*When I first opened my eyes, well to the part that I defeated the slime that was choking me to death, my first impression that I have in my mind is...*
The sky is so beautiful apparently...
*Looking to the breezing calming wind of the forest, it's like I'm looking inside a telescope... Ah a rock is falling in the distant? A meteorite? No... The sky... Have rocks? Eh?*
How peculiar, even though this apple tree have apples as it's fruits, there... Spirals?? Too bad... I don't have a teeth or sturdy arms to climb the tree I'm underneath with and take a bite of that peculiar fruit...
*But I'm satisfied in my current situation... Until I heard a wolf howl yh I thought I'm cooked at that moment... It's unlike earth but kinda similar for how fate is always trying to torture me or end me in cruel ways... Jeez...*
*As I remembered... My family is a bit...*
Oh look an orb! Nom-
*Nvm... I always have nightmares about my previous family in my past life... Thinking about it now would only saddens me more... I wanna just recall the life I have this past 9 year's...*
It's crazy to think that I would be able to build myself a treehouse! Well I was too focused on my daily training that I forgot to think back about the small achievements I did...
*I remembered how I first chowed down different types of plants to learn their effects... It was funny that I gotten to like the spiral spring looking grass near my area... Or the dizziness I felt that lasted 3 days... Yhh fun times...*
I even got addicted to fishing! That was when I was 5 I guess... I didn't think much of it... Until now... Was 9 year's too short for me...
Anyway ahaha, I guess that spiral looking apple! I managed to taste it at the age of 7! I thinker I stumble upon it again while hunting! It was actually super tasty and sweet! Couldn't help myself but pick it all up and even planted 3 fruits on my small garden near the treehouse...
*Honestly... When I look up the sky I always imagine what kind of life would I have if I grew up inside a society? Far away from everyday fighting monster... Maybe even managed to create lots of friends!*
Well... That's one of my regrets on my previous life... I'm pretty much stuck on my house being reprimanded to catch up to my brother... Honestly I... Did manage to catch up... But... I guess none of it matter because of how overshadowed it was by my big brother achievements...
It's so funny how I always chased my parents approval... I always wanted to be praised for once... That I even thought if I only stopped being useless, will my family will love me for once...
*Oh look at me... I told myself to not dwindle on my past anymore... Anyway! There was only cute monster I fought! I mean some of them are not hostile enough so I let them live... But so sad I didn't manage to tame 1 cute pet at least...*
Oh!! If you wonder how the forest looks like! It have a bunch of big trees!! Usually there's not much open area or a mountain... And at the end of it are big walls! Well the area was like a crater and when you look up on those walls you'll notice a ceiling!! And then the middle have a hole where you can see the sky!!
*You know what's weird... When it rains... The sky looks like it's pouring water all over it's edge.... At first I was scared because I thought I would be drowned down here! It was so scary...*
But I gotten used to it after a year of noticing it... Ah if you wonder how I managed to remember the things I learned and watch on my previous life! It's because of my lifestyle! Well those are the basics of it to rise as an ordinary talentless person...
*It was so suffocating back then... But now... The life I led for 9 year's was pure freedom... A bliss of experiencing myself actually living for once... But those smile are just temporary... I know how messed up my situation is... But I don't want to acknowledge it...*
Simply because... I might cry over it hehe...
*The revelation of the letters of my father... It's... Idk what to feel about that anymore... Are they really proud of me right now? For surviving 9 year's... In this hell hole... Was there sacrifice of maintaining me to be birthed was not in vain...*
Y'know I feel restless and guilty because if my mom wasn't conceiving me in the dungeon, they might have not been stuck here at the bottom of the dungeon... Maybe if I wasn't born... They still be happy right now in the surface...
Where did I go wrong??
I didn't wronged anyone right... I didn't make someone suffer right... Then why... Why I my like this... Why I my in this kind of situation...
Was I not worthy of happiness.... Y'know I did my best this last 9 year's... Was that it... Was that the mercy you could give me?
Killing my parents in this life that could have love me a lot... I wanna know what did I do to deserve this... Because I'm at my limit here...
*Pls... Move my finger... I cannot die here yet... Think about me being happy for once... Pls... Just this once...*
##+ Save yourself, Alice. +##
##+ Pls live a happy life this time +##