I've been close with Ares since we were children.
It's been 10 years and we have always been together.
I've been with him and I know how much he's been through.
I always liked how he was so strong mentally and was way more mature than most of the kids our age.
I did like him as a child but I wasn't sure what that feeling was.
Even until now, I still carried those emotions but I wasn't aware of them.
2 months before Ares Confessed to mez I grew infatuated to a transfer student in my class.
He was tall handsome and he treated me very differently from other girls in my class.
I liked the superior feeling I felt when I was with him.
I eventually grew close to his friend and another transfer student Alice.
I liked her quite a bit maybe even more than Frey.
No, I liked her way more than I liked Frey.
I thought that was how girl friendship was like.
We were almost gayish but not at all...
I didn't know.
I still had a very good relationship with Ares and I liked him the most out of my 3 friends.
I am a tad introverted like Ares and I couldn't really make any friends.
I wasn't aware of my popularity until Frey and Alice told me about it.
I wondered why Ares wasn't as popular.
But, the reason was simple.
People said that he seemed stuck up and didn't seem like the type who would want to make friends due to his maturity unbeknownst of his age.
People liked him but were too afraid of being hit where they wouldn't want to be hit.
So they left him be.
Than... came the fateful day.
4 months before... he Confessed to me.
I was surprised and flabbergasted even.
For Ares to like me... am I that good looking?
Was what I initially thought
but...
I was extremely happy but also extremely sad aswell.
Because I had to reject him.
Why?
Because I was unaware of my own emotions.
I liked Frey, I also liked Alice but I also liked Ares.
I was confused, if I didn't like Ares the way I liked Frey... I would just end up hurting him.
Scarring him for life.
So due to my own indecision and emotional instability which is common for every human my age.
I rejected him.
I was scared of our relationship going to the cleaners after this and that was what happened.
After rejecting him, I was too afraid to talk to him, afraid of hurting him or giving him the wrong idea.
I also at some point started wondering if it as fine to give him the wrong idea but I was scared...
Scared of my own emotions.
So I stalled for time.
I waited, hoping he'd start talking to me again
Until that happened.
2 months ago, Alice asked me about Ares.
Apparently, he is someone she knows from her childhood when she was very little.
Or he resembles someone from her childhood.
I thought, she must be misunderstanding something and just asked her to jokingly talk to him and know him.
Apparently, he had the same name and surname but... why didn't I know of her?
She slowly grew closer to him and I grew tense.
Completely forgetting about my love for Frey.
I Stated to talk to him again but it's been so long that the awkwardness was way worse than it ever was.
So I kept my mouth shut.
So while talking to each other... I ended up telling her that I liked Frey.
In the hopes of her confessing to him and leaving Ares alone.
But what happened instead was...
"Are you guys seriously daring?"
"Ares and Alice?"
"Seriously?"
Yup, like God was punishing me due to my own indecision.
I felt insane jealousy.
I felt betrayed and angry.
These feelings never existed when Alice was close with Frey.
I than realised why I liked Frey the most.
I realised why I was ready to sacrifice Frey to Alice.
I realised than that what I felt for Ares was genuine love.
So than I wondered what I felt for Frey.
I tried checking with AI
This was the answer I got.
[YOU FEEL ADMIRATION FOR THIS PERSON]
he was a rich guy who was popular and excellent jn his studies.
He was the opposite of me who wasn't rich nor was I as popular as alice nor was I very good with my studies.
My only redeeming quality is my over the top skills in gymnastics.
Which didn't really have a promising future.
He had a rich family and a promising future.
And u was both an admirer of his life and a product of my jealousy aswell.
So.. what about Ares?
Did I felt the same admiration for him?
Was it not love?
I hoped that I hadn't loved him and it was only admiration but... AI gave me a different answer.
One I hoped I wouldn't have to see.
[IF YOU LIKE HIM SO MUCH, WHY DON'T YOU JUST COMFESS TO HIM? NO NEED TO ME ME FEEL SO JEALOUS.]
Was the answer that the AI Gave me.
I don't know what I have been doing since than.
But, I've been doing the craziest of things begging Ares to break up with her.
With the guise of caring about Alice when it wasn't actually the case.
It was fine to do that because I knew she was doing it because she thought I liked Frey.
I even told her that I actually liked Ares and she didn't have to go so far to date him and not the one she liked.
I can still remember the face she had when I said that.
