I walked everyday, I walked till I was tried then I rested for some time and walked again but you might ask why am I walking continuously, well I don't know.
I never actually wanted this to happen, I don't know what happened but I can't seem to change myself,
I have been thinking and planning my life as I wanted,
To chase my dreams to live productively,
I tried every new year, every new month, every new Sunday and of course after every new motivation spark which comes out of no-where especially when I am taking shower or when I am taking a shit,
Oh yeah especially late at night when I go to kitchen to drink water(I have habit of drinking water at night.)
This motivation comes out of no-where and yeah goes by next day, so do we humans need motivation to change?
I don't think so, well then again my thinking is flawed from the beginning.
So my thinking won't change shit, then again this word 'change' comes again in the equation,
I have hated this word spelled change,
This word is so big yet so small,
I have seen story of many famous people becoming rich and completing their dream but sometimes I want to be a billionaire and sometimes I think I will be happy with a lovely and beautiful wife with two children and simple 9 to 5 job.
Now some people will jump out and criticize saying you want to be a part of a rat race but what is a rat race? Why do people believe doing 9 to 5 job is rat race.
It depends on a company you are working for if your getting exploited and forced to do over-work and you never get paid leave that might be considered but this is not the thing I am talking about today.
Oh yes, change, I had a bitter sweet relation with this word.
Some people can change and some cannot well why can't they? what is the problem?
Of course, I am among who want to change but can't,
Who doesn't want to hit the gym on the morning, who doesn't want to ask out their crush on fine date and of course who doesn't want to earn lots of money?
Once I thought what would I do when I had a lots of money and then I realized I don't like travelling nor any from of art,
I just like to sit inside my room, doom-scroll and sometimes watch movies or any series of course strangely enough watching movies now days feels productive.
Hush..
I took a long breath,
I have always wanted to change but I have finally understood the meaning of this world and that is everyone is changing every second and every day but not the way they want,
We all have magnitude of change but cannot shift its direction,
Well I have watched all the videos about productivity and read books about it but why aren't trick mentioned on it working for me?
I am different you are different but what about...
Bang Bang Bang!!!
What the fucking fuck?
I woke up from my daydreaming, and someone was knocking at my door.
I cried and said with some annoyance "What?"
"Shishir, it is time for dinner." said my sister.
Oh yeah I was walking around my room talking with myself about changing myself, oh you won't get it I get short burst of motivation out of nowhere.
Well whatever, I went to kitchen and saw Mom had cooked rice and horse-grams soup that is what we call in English I think.
Well I dived in and ate, My sister was sitting opposite to me, I don't know why but I can't digest my food without annoying her,
I guess that is duty of every younger brother.
So I....
Well, I can't think of anything, well it doesn't come in your head it happens naturally,
Well, I will spare her today.
But right at that moment, Mom came over and added some soup to my sister's bowl. And of course, she didn't eat it,
She just dumped it straight into mine.
I stared at her like, what the hell is wrong with the girl in front of me?
I glared at her and said, "What the hell are you doing? I'm telling Mom."
She gave me that classic big sister smirk, "What nonsense? I can't eat that much, so I gave half of it to you. I know how much my cute little brother eats," she said, teasing me.
And I swear, she was dying of laughter inside, because she knows I absolutely hate this horse-gram soup or whatever shit you call it in English.
I was about to snap and throw some rice at her but at that moment Dad entered and I stopped and ate all of the soup without doing anything.(My father doesn't like wasting food so his presence alone forced me to eat it all.)
Sister and I finished eating together and I was about to wash the plate and bowl she over took me and gave me a small bump and went ahead and started washing the plate and bowl,
This was normal for us sibling's, teasing each other,
I was not having it all so I washed my hand and collected small water in the palm of my hand and threw at her like some ancient sages that give curses in old cartoon I watched.
If she didn't threw water back at me she won't be my sister and same happened,
The water collected in her bowl which she was washing.
