"I lost everyone... because I was weak."
The man continued walking all alone in the foggy sand ground, he moved on in the empty land and silent winds. And in the fog he disappeared.
"Huh...? They really look like...they are enjoying...is school really fun?" I thought, sitting on my seat in the classroom and just looking at everyone, enjoying with their friends. But I never understood the reason of smiles and laughs on their faces, what's so interesting in having friends? What's the point to care about someone? I never had a friend except a few, but most of the time they weren't with me in school, so it's hard for me to find the answer.
I gave a sigh, already feeling exhausted and I kept my head down on the desk and said, "Why I have to keep myself in the boredom all the time in school? It's better to play games. And what else I want anything else anyways?"
I smiled and my eyes closed, the noisy voice of my classroom started becoming silent slowly slowly, I started feeling relaxed, comfortable by the silent voice, it was pleasant, it was beautiful.
"This silence... should always be in the world for me, I would really appreciate if all the voices become silent...it would be heaven." It was my wish from God. Whether I will achieve it or not...but even silence for a moment would be great for me.
And with the beautiful thoughts, I slept in the classroom while the students continued the noise, but the noise became silent for me.
I opened my eyes, and I found myself in...an apocalypse? I was surprised, I looked in front and a huge monster was standing in front of me.
"Miyo, are you going to fight or do we manage?"
I heard a voice from ahead, and two boys were standing holding their swords and looking at me. I couldn't recognise their faces, it was blurry...but it looked like they are really relying on me.
"What are you thinking about Miyo? Want any help?"
I turned back, and behind me were three girls whose faces...were also blurry? I couldn't recognise them either, but... one's face was kind of familiar.
I just smiled, took out my black sword and started moving towards the monster and mumbled, "I think...I can manage this time."
The boys stepped back and I continued walking, the monster roared loudly and I jumped to its head.
"We can really rely on him." Everyone said in a low voice.
The monster made the fireball in its mouth, but my arms moved with the sword and the head of the monster was cut apart from its body--
But the fireball didn't stop, and it rage and attacked straight at me.
The place was completely covered with dust and the clouds fallen down on land. I somehow survived the attack, I was standing alive coughing by the smoke of the fireball. But everything still looked fine.
I covered my mouth by my hands, and looked back. At the smog I could see some shadows...but suddenly the shadows also disappeared.
I didn't understand it, I called with a low voice, "Hey... everyone, can you all hear me?"
But there was no response, the silence was scary and I couldn't see anyone.
But suddenly all the smog disappeared, my coughing stopped and I looked in front... there was no one, everyone had left...and I was alone... once again.
"Miyo!!! Can you hear me?!"
Suddenly I got a shot of a chalker straight on my head and I was pushed back, the seat collapsed and I finally woke up from the dream.
It was all just a dream...I finally came in my senses and looked at everyone. Everyone was staring at me, and most of them were laughing and the rest didn't even care about my existence, they just took their faces off and looked at the board.
The teacher walked to me and I tried to stand, and the teacher caught my collars, and I stood-- and suddenly, he slapped.
My ears were blocked for a second, all the boys started laughing loudly.
The teacher bellowed with complete rage, "Is this the time to sleep?! Why don't you just go home and sleep all the time?! It would be better for the world if you slept forever, no one cares about you anyways."
...Yes, this is my school life. No one close, no one on my side and I am just listening these words from years.
"Sometimes I really think you are saying right." I replied straight to the face the teacher and he became more angry... But I was just done with these words, my life looks like a life of an undead zombie, just existing and nothing else.
All the time I could think of, it would be of the world I wish to exist there, like a world of apocalypse where survival would be everything. I wouldn't have to listen to others' orders or words, I would be free then, I wouldn't need to care about those who are laughing, those who could just give me pain. I would be free at the world of jungle. And even if I died, I won't be sad because there's already no one to live for.
But it's just my imagination, my overthinking how beautiful it would be if there would be an apocalypse and no one will need to study, what they will need to study is survival which they would learn on their own. But again... there's no such a world.
The teacher shouted, "What did you say--"
"You really don't have ears, do you? I said something for your own good. My life would be better at hell than this school--"
And the teacher raised his fist and he started beating me again and again. Punches blew on my head, and he didn't stop. And no one didn't even try to stop him either, everyone was just watching and enjoying the show.
This is it...this is me...this is my life.