*Aivah's pov*
I swallowed as i felt the lump rise to my throat. I wasn't having any emotional breakdown, I just didn't want to see Sean this morning.
Not because of yesterday night but because of what happened this morning.
I woke up to a text this morning, I didn't know who sent it but I did have a pretty good idea who might send it.
"Stay away from my brother"
That was all the message said. Now, seeing this kind of message I guessed it would be Jeff right? But there was something unsettling about the text, something creepier than your lover's brother telling you stay away.
I stared at the message for an unhealthy amount of time before deciding to ignore it..like seriously; who cares?..I shrugged before dropping my phone on the bed.
IJust for the sake of my flaring nerves I stared out the window, scanning the perimeter for dead bodies not that I was expecting any by the way.
If those guys were really from *HUAYTOR* (cult) then their bodies wouldn't be left lying around, not that they care about their lackeys anyway. It's just a sign of weakness for rival cults to find how easy it is to unalive their rivals.
I close my window, pushing away all memories of the so called cult before heading to the bathroom.
I went about my normal morning routine. I even got to the dining room before my siblings today.
"Look who prepared breakfast today" francisca shouted as she came into the kitchen.
I glared at her.
Our house had one simple breakfast rule, whichever of us got to the kitchen first in the morning prepared breakfast; not that breakfast was some tedious job by the way but we were old enough to eat in the morning without waking mum, so the rules were set so we wouldn't have to argue over who should do the cooking.
Of all days this morning for the sake of flipping pigeons, i ventured like a betrayed wolf into the kitchen to find no one.
They all came down the stairs with stupid grins on their faces, all five of them...yes five. In total we were six; I, Henrietta, francisca, Jennifer, Emmanuella and Godsent. Five girls and one boy. I love my siblings but they are shitty fuckheads. I know they all stayed in bed on purpose so I would do the cooking
I punctually gave each of them bombastic side-eyes before dishing their food out.
I was eating my food peacefully and speaking of food it's just leftover white rice and a whatever you choose to call it sauce comprising of onion,pepper, tomatoes, sausages, eggs, garlic, whatever seasoning seemed appropriate and any vegetable I could find in the fridge.
"This tastes wierd"... I flashed Godsent a 'do you want to die?' look... "in a good way" he completed amidst mouthfuls and a stupid ass grin.
"What sauce is this?" Jennifer asks...
"Whatever you find in the kitchen sauce" I responded still facing my food...
"Yh, I knew it; no wonder it tastes awful" Henrietta smiled.
"Shitheaded bollock, don't eat it if it's awful then"... I sneered.
"I won't go to school on an empty stomach because of your cooking ivy bear" she continues to stuff her face with the *awful-tasting food*, smiling like an overfed hamster.
The others don't talk while eating...they literally just don't which is entirely fine with me. They just munch away like they have been starving for days.
I finish before them and leave for school.
I walk past Sean's street. Remembering what happened last night and the text I got this morning I decided to check on him. I got to his gate and sighed deeply before walking in.
I hesitated at the front door, I wanted to knock but I didn't know who would answer, I most certainly do not want to announce our relationship to his mother this cold morning, the poor woman might have a heart attack. I sigh again, scrunching my nose before looking for the genz-iest looking window.
It was on the far left, not that high anyway and the house itself was giving old money vibes so it's design left so many climbing advantages.
I climbed up swiftly, I only realized I wasn't breathing when I got to the window. I took in as much oxygen as I could before knocking on the window.
There was no response. No sound. The room became eerily quiet.
I braced myself immediately I saw a silhouette. It was fast so I could be hallucinating but I think I saw quick movement before the Windows were violently thrust open.
I narrowly escaped getting a gash under my eye as i dodged the opening windows.
A hand shot out and grabbed my hand which was now struggling to find something to hold on to.
I was face to face with a club right on the bridge of my nose threatening to split my head should I make any movement.
"It's Aivah" I whispered. The club slightly shifted to reveal a sleepy-eyed and angry Jeff, why did it have to be his window...fuck.
"Oh yes, the blood-sucking demon of Huaytor, do you need drumrolls?" He sneered... "More reason to split your head in half and toss you right on the road" he grunted.
"I know we have unresolved issues and I am not here to cause trouble so please can you let me in?" I used my free hand to nudge the club aside causing all my weight to be on the hand he was holding, he groaned when his arm grazed the window seal before dragging me upwards.
I crawled in and stood there like a cornered prey waiting to be slaughtered.
"Did you climb all the way up to my window to stand there like a drenched cat?" He bellowed, bat still in hand watching me like a hawk, almost as if he was wondering what to do with me.
"Did you text me this morning?" I asked finally. He gave me the look Brits give people when they say their food is bland.
"And why in the world would I have your number?" He asked. I should have been relieved that he at least wasn't the sender but why the fuck was he acting like having my number would demean him; even if I no longer live the life I used to I am still far superior to him. Hmph.
"I received a message this morning" I hissed showing him the message, he didn't even grace me with a reaction...the mighty idiot was acting nonchalant, but if he didn't send the message; who did?..
