📖 CHAPTER 3 — "THE LETTER I NEVER SENT''
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## **Lena**
She knew she shouldn't go back to the coffee shop.
Not today.
Not after yesterday.
Not after discovering he kept her old writing like some fragile secret.
But her feet betrayed her.
*Just pass by,* she told herself.
*Just walk past and pretend you don't care.*
Except she did care.
Way too much.
She walked fast, pretending to look at her phone, pretending she didn't see him through the window—
—but she did.
Elias Crane sat at the corner table, head bowed slightly as he read something in a worn leather notebook. His glasses rested low on his nose. His hair was a little messier than usual, as if he'd been running his hands through it.
He looked… tired.
And beautiful in a way that made her chest hurt.
She could leave.
She could turn around.
But she opened the door instead.
The bell chimed.
He didn't look up immediately.
Only when she approached the table did he notice her.
His eyes widened with surprise—
followed by something she didn't like seeing.
Distance.
"Lena," he said quietly, closing the notebook. "I didn't expect you."
She sat down without asking.
It was bold, reckless even—
but something in her simmered too close to boiling.
"You didn't expect me," she repeated. "But you're not surprised either."
A small tension flickered across his jaw.
"Lena—"
"Why did you keep my portfolio?" she asked abruptly.
He inhaled sharply.
"Because I told you yesterday—"
"No," she cut in. "That wasn't the full reason. You said it reminded you why you teach. That's a safe answer. A professional answer."
His eyes hardened—not angry, but guarded.
"What do you want me to say?" he murmured.
"The truth," she said. "All of it."
He leaned back slightly, exhaling slow.
"Some truths aren't meant to be spoken."
"Say it anyway."
He looked at her like she was pulling something dangerous out of him.
And she was.
Finally, he said, steady and low:
"Fine. I kept it because it meant something to me. You meant something to me as a student. One of the rare few I believed would go somewhere. Is that enough?"
"No," she said instantly. "Not even close."
Something snapped between them.
A quiet, sharp tension—
like a string pulled too tight.
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## **Elias**
She was cornering him, and she didn't even realize it.
Or maybe she did.
Maybe Lena Vale—grown now, bold now—was no longer afraid of the questions that once terrified her.
He rubbed a hand over his jaw.
"You're asking for things you don't understand," he said.
"I'm not eighteen anymore," she shot back. "Stop treating me like I am."
He winced.
"That's not what I'm doing."
"Yes, it is," she insisted. "You talk to me like I'm still your student. Like I'm someone you're responsible for. Like there are rules we need to follow."
"There are," he said sharply.
And God—he regretted the harshness instantly when her expression faltered.
He sighed, voice softening.
"Lena… you don't know how complicated this is."
"Then explain it to me."
He looked at her—really looked.
The set of her shoulders.
The determined lift of her chin.
The vulnerability hiding beneath fire.
She was so different.
And yet exactly the same.
"Back then," he said slowly, "you were a bright, smart, passionate student. I pushed you harder because I believed in you. And because—"
He stopped.
"Because what?" she whispered.
Elias ran a hand through his hair.
He shouldn't say this.
But she needed honesty.
And he was tired of carrying this weight alone.
"Because I cared," he said softly. "More than I should have."
Her breath hitched.
"I never crossed a line," he added firmly. "Never. I wouldn't."
"I know," she said. "I never thought you would."
"But," he continued, quieter, "there were days you wrote something that hit too close. Or you stayed after class and I'd feel—"
He shook his head once.
"It scared me."
Her lips parted.
"You were scared of me?"
"No. Never of you."
His eyes softened.
"I was scared of myself."
Silence fell.
Not cold.
Just… full.
Full of everything they didn't say four years ago.
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## **Lena**
It was too much.
Too honest.
Too raw.
"You cared more than you should have," she repeated. "So did I."
He flinched.
"You didn't know what you were feeling at that age," he said carefully.
She laughed—bitter, shaking.
"Don't patronize me. You think I didn't know? I left this town because I knew. I couldn't stay here anymore—around you—without wanting something impossible."
Elias closed his eyes.
Pained.
Sad.
Something deeper.
"Lena…"
"I wrote you a letter," she blurted, her voice cracking. "The night before graduation."
His eyes snapped open.
"What letter?"
"I never gave it to you," she said. "I tore it up. But I remember every word."
"Lena—"
"It said," she whispered, breath trembling, "that you were the reason I wanted to study literature. That you made me feel seen. That your class was the first place I felt like I mattered."
Elias swallowed hard.
His voice was barely audible.
"Lena, stop—"
"And it said," she continued, her throat burning, "that leaving wasn't about running from home. It was about running from you because staying felt too dangerous."
Elias stood up abruptly—
not angry—
but shaken.
"Why are you telling me this now?"
"Because you kept my work," she said. "Because you looked at me yesterday like you hadn't forgotten. Because I walked away four years ago and you still remembered the girl who wrote those words."
He braced his hands on the back of the chair, breathing unevenly.
Finally, he lifted his head.
His voice was low, cracked at the edges.
"You want the truth?" he asked. "All of it?"
"Yes," she whispered.
He took a single step toward her.
"One day," he said softly, "during your last semester… you turned in an essay about leaving. About wanting freedom. I read it after school, alone in this café."
She remembered the essay.
She poured too much of herself into that one.
"What about it?" she asked.
He held her gaze.
"I kept it because it was the moment I realized losing you as a student was going to hurt more than it should."
Her breath broke.
Elias looked away like he'd said something unforgivable.
"Is that the truth you wanted?" he whispered.
Lena stood up slowly, her heartbeat trembling through her whole body.
"I wanted honesty," she said. "And you finally gave it."
He didn't move.
Didn't breathe.
She stepped closer.
Not touching.
Just close enough to feel the gravity.
"Elias," she said softly, carefully, "we're not who we were four years ago."
"No," he murmured. "We're not."
"Then why are we still acting like we are?"
His eyes rose to hers.
Pain.
Longing.
Fear.
And something deeper—something he had carried alone too long.
He whispered, "Because I don't know what I'm allowed to want anymore."
She swallowed hard.
"Maybe," she said, voice trembling, "we should figure it out together."
He closed his eyes like the words physically hit him.
When he opened them again—
there was no teacher in his gaze.
No distance.
No wall.
Just a man who had finally stopped lying to himself.
"Lena," he said, breath uneven, "I'm afraid that if we cross this line… there's no crossing back."
She stepped closer.
Not touching.
Not yet.
"Then don't step back," she whispered.
And for the first time, Elias didn't.