Whosh! Splater! Drip Drip!
She fucking threw all the water inside of bowl at me, like this is too much!!
How much fucking water can my palm hold and how much a full fucking bowl can hold the difference is like heaven and hell, what?
You thought I will say heaven and earth.
I was about to take my revenge but Father is standing behind me like Whitebeard stands behind Lava Admiral in One Piece so I stopped.
Well after she was done, I cleaned of my plate and bowl then went to her room, she was in her normal position watching some shitty cringe ahh reels and I started watching them with her.
30 mins later...
I looked at clock at her room and I was shocked, how could I great Shishir waste time in watching these cringe reels,
What happened to that motivation at the starting?
I left her room and yeah I know I closed the light of her bedroom and ran,
Then I went to my room and started thinking of changing my self and was about to make all plans but at that moment,
I opened my phone and I saw my favorite manga has released another chapter, while I was reading that there was one panel where my waifu(the term is used to say some brain dead people simp over fictional character) was in embarrassing position and looked very sexy and my 207th bone also woke up.
I closed the tab middle chapter and opened my favorite gooning site.
At that moment it was like I was possessed by devil and started watching my favorite genre but there was nothing interesting so I went to my personal playlist and started watching one I gooned to four weeks ago.
The moment the video started, the screen was filled with a close up shot of an actress.
The actress was on her back, her head thrown back against a pile of soft pillows, dark hair fanned out like a shadow.
Her skin was a deep, bronze, and a sheen of sweat made it gleam under the warm, cinematic lighting.
The camera started at her face, her lips parted, her chest rising and falling with each shallow, anticipatory breath.
Then it slowly panned down, tracing the delicate curve of her neck, lingering on the swell of her breasts, her nipples hard and dark.
My own breathing hitched. My hand, which had been resting limply in my lap, now moved with purpose.
I wrapped my fingers around my cock, already thick and heavy with blood. The first stroke was slow, a deliberate pull from base to tip, my thumb smearing the bead of pre cum that had already formed.
The actor puts his cock on her directly reaching her womb and roughly fucks her hard.
"Yes, daddy punish me... Ahhhh oh yesss!!!!" she screamed with whole energy on her body.
Her eyes looked like she wanted more.
My grip tightened, matching the intensity in her voice. "Ahhhhhhhhh, yes, yessss yesssssssssssss," she hissed through clenched teeth, her body beginning to shiver.
"Fuck me more ahhhhhhhhh!!" And then it happened. Her spine curved into a breathtaking, sharp arch, lifting her hips off the bed.
A clear, viscous fluid gushed from her pussy, a beautiful, obscene testament to her pleasure that coated her inner thighs.
The sight of that tanned skin, now flushed a deep crimson and glistening with her juices, was my undoing.
The pressure in my groin became an unbearable, white-hot coil. "Argh... Grunts..." I couldn't hold back. A thick, powerful jet of cum erupted, followed by another and another, painting a warm, sticky trail up my stomach. My body shuddered with the force of it.
I gasped for air, my heart hammering against my ribs, but my cock didn't soften. If anything, it felt harder, angrier, still throbbing with a demanding pulse.
On screen, the man effortlessly flipped her over.
The camera angle shifted to a low, wide shot from behind. Her ass was perfectly round and firm, and between her cheeks, her pussy was a work of art.
It was completely bare, the outer lips swollen and dark with arousal, parting slightly to reveal the wet, pink flesh inside.
It wasn't just glistening; a single, thick drop of her essence clung to her entrance before slowly stretching down and dripping onto the sheets below. It was mesmerizing, a hypnotic display of pure, unadulterated need.
My mouth watered, and my hand was back on my cock, stroking faster now, the sticky remnants of my first orgasm serving as lubricant.
But then, the guy pulled back. "Call me daddy and say you want daddy's cock inside your slutty pussy!!" His voice was a low, gravelly command.
I almost screamed in frustration.
Motherfucker nobody is here for plot just fuck her!