"And yesterday..." I went on to yap about the events of yesterday excluding the part where I killed someone. He watched with a look that said 'you are a pathetic and boring liar'
"Is that all?" He asked suspiciously, an empty smile forming. I hesitantly give him a slight nod.
"Hmm...it is either you are lying through your butthole, Aivah or you are forgetting the part where someone gets unalived"... he sits down on his dresser staring me down.
I fucking forgot this was Jeff, why did I even exclude that part in the first place but fuck that...he knows and so what?...'mouthbreather'
"It was inevitable" I swallowed.
"He was your kin...oh I forgot you aren't really keen on the kin supremacy" he mocked, smiling, my face started burning up as anger engulfed me.
"Don't even try that asshole, you don't want to go down that rabbit hole cause you don't even know what kin means; I have never betrayed my kin, the first ever time I had to so much as lay my hands on them was because of you so save that kin bullshit as your food for thought" I fumed as my hand unconsciously went to the sheath underneath my shirt.
"Hol'up blood monger" he raises his hands in mock surrender... "I don't want my brother to see my hands bloodied up bu...t I would pay any amount for him to see you for your real self" he said standing up.
My shoulders drop as his words hit me, I can't ever let Sean see me like this...ever.
"You are badluck and I don't want any of that near Sean" he jabbed my my shoulder with every word before smiling at my now worried face, whatever he wanted those words to do to me were accomplished. I was worried that what he said was true and that it was unsafe for Sean to be around me.
*Knock knock*
I and Jeff froze simultaneously for a sec. The asshole pushed me, I almost fell out the fucking window. I turned around to give him a look that promised nothing good.
"I will distract him so run along and don't come to my house again" he whispered before hiding away his club.
I went over the window as soon as he opened the door and quietly but quickly climbed down, the reverse journey seemed longer than when I climbed up earlier, I silently whispered a prayer to the big bro up in the sky my mum always talked to..."Sean can't find me climbing down his brother's window pls.." before sprinting my heart out all the way to school.
I stayed in class but I was becoming restless with each passing minute so I went down to the music room.
I wanted to say hi to Sean first but I didn't dare to, I had this feeling that an LD sign saying "murderer" was written on my forehead and only Sean could see it.
This is not the first time I have unalived someone but this is the first time I felt this way...fuck. fuck. fuck..shit.
I dozed off as soon as I lay down on the piano bench inhaling the dust filled air.
I would have gone on sleeping until I heard a door open but I was too drowsy and concluded i must have misheard, I only woke up when the lights hit my eyelids.
I sat up instantly, looking over the piano. I didn't know who it was but the incident of last night was still etched on my mind so my hands went for Jakar immediately but before I could unsheath him my eyes quickly adjusted to the light and behold it was Sean...fuck I almost raised a dagger in front of him. I dropped it and got up all giddy and walked to him.
He was crying.
I was the reason he was fucking crying, am I really that much of an asshole? I asked myself while trying to console him.
The lie just rolled off my tongue 'i was having an emotional breakdown' I even tried to make out in that situation. Pervert!!!.
"Did you kill that guy... yesterday night?" He asked, eyes filled with pity? I don't know.
I wanted to say no, i couldn't let him see me as a murderer, I've been good since we were together, I just don't want him to leave me. I have really grown attached to him; tears were welling behind my eyes threatening to break out any time.
"Yes" I swallowed, eyes wet. I watched his beautiful hazel eyes go dark in an instant "I didn't mean to...I ju..I just...they came to my house and...and...fuck I didn't mean to kill anyone" I whimpered as I broke out in tears.
I was trembling and backing away with my eyes shut before I felt an overwhelming shiver run down my spine, fingers going around my side to my back. He was hugging me and patting my back. I wanted to look at his face but he pressed my head further down on his shoulder.
"I knew you wouldn't hurt them on purpose"
"They didn't hurt you right?"
"You didn't leave your fingerprints on them right?"
"You're safe ivy"
"You're safe"
"Don't cry" he whispered
I was shocked at what he was saying. I literally killed someone and he is worried about me being hurt and if I left evidence on site. How did he even know...wait... fuck Jeff. He must have a loose screw to show bunny something like that.
"Aren't you scared of me bunny?" I mumbled on his shoulder.
"Why would I be scared of you" he retorts almost immediately.
"I killed that guy bunny, he is dead; are you not terrified one bit?" I ask genuinely worried.
He doesn't respond for a while, just caressing my head...
"This is not the first time I have seen you in such state,although I didn't see you kill anyone but you would have given the way you were fighting but I did save you and my brother and yes I am very much terrified...I am terrified those people might kill you" he finally said.
My eyes widened in shock as I jerked up instantly, searching his eyes... searching for anything, anything that would give him away anything that would tell me he was lying. He wasn't. He was dead serious.
I do remember a third party the day I and Jeff escaped that hellhole but I couldn't make out the face, Jeff was clearly protective of the person that night. Why didn't I think of Sean?..well. I remember turning on Jeff's location when he was unconscious and we were outnumbered but oh mi heavens I would never have guessed the person under the hoodie and cargo pants was my gentle, lovely bunny and he was terrified of me getting hurt?..shit..I am fucked.
"Why didn't you tell me, bunny?" I whispered, tears welling all over again.