"So fate brought us together again, huh?" he whispers near my ear.
I get goosebumps all over and stifle a shudder.
"It seems so" I reply, whispering too without looking at him.
St. Janne is explaining something, but I'm not paying attention.
Even without looking at him I feel like my IQ lowered and I'm just dumbstuck, incapable of thinking clearly.
Lucca Kingsford.
Nothing else matters, it's like it's just the two of us in the room.
His white smile, his deep green eyes, his face, his body, everything unsettles me.
It takes my breath away, and my willpower, and I'm a little scared. I have seen plenty of pretty boys but none had this effect on me, it's like I'm not myself and every thought rounds back to him.
"I heard we're going to be partners, what's your name again?" he asks in his damn sexy voice.
Ugh I feel like I might melt.
Control yourself, you're not a lovesick puppy.
Oh, he's talking about his biology assignment.
"Yes, I'm Alexandra Knight. Nice to meet you"
I continue whispering, I don't want the teacher to catch us talking during class and make everyone else know.
"It's a beautiful name, uh, can I call you Alex?"
I feel my ears getting hot. I still don't look at him, but I feel his gaze on me, so heavy like a blanket.
"A-achh-what yes…"
I end up mumbling like an idiot, which in turn makes my face hot.
Great, not even my own brain obeys me, soon I won't even be able to control my movements.
And that's how it was for the rest of the day, his face, his gentle grip on my waist, his voice, it was all I could think about. He made sure to sit next to me in all classes too, always having something to whisper to me. Even though I just kept mumbling dumb replies he still tried talking about all kinds of themes.
I didn't pay attention to a single class. If this continues I'll get in serious trouble.
I just don't understand why he's trying so hard.
He's so out of my league it's not even funny.
Neither Lou's jokes nor the teachers' complaints, nothing managed to absorb my attention.
I look like a robot.
It's not my fault he left me on automatic with energy saving.
My god, I need help.
But out of nowhere, I remember the day of the accident and my thoughts about Lucca vanish as if swept away by a torrent of water.
The memories of the pain and the burning car suddenly occupy my mind. It's like I'm back there, in the hot asphalt, hurting, with him above me…
My thoughts start to torment me... And I know that if I don't do something I will explode.
But I can't talk to Lou, she wouldn't understand me.
I didn't say anything about him to anyone, I'm still trying to convince myself it was all a hallucination.
So I decide to talk to the only person who truly understands me: my private psychologist.
Sammy, my sister.
She hasn't said yet what happened for her to be in the hospital nor she has talked to me yet about anything really, which is completely stupid because our relationship is very close, always have been.
Sometimes she just has... other friends, lots of people vying for her attention. And I just keep my distance.
But now, now it's time to talk.