My strokes became more aggressive, a mix of anger and desperate arousal.
Then he reached off-screen and produced a bottle of golden honey. My frustration evaporated, replaced by a sudden, sharp intake of breath.
He held the bottle high, and a thick, slow-moving ribbon of amber liquid drizzled down. It landed right on her puckered asshole before trickling down to coat her already dripping pussy.
The visual was obscene and looked very delicious. The honey caught the light, making her glisten like a freshly glazed pastry.
The thought of tasting that mix of honey and her and burying my tongue in that sticky sweetness, sent a jolt straight to my core.
He leaned in, not with his cock, but with his mouth. I watched, completely captivated, as his tongue traced the path of the honey.
"Ahh!" she gasped, her body jolting as if electrocuted.
One hand flew back to tangle in his hair, not to push him away, but to hold him there. Her other hand snaked underneath her to grope her own breasts, her fingers sinking into the soft flesh.
Her moans were no longer high-pitched screams but deep, guttural sounds that vibrated through the speakers. Each panting breath she took seemed to materialize as a wisp of steam in the cool air of the room.
The camera zoomed in closer.
Her lower back was arched, lifting her ass high in the air, presenting herself completely.
Her legs were spread wide, bent at the knees in a perfect 'M' shape, giving an full view of the feast.
He was devouring her, his mouth working with a frantic, hungry energy, his tongue lashing against her clit, delving inside her.
"Mmmph... ahhh, yes, put your tongue there... ahhhhh yes yes yessssss!!, yeah yeah right there... nooo noo a little bit upp!" Her instructions were a desperate, fragmented chant.
"Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhh I'm cummming!" Her body seized up, her thighs quivering violently as a powerful orgasm ripped through her.
Watching her lose control like that, watching the sheer, unfiltered pleasure on her face, was too much.
The coil in my groin snapped again. "Fuck!" I grunted, my body tensing as a second, intense orgasm wracked me.
This one wasn't as much then first one, but it felt deeper, more profound, leaving me taking long breaths.
As she was still coming down from her high, panting and whimpering, he finally positioned himself. The camera captured the moment perfectly the thick, angry head of his cock pressing against her honey slicked entrance.
With one, brutal thrust, he was inside. Her scream was different this time not of pain, but of pure, triumphant bliss. "YES! Punish this ungrateful whore with your huge cock!" she shrieked, pushing back against him. "Yes, more, more, harder, harder, YESSS!"
The sound of his hips slapping against her ass filled the room, a sharp, rhythmic,
thwap-thwap-thwap
That was the soundtrack to my own frantic stroking. My cock was almost painfully hard, the skin stretched taut, every nerve ending on fire. I was matching his pace, my hand a blur, chasing a third, final release.
It built quickly, a frantic, desperate need. "Come on, come on," I muttered, my eyes glued to the screen, to the sight of his thick cock moving in and out of her, stretching her, claiming her.
Then, it hit. My vision blurred, my body went rigid, and a guttural moan was torn from my throat. The third orgasm was less a wave and more a series of sharp, electric shocks, each one accompanied by a weak spurt of my load.
It left me completely and utterly spent, my body slumping into the chair, my hand finally falling away from my now-sensitive, softening cock.
For a long moment, I just sat there, the only sounds in the room my own ragged breathing and the faint, whimpers coming from the laptop.
I finally mustered the energy to clean up, wiping myself down before stumbling to the bathroom to wash my hands and face.
I looked at my reflection in the mirror eyes glassy, face flushed, completely drained.
I looked at myself and post nut clarity hits me like waves crashing in the walls near huge ocean.
I said to myself how pathetic, you can't stop gooning is this why you were born?
Your father and mom not even that your sister leaves in this house and you goon everyday,
What if you get caught one day?
Can you face them?
Can you face yourself in mirror?
I throw a wave of cold water in my face and hit the pose Eren hits in AOT that 'Fight' 'Fight' scene one I think.
