Fear in day,
Fear in night,
Fear in breath,
Fear in sleep.
Cold sweats.
Waking to a life of trauma,
Dreaming of a life in fear.
Everything's scary to me.
I'm always afraid.
Thinking of a life I couldn't have,
I'm thinking of a life I wish I had.
The guilt, eating me alive,
Because of a life I dream of having.
I wake up in cold sweats because nothing is ever enough.
I wake up in cold sweats because the life I've lived wasn't life.
I wake up in cold sweats because of fear I have while conciese.
I wake up in cold sweats because dreams haunt my nightmares.
What I want will never come,
What I want has passed me by.
What I want will never be,
Because...
She took it away from me.