in the past i loved this certain girl it was when we were kids tho we have the same last name, so the other kids and the teachers teased us that we dont have to get married cuz she already have my last name, to be honest i already really liked her back then,
And then after about 4-5 years, i found her social ive been trying for so long, well technically it wasnt me who found her social it was my mom, cuz back then we were close and our mom was close, that was back then when i was a kid and my parents are still together but rn they arent, so i found her social, weve been throught life idk what happened in hers but it seems a bit fine,
I remember the date i messaged her it was before valentines back then i didnt even notice, and then i came back from school and found a message, its foggy but i remember that we catched up, and our old flare that we didnt know what it was, was love just pure love, no anything just pure, talking to her made me so happy like really happy, we were messaging each other every second it was like something ive never felt, it was love, reassurance, she accepted even my obvious flaws, and i never saw a flaw in her cuz love is blind, but i now see one flaw her smile changed its not that old smile her mom changed her smile i know it i just know it cuz my mom tried the same on me and our mothers are really alike, her smile was the most beautiful thing ive seen, like the stars singing and nature just being there, her eyes showed suffering inside, but it was mostly like the starry night sky, she was my warmth my sun, that warmth i still long for it, its about months when we were talking as usual im still filled with joy, and then im about to eat so i told her to wait a minute,(i learned to eat food fast just to have more time with her) so i ate my sunny side up egg, not knowing that my fav egg is the last thing i eat before i lose her again, so then i was done eating ans going to the room upstairs and then she called, i waited and answered it upstairs, what i saw wasnt my sun or my warmth.. It was her mom, her mom was unnaturally angry idk what i did but she just starts swearing at me telling me to never talk or contact her daughter again and shes gonna tell me mother, they arent friends on their social cuz my mom uses a different one now, but i was still scared so i made the biggest mistake in my life. i blocked her and deleted our conversations.
and thats how my first relationship ended, and im still not sure we can be considered bf and gf back then, even tho we said we loved eachother every minute.
thats the past