I said to myself,
You are your father and mothers only son and you are doing what? gooning?
How pathetic, I left the washroom with serious face and full of motivation.
And started practicing the physics past year question's The problems was something like this..
A factory has a long copper wire (resistivity 𝜌= 1.68 × 10^(-8)Ωm that is used as a transmission line for electrical power.
The wire carries a current I=120A and is laid out on a machine that is positioned within a magnetic field. The machine's rotating coil, which has a radius of r = 0.3m, generates a magnetic field B=0.5T at the point where the wire is placed.
The wire has a diameter of d=2mm, and the length of the wire is L=1000m, where the wire runs parallel to the ground.
The factory has a safety measure that involves a current-carrying wire running in close proximity to a rotating magnet to induce a braking force on the machine in case of power surges.
The braking force is intended to oppose the motion of the machine. You are asked to calculate the following:
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.(Full question is in comments)
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WHAT THE FUCKING FUCK IS THIS PAST YEAR QUESTION?
It felt like someone has thrown cold water at me and my motivation vanished and I slept on my bed above my blanket it feels a little cool.
I stared at my ceiling and I thought why people come to life, what is the meaning of life?
Why do people live? Is it all about fucking and fucking and preserving the generation.
Why do I live?
People say find your passion but wtf is my passion?
Sometimes I want to be a drawing artist like those manga creators and sometimes I want to be influencer and some times I want to be a web-novel writer after reading those cringe ahh novels.
"Young master is here to save jade beauty" wtf? is this plot ￣へ￣
Well today I am writing and I can feel those writers pain,
Well where were we oh yes this Shishir was staring at ceiling.
What is the point of my life, I thought
Am I here only to continue my generations and I didn't know when but I opened my phone and started doom scrolling,
I came across this fucking cringe ahh shorts..
I will make this video private in a week so watch till the end(He will not.)
If you are watching this shorts you are the lucky one who can get ahead of 99% of people who cannot escape rat race(Those rat race guys have one sexy and lovely wife and good career not single like you, you fucking virgin.)
Today in this video we are going to talk about how I earned 10000$ just by using a simple trade strategy that you can use and earn like me,
What all u need is average internet connection and if u have laptop even better or you can do with the smart-phone you are using to watch this shorts and before I tell you about my secret strategy.
This video is sponsored by Shishir shadow legends, wait wtf is my name doing there,
I rubbed my eyes and saw that he meant Winter-Fall shadow legends.
After he yaps about his trading strategy.
After learning his strategy the small post nut clarity that remained inside me forced me to open my laptop and I opened a paper trading account but this fucking market was moving in parallel and looking at charts felt so boring,
So, I started watching reels in laptop there is no saving me. ≡(▔﹏▔)≡
After doom-scrolling I stumbled upon a reels that said..
There was a podcast setup and a doctor was sitting and a interviewer asked "What is the latest we should sleep at night? mam"
The doctor replied "Anyone who is sleeping past 11:00 pm is killing himself."
I looked at clock and saw it was only 10:45 and ignored this reel.
At 2 am and this Shishir idiot was still doom-scrolling.
I looked at clock again and saw it was 2 AM and I had intense urge to pee and drink water too but I thought I should drink water first,
What if I had urge to pee again after I urinated first and then drank water.
I may not have a brain but I have an idea ahh thinking was this.○( ＾皿＾)っ Hehehe…
After doing all this I went to bed and couldn't sleep and after staring at ceiling I went to sleep and woke at 11 am.
Today it was sunday which saved my ass or else I had to wake up at 7 am.
After waking up and doing some stretching it was too cold I din't wanted to leave my bed but my sister knocked at my door and said lunch is about to get ready in half an hour,
She said "I stopped mom from waking you up early. No need for thanks." and she left
This was absolute W from my sister, Everyone write W in comments.
