Heart pounding so loud I nearly go deaf
My forehead dripping with sweat
Salted tears running down my cheek
Leaving them painted and wet
My mind is racing, moving so fast
Tumbing away with the breeze
Shaking with a tremendous fear
I start to stiffen and freeze
For the imagined monsters and beasts
All the things that scare me most
Take over my mind and my body
And use me as a host
Are they ok? Are they alive?
Does my family love me?
Am I a good mom? Am I a good wife?
I just long to be free
I hate this feeling this knot, this pit
Can't stay still, relax, just sit
I have to think of all the things
Because if I don't, who does?
I just miss the old me
The me that I was.
~SJ~