you have to be responsible for your words. So let's learn together more about the love you talk about, because you can't escape.
Horikita Manabu pov:
That monster...no that girl choose to join Class D. It's a little suprising for me. This year though there were many promising students joining, I never expected her to choose to study in this school. Even Suzune is in Class D, looks like I have to pay more attention to Suzuki Akari. Just thinking about her brings me with fear and then disgust with myself for having such thoughts.
My first meeting with Suzuki was rather short. Rather than meeting it is more appropriate to call it a one-side meeting from me. I first saw her at a dojo I just joined to learn suitable martial arts. When I saw a 10 year old girl defeating men three times bigger than her with such ease, I understood our difference in talents. But at that time I was just a mature 12 year kid who also wanted to become like her and defeat her.
Our second meeting was also at the dojo, I decided to learn martial arts here just seeing her. This time I was the one who approached her. I wanted to know her name from her, even though I saw how everyone looked scared and respectful with her.
It must look like I have a crush on her. Even I don't know what feelings I have for her at that time. Childhood love is really the worst. When I asked for her name and introduced myself to develop a friendly connection with her, she just looked at me blankly with no emotion. When she heard about my name, she just looked at me with a gaze that dissected everything about me and then her gloomy aura became even more scarier. Even I was scared at that time. But then she laughed in a absurd manner and told me her name with a cheerful tone. What's even more absurd and scary that she told me to say hi to my little sister Suzune from herself. But I never told her anything about my sister.
Later when we became more familiar sparing with each other( even though she won every time). I don't know what came over me, I did not ask her not anything about why she knew about Suzune. I just asked why did she laugh at that time when she knew about my name. She looked at me with a knowing gaze and then smiled for the second time. She told me the world was fake, but after knowing my name she now has a idea of how she wants to live this life.
Her words were so confusing even for me that I didn't know what to reply. So I just stayed silent. But now that I think about her scary beautiful eyes I saw in my childhood, what I saw in those captivating eyes were her desire to die and leave the world. Was she even happy or sad at time, I only felt her loneliness and desire for death. Her learning martial arts was just a excuse she was thinking about how to kill herself or the whole world.
But now that I observe her at this school. I see a different version of her that looks very strange and artificial to me. She looked like a normal highschool girl enjoying her life. She was even holding hands with a boy who's nature is even a mystery to me. She even defended Suzune even when I know she is not at all interested in my sister.
Ayanokoji Kiyotaka
A special student who scored 50 in all the subjects. She looked at him like she was in love. I don't understand why she is so interested in him. But as I learn about him, I see similarities of her in him.
She even blatantly asked me for a huge sum of points though I know her enough to understand that she is not a bit concerned about moving her Class D to A. She also joined student council and even became vice president. Why is she doing this... even I can't understand. My feelings for you are complicated Suzuki, there are many emotions love, admiration, respect, friendship, fear, curiosity, distance and so many more. Just like how I only call by your last name and show distance but also familiarity.
I don't know what you want to achieve but I will support you fully as long you don't harm Suzune. I also hope that your learn how to live happily even when I understand that I can't become the one who will accompany you in this life. Even then a despicable part of me will be happy at your happiness.
Such are my feelings for you.
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