All of the sudden. I open my eyes. I'm in a hospital. I turn to my side "Ev-Evan...?" I say weakly. I cant manage my voice any louder. "Izzy!? Oh my God I'm so glad you woke up." he starts sobbing. "IM GOING TO KILL THAT PIECE OF SHIT KY-." I cover his mouth. "shhhh... my head hurts." I say "WHAT WERE YOU THINKING??!!! YOU COULD'VE DIED!" he shouts. "I wanted too." I reply calmly I don't feel like myself. but there's one thing I know. I love Evan. its what I've been hiding. but now. its the only sense of self I have. and I'm not going to hide it. I still want to die. I WILL. die. "why.. why would you want to do that, I mean- I know why. but I don't understand..." I hug him. this WILL be my goodbye. after I'm out of the hospital- ill make sure it works.
