The engine hummed in a low tone as I drove through the nearly empty streets of downtown Toronto. My eyes went to both my sides, lazily gazing at the serene, Victorian style houses bunched up together. The sound of Ayse's breath then made me glance at her.
Beside me, she sat--slumped against the cushion, her mouth slightly parted as she mumbled incoherent words in her sleep. My lips curled. She looked so tiny when she did this. So vulnerable, making want to press her against myself, to kiss that beak-like lips to the fullest.
Her brows held a soft crease as her eyes then fluttered opened. She looked around a little then gazed at me in the dark. Warm brown-locking in with my striking blues.
N-Nur...? she looked at me, then rubbing at her eyes, she glanced at the front of the window. At the houses and at the illuminating billboards. I took a sharp turn to the left. The sky had turned a lot darker as I then pulled up at a parking lot Infront of the rows of stores.
The engine died down.
Yeah...? I murmured, now turning at her. Reaching for her face, I grazed it, sending a shiver down her spine.
Ayse leaned on to it and pressed her cheek against my palm. Warm seeping through with every touch as we stayed like that for a bit. The events of last night still lingered in my mind. How she had clung to a broken me. Even with however much I had pushed her, shrugged her off.
I feared that she may leave me, just like Eylin... my jaw clenched. Or like my family... like my dear "cousins" who only after twenty years noticed my existence.
But last night, she proved me.
My wife, my Ayse...
(Yeter artik! Nur!) Enough Nur! she dropped to the floor beside me, nimble fingers clutching at the bridge of her nose. A thread of lock then fell to her eyes as she then glanced at me.
I ran a hand through my disheveled hair, "Why do you care...huh?" I asked, eyebrows casting a frown. She shot me a look, her eyes held unspoken words, "B-Because... I love you, okay?" her voice broke. I stare at her, at the magnitude of her words. Ayse, after my religion, the only pure thing (Allah) God has send me. I then shook my head, someone like her shouldn't fall for me...
Yet she did.
"I love you so much, Nur!" her voice came out again, J-Just why won't you ever listen huh?
I then took her by her waist, setting her on my lap, i pressed her firmly to me. She curled her fist, pounding against my chest: "S-Say...something?" her lips quivered, eyes glistening with tears as they then rolled down her cheek.
I had avoided her eyes, kept my mouth shut--Though now...?
Gosh... I love you...
a whisper left my lips before I could stop myself. Ayse's eyes widened, yet she whispered back with the same sincerity, ("Bende seni seviyorum, Nur") "I love you too, Nur", in fact, (Ben aslinda...seni çok seviyorum!)" I love you soo much" she murmured making my heart race.
Her eyes then fell to her hands, playing with the strands of her hair that was held by her chiffon veil.
"We still haven't reached our home?" she asked, questioning. Eyes darting outside.
My lips then carved a tiny smirk, "Do you really want to go home?" ...
I then leaned in, hearing the low thrum of her heart. Brushing away a thread of her silky black hair, I tucked it in her veil.
Maybe we could just ...
Her breath hitched as I murmured a few dirty things in her ears. Ayse's eyes widened as she leapt on her seat, "Shhh" she hissed, mortified, pressing her index fingers on my lip.
"Günah!" (Sin)
I then moved my lips fervently against her finger, giving it a smooch. Ayse's face flushed.
Ne günah? (What sin) I grinned flamboyantly, fairly amused by her coy reaction.
Sometimes you forget we are married...
Ayse then let out a soft giggle, Do I now?
She then pressed herself against my shoulders. As I circled her back. Listening to her heartbeat. I gazed down at her, planting my chin on top of her head.
We stay there cuddled in love, watching the pink hue of the sky and at the sunset. My eyes going to her from time to time. She smiled catching me, then her cheeks casted the same adorable pairs of dimples. Which I kissed, breathed.
Ah...how blessed I am...