Why doesn't anyone believe me?
Why did she react like that?
So let's assume I am in fact sacrificing myself to date Ares which obviously isn't the case.
What difference would it make?
Why make that face when you are the one doing the same thing.
The glare she gave me... I've tried ignoring it but I feel like that glare didn't mean 'Don't lie to me'.
It felt like it meant more along the lines of ' don't you dare touch my man'
But... maybe that's just my imagination.
So I tried confronting Ares about it.
I tried the unconventional means, but since it didn't work... I became honest with him.
And he was genuinely pissed because he got the wrong idea about the whole issue.
Now I've been pushed back even further.
But... now the real problem was...
He started liking Alice after every unfair thing I did to him.
Why did this happen?
If only... if only those 2 hadn't shown up.
If only those 2 transfer students hadn't shown up.
My emotions wouldn't have been this much of a mix up.
Even though I'm so desperate to mend my relationship with him.
It won't work out because of the fact that he hates me now.
And the fact that I'm being hated by such a kind guy...
Not to mention someone I hold really dear to me.
I absolutely hate it!
But, I'm too far gone.
I have no way of making things right with him again.
"Well than, I'll be going now... see you guys tomorrow."
"So early? Where are you going Amelia?"
"Aah... my mother... she's meeting ome guy she started liking and we were called for a family dinner... I swear that mother of mine. She's rich but she's too gullible. So me and bro will oversee and know what kind of a family that guy has."
Must be nice... having a good family even though you are a goddammit bully.
My father and mother are always busy and they rarely come home on time.
All that hardworking and we barely pass the middle class.
While you have a single mother who is rich?
Am I the only one having a shifty life?
Well... I bought it on myself really.
I have nobody to blame but myself.
...
Well... is it finally that time of the day?
We had a family dinner planned with the women father is currently involved with.
2 children on their side and 2 from ours.
It's their very restaurant that father works and the women owns so it's apparently free of charge.
Anyway we were currently at the restaurant that my father works at.
"Hey dad... what work do you do at a restaurant Anyway?"
"Management work and also cooking and also many other things."
"This is where you work in the evening right?"
"Mhm!"
Damn... this is atleatt a 3 star restaurant.
How do you work here and not earn a fortune?
Are they exploiting you perhaps?
"Well, it's part time so obviously I get paid based on hours and don't get an annual package."
"Why don't you just work here forever than?"
"Well it's not that simple son. If I work here full time, I won't get the same salary that I get for working 3 jobs."
"Hmm... that makes sense but working so many jobs will you be able to spend time with her?"
"Didn't I tell you?-"
"He's obviously marrying me so he can do full time here while providing for you two."
Right when we were talking together on the table someone entered.
"Ooh Milia! Welcome!!!"
My dad said in excitement.
"Hello!"
"Hii!!"
My sister and I greeted the 3 that showed up.
The mother was somewhat short around 5'6 but she was extremely beautiful and fashionable.
Right next to her stood a tall man who looked taller than me.
He's probably 6'0 at the very least and he had an extremely handsome face.
Is he seriously 1 year younger than me?
"Hello!"
The man said, bowing a bit.
And next to him... was this women.
She was extremely beautiful.
Almost scarily so.
She seems to be the same age as me and... she appears to be in the same school as me too but I don't really remember her alot.
Was there such an elegant beauty in this place?
"Hello!"
She too bowed elegantly as she took a look at the two of us.
As she froze in place.
"Hey... aren't you the class topper?"
She asked me, pointing right at me.
"Do... I know you?"
I asked her somewhat surprised...
"Heyy! It's me Amelia..."
Amelia?
Do I know someone with that name?
Amelia... Amelia... Amelia
"You seriously don't recognise me? I'm in the same class as you dude!"
Dude, why are you suddenly acting all nice with me dude?
And no... I don't remember someone with such a beautiful face and an elegant personality.
Wait... her personality...
She seems almost tomboyish.
And... followed hy a school uniform.
Her Blue hair tied in a bun...
Followed by 1 of her top buttons undone.
Giving way to her voluptuous chest.
This women... she... Isn't she...
"You... and you Amelia... that bully?"
I asked as I pointed at her and soon her gentle face cracked and she looked almost menacing.
"What the he'll? I don't remember bullying anyone... what the he'll are you on about? HUH???"
Ooh shit... I'm fucked!