After doing all morning routines,
I started watching all the reels sended by bro if we look at our chat it is filled with reels and after reacting to reels lunch was ready after eating lunch,
I started watching the show suggested by my bro It is called GOT,
Stannis is the TRUE KING \(￣︶￣*\))
Don't spoil me I am in 2nd season.
I watched it till eveing and my homies were at my door so I went with them to play mini football near by the park after cursing that mother fucker who kept on cheating and cursing each other,(I was cheating too ○( ＾皿＾)っ Hehehe…)
My shirt was completing wet with sweat.
I came back home and realized I had done nothing productive today.
So I started pacing around thinking about how to survie Monday. ⊙﹏⊙∥
I kept on pacing around in room and kept on walking on how to change,
And so after pacing for sometimes, I opened my phone and was reading the novel and I saw the comment which had great impact on me,
The comment was something like this,
THE GRAND DAO IS MEANINGLESS
SO UNFORTUNATLEY EVEN YOUR LOVE IS ALSO MEANING-LESS BUT WE CULTIVATORS ARE BORN TO DEFY HEAVENS AND EVEN GRAND DAO "IT SELF"
SO IS SENIORS LOVE SO GREAT THEN HE IS READY TO GO AGAINST NATURAL ORDER OF WORLD AND BRING IMMENSE CALAMITIES IN WORLD JUST TO GIVE MEANING TO YOUR LOVE?
IF NO THEN YOUR LOVE SHALL NEVER BEAT, MY LOVE TOWARDS MY SENIOR BROTHER WHO PAVED MY WAY TO WORLD OF DEFY.
JUNIORS NOWDAYS CALL IT CULTIVATION BUT OUR LIFE IS ALL ABOUT DEFYING THE RULES MADE BY OUR PREDECESSOR BECAUSE AT SOME TIME THEY DEFIED EVEN OLDER RULES TO CREATE NEW RULES WHICH I SHALL DEFY!!!!!!
SO DEFY EVERYTHING, U CANT LIVE WITHOUT GOONING?
WHO SAID THAT?
DEFYING OWNSELF IS THE HIGHEST FORM OF BEING IN THIS ROAD OF LIFE BECAUSE PEOPLE THINK DEFYING OTHER IS FREEDOM BUT TRUE FREEDOM IS TO KNOW WHEN TO DEFY ONESELF AND TO ALSO KNOW WHEN NEVER TO LET IT GO!!!
MY FELLOW BROTHERS, SO LET'S WALK IN PATH OF DEFYING EVERYTHING FROM NEXT YEAR!!!
After reading this comment I was filled with some different king of belief and I said thank you to the commenter and wrote the reply "Thank you brother if only I could have free spirit like you and always be happy."
There was a reply after some times,
Well I never had problem with my life I have been improving myself evreryday and I hope your next year go as you want which of course will not go😄,
No one can predict everything, but dont give up I plan to do many thing in life or even today but I just can't do cause I am not perefect which motivates me to improve every day but whenever my days goes without any diffculties,
I feel like something is missing.
I WILL SUGGEST to start your journey of defiance from next day cause new year is just a day too and dont think of doing many things and huge things at once.
Do small and only one thing at a time like..
Do u know what does my name mean it means the last part of winter when leaves are falling off from trees and nature is ready to welcome spring but if I Shishir never existed spring will never start cause spring means the season of birth of new plant and a melodious season but only when leaves fall in Shishir so they can grow more beautiful in spring.😄
So be happy brother!!
I was suprised that this man had same name as mine.
I realized I was also always happy and I was never sad,
The old days I remebered where also same, the problems were also same,
I had same academic pressure since childhood and I had same friends and there were times when I was unhappy but isn't it same as well now-days,
So there was nothing to worry about and I knew what to do from onwards,
That is to never stop walking in this road of life, I have always been loser and so I am immune to consequneces of losing,
This chapter might not get famous so what? so keep walking.
So I kept walking.
I walked everyday, I walked till I was tried then I rested for some time and walked again but you might I ask why am I walking continuously well I don't know.