"Perhaps your tenderness and thoughtfulness would have moved me. Perhaps his gentle, refined nature would have captivated me. Perhaps I would have married you, had our baby, and lived a peaceful, happy life!
But in this world, there are no 'what ifs'!
You suffer from loving me, but I suffer even more from loving Seth Quinn. While I loved him, I also hated myself. I'd wonder, 'Why can't I stop loving him? Why can't I just leave him?' He couldn't care less about me, so why did I have to humble myself to the dust just to please him?
I was miserable and in pain, so I slept with you that one time. I admit, I was drunk that day. I also wanted to get back at Seth Quinn. That's why I slept with you.
But later, you really did start to take up a place in my heart. The hold Seth Quinn had on me gradually began to lessen.
