JAY'S POV:
Our class with Ms. Smith ended, but the heavy atmosphere lingered like smoke. Classmates dodged my gaze as I packed up, shuffling past with stone-cold faces.
Oh no—they hate me now. What do I do? Fuck this, Fernandez!
I slipped out with the crowd, but they kept their distance. Damn it.
I spotted Felix and remembered the chocolates in my bag. Maybe these will fix it.
"Felix!" I barked, closing in.
No turn.
"Felix!"
I caught up and grabbed his arm—he yanked it away.
"Hey... want some chocolate? I've got plenty—"
"Sorry, Jay. Gotta go," he muttered, serious as stone, then bolted.
Tears burned, but I swallowed them. No. I'm not weak. I won't quit.
Keifer glared from afar, eyes like daggers. My heart twisted.
I felt my heart ache a bit.
I walked home alone. No sign of Aries' car in the lot—good riddance.
Aries was already home, feet kicked up on the coffee table, chilling with the TV like he hadn't shoved me into a snake-filled lake. Ugh.
I rolled my eyes and bolted upstairs.I locked my door, sank onto the bed, and stared into nothing.
Thoughts spun wild: We were finally getting along, and now the truth hits. God, I've prayed every day—make it count.
A hot shower later, I slipped into comfy clothes, lit a cigarette, and stared at my phone.
Ci-N. My last shot.
Should I call? Will he snap? Ignore me?
Ok. Whatever happens, it happens. I'll call him.
Ringing... ringing... ringing...
It connected.
"Hello?" Ci-N's voice rasped low, like he was nursing wounds.
"Ci-N, I'm Jay Jay. Why weren't you coming to school?" My voice was a bit cold, but kind.
"I'm sick, Jay. Might be back tomorrow."
"Oh. Get well soon."
"Bye, Jay."
"Bye."
Click.
I stared at the screen. What if he finds out? Ignores me? Hates me? Why do I always carry someone else's sins?
I'm losing my love. 💔 No! If I lose him, I lose everything. I won't let it happen!Please, God—change him. Or give me the strength to change. Please. 🙏🏻
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I'm sorry. I know I've been ghosting you all this time. I'm very sorry. I was going through hell. Please, believe me. I hope you all understand.
And you guys think I may stop this book in the middle, but no. I will never leave you guys. But I may go offline sometimes.
From now, I will write whenever I'm free. I can't upload daily but I'll try