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The Years I Loved You Alone

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Some years change you forever. Some loves leave a mark you never forget. Ethan thought growing up would be simple—school, friends, first crushes. But the halls of Year 8 hold more than just lessons. They hold laughter, heartbreak, secrets, and moments that linger long after the bell rings. The Years I Loved is a tender, unforgettable journey through youth, where every memory stings a little, every friendship matters, and every love leaves its trace. It’s about the moments that shape us—and the ones we wish we could hold onto forever.
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Chapter 1 - THE NEW GIRL

Ethan always thought Year 8 classrooms smelled the same—paper, dust, and the faint scent of teenage chaos. But that morning, the air felt different, charged, the way it does before rain.

He sat in his usual middle-row seat, fiddling with a pen that didn't work half the time, waiting for the bell to stop echoing through the corridors. He didn't expect anything new. Nothing new ever happened here. Life moved in slow circles—wake up, school, homework, sleep, repeat.

But sometimes, without warning, life tilts.

The door creaked open, and a burst of cold winter air slipped inside before the person holding it did.

A girl.

She stepped in like someone entering cautiously into a story she didn't know how to read yet. Her coat was a little too big, her hair a little too messy, her fingers gripping a blue folder so tightly it looked like she was clinging to something familiar in a world that wasn't.

The teacher cleared his throat.

"Class, this is Lily Bennett. She's moved here from Derby. Make her feel welcome."

Her eyes scanned the room—nervous, soft, curious. Eyes like she was waiting for someone to smile first.

Ethan stared before he realized he was staring. He quickly dropped his gaze to his notebook like it had suddenly become fascinating.

Mr. Turner gestured carelessly. "Lily, you can sit… hmm… ah, yes. Next to Ethan."

Ethan's stomach flipped.

Lily walked towards him slowly, her backpack bouncing slightly against her shoulder. She took her seat with a tiny exhale—like she'd been holding her breath ever since she walked in.

She turned her head toward him.

"Hi," she whispered.

Her voice was gentle, like a warm secret.

Ethan's pulse practically forgot its rhythm. "Hi."

He hated how shaky it sounded, but Lily smiled anyway—a real smile, soft at the corners, like she was relieved he hadn't ignored her.

Mr. Turner launched into a lecture about percentages, equations, something numerical Ethan usually understood but absolutely did not absorb today.

Lily leaned closer, pointing at his notebook. "What're you drawing?"

Ethan's hand shot over the page like he'd been caught stealing.

"Uh—it's nothing. Just… boredom."

She tilted her head, studying the little bits of sketch visible beneath his fingers—the uneven branches of a tree, a half-formed bird.

"It's good," she said softly."You should… draw more."

Ethan felt heat spread across his face. Nobody ever complimented his drawings. Most people didn't even know he drew.

Lily continued, "Back in Derby, my best friend used to sketch. Your style kind of reminds me of hers."

"Oh," Ethan said, unsure how to react. "Oh" was the safest option when your brain short-circuited.

The rest of the lesson was a war between wanting to look at her and being terrified of being caught looking at her.

When the bell rang, Lily didn't rush out like most new students desperate to escape the spotlight. She hesitated, eyes drifting around as if trying to decide where to go, where to fit, where to breathe.

Ethan stood up first, then froze, unsure why.

Lily glanced at him. "Um… where do people usually go during break?"

"Behind the science block," he said. "It's where most Year 8s hang out."

She nodded slowly. "Could… could I go with you?"

There it was—a small request that felt like a universe opening.

"Yeah," Ethan said. His voice steadier this time. "Yeah, of course."

The hallways were loud, chaotic, a sea of jackets and laughter and clattering lockers. But walking beside Lily, everything felt strangely quieter.

Outside, the cold bit at their noses. Lily tucked a strand of hair behind her ear, fingers trembling just slightly.

"This place is nicer than Derby," she said. "Feels… slower."

"Boring, you mean?" Ethan teased before he could stop himself.

Her laugh—it wasn't loud, but it was warm, like something waking up after a long sleep.

"No," she said. "Not boring. Just… calm."

They reached the science block. Ethan leaned against the brick wall, shoving his hands in his pockets, unsure how to stand without looking painfully awkward.

Lily kicked a pebble with her shoe. She was quiet for a moment, then:

"I hope people here like me. I hate starting over."

Ethan looked at her—really looked at her. She wasn't just nervous. She was lonely. Lonely in a way he recognized.

"I like you," he said before thinking.

Her eyes widened. Ethan's brain imploded.

"I—I mean—like—you seem nice! That's all! Not like—like in a weird way—just—"

But Lily giggled, her cheeks pink from the cold and amusement.

"Don't worry. I knew what you meant," she said."And… I like you too."

Something bloomed quietly inside Ethan, something he didn't have a name for yet—but one day, he'd call it love.

That night, unable to sleep, he opened his diary.

His pen moved without hesitation:

"She walked into the room, and the universe rearranged itself as if it had been waiting for her to arrive."

He didn't know why he wrote it. He didn't know why she mattered already. But he knew this:

Lily Bennett had changed something in him. Something permanent. Something he wouldn't understand until it